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| ♥ When You Think Too Much Right now I'm listening to Dima Bilan's Believe again. It's been so long since I've listened to a foreign song that is not Korean or Japanese. The reason why I've suddenly mention about this is because I came across my old blog in wordpress, and this song was posted there along with its lyrics. After I revisited that blog, I felt like I need to change the layout of this blog (i know, totally random). I've been thinking about it for some time anyway. I want to do something different other than studying, and yet I'm afraid that the time will be lost. So changing the layout of this blog has been put into my pending list. Though, not doing this lead me into doing other useless things such as watching kdrama on viikii and downloading stuff from megaupload. I don't understand. Should I just let myself do whatever? Coz even when I prevent myself from doing something none beneficial, if my mind was set that I want to do that 'something', my studying will still get delayed no matter how I push that 'something' away until a later date. I guess I should go easy on myself and let loose some ties. If I keep this up, I won't be able to accomplish the most of anything since I will keep on pondering on 'when should I do this', 'if I do this now, then I can do that later. but won't that take too much time? Maybe I should do it tomorrow' and even 'there's that movie going on today. I can watch it right? but what about my test? ah, that could wait until tomorrow. But!' which end up with me not doing either of them and just went to sleep for a whole 10 hours. People are saying that I sleep like babies. lol! Anyways, I don't even know if I'm making sense so far, or if you would get what I mean. As what the title of this post says, I'm clearly thinking too much. I had so many things that I wish I could accomplish and yet I don't know which one I should start with, or if I should pursue two important dreams all at once. If that is even possible for a person like me... I've also been thinking regarding youths in my home-country. It's been really critical on me, since I'm a type of person who enjoys discovering about culture and sociology (though I despise learning it formally). Every other second, the thoughts would randomly come up to me and I will start comparing Australia's youths with them, why this and why that... After being away from Malaysia for so many months and being accustomed with the culture here, I can't help but feel ashamed of our own youths. I can't help but conclude: 'no wonder the nation is full of corruption, has no unique identity and kept on left behind in plenty of things'. Just look at the youths that is supposed to shape the country's future! Ughhh... No wonder so many Malaysians have migrated here... How thin headed could they be? In terms of admiring foreign cultures, why can't they see what's underneath them, what really shapes a culture into something honorable? Why does our youth kept on receiving EVERYTHING and never to produce and contribute? Why can't everyone in the nation stop thinking that what other people do is how things should be? Why can't they built their own dignity and personality, why must we live others'? There are so many whys, and I wish I could just direct them specifically at the people around me. But I can't. Who would listen to a 21 year old like me and take my input seriously... Besides, I can't even express myself very well. People might get the wrong meaning of my words. Labels: Spazz |
