By not conversing, it doesn't mean that I have no thoughts or opinion. By appearing indifferent, it doesn't mean that I simply agree. I just don't like to speak up while having all the possible uncertainty and consequences linger at the back of my mind. I will end up thinking about things over and over until I stress myself and yet I will not voice anything out until I'm absolutely confident that my opinion WILL make a difference.

This is one thing that I find is not very good on my part.

I know most people are more interested in an outspoken individual. They would prefer that the person is able to express themselves in every way. Well, that is just NOT me. For me, I find talkative people by nature isn't as wise and thorough in their ideas and opinions. No offense, but my observation has assured me on that. And not all non-talkative people are wiser either. But most of them are. When we spend more time thinking than  talking, the mind works overtime and it develops better, and talking is just a practice or a medium to obtain input from other people's minds. But talking is not the only way to read people and understand either, body language is also as important.

Well, what I meant to say is, do not underestimate quiet people, because once they speak, you'll never know what will happen to the world tomorrow...


Gosh, this is such a great metaphor of what I really wanted to write about today *Yeah I do have something else in mind*. I am a person who hates to demand and cares about other people too much (many people told me that). I like to communicate with people through body language. I know not all people can read body language as good as I can, but I've assumed that at some point, something might get through to their thick heads.

I do have this weird talent of reading people at the slightest change in the tone of voice or a simple flinch of their muscle. It's difficult to explain, but I guess you can call it the 6th sense. I am quiet for a reason, and I observe for a reason too. I love to understand other people around me, even without exchanging conversation with one another. Your body can say it all even when your mind and lips tries hard to hide it, you know. ;D This is the beauty of looking underneath the surface, unlike some people who never even tries to comprehend.

I haven't said a single word even as pissed as I am right now. I'm thankful that one of you understood me even without me saying it to your faces. But I hope the other you might just stop what you're doing for a while and look behind you, see if you've left any mess behind. My dear, you have to understand that not all people can say absolutely everything that's on their mind like you do. I know you've told us to just tell you anything, even hurtful things. But I just can't! I can't even force myself to. Really, sometime you need to learn how to read body language.

I remembered that you once asked me if you were shallow. I know that it has something to do with my facebook status quite a while ago, which I had purposely written to get to you. In fact, most of my EMO facebook statuses are directed to you. I'm not mad at you, but I just want you to understand that there are my type of people out there. I don't share affections with friends as much as you do, because its annoying to me. But since we're living under the same roof, and it's already been your habit, I considered to just go with the flow. Though, really... I'm not keen AT ALL with the goodbye kisses on the cheek you gave me every time you're going out. I can live with bumping cheeks just as perfectly, but kisses? Hell NO! I know that you just wanted to show that you love me as a friend, but that is just too much, you know? You can do it to other people for all I care, but just not me please. The more you force it on me, the more I'll get annoyed, and from there I will ignore you.

Ok, we're a bit off topic. Nope, you're not shallow. I repeat, not shallow at all! You totally misunderstood the meaning of the words I wrote on my facebook status. Yes, I'm the kind of person who LOVES to use multiple meanings, that only the person I direct it to will understand. But it seemed that you're a bit too short-sighted in your line of thoughts than what I have assumed, that you didn't catch what I was trying to say. No offense, but I think you're that kind of person. You don't look at things in depth enough to know what's underneath, and what's even below that. There's this one time you asked me why I took accounting and finance instead of science courses considering that I took pure science during my SPM, and I replied to you saying that I think social sciences subjects are wide, have many possibilities, and it relates to everything. But then your short mind just had to argue that science courses are wider and have even more possibilities. Helloooooo~ I didn't say that they're not! Why are you so proud in taking science subjects anyways? I didn't ditch my sciences because I were stupid at it, okay. I just find social sciences more intriguing on my part. I like abstract thinking, and I got tired of having everything written down in books. It's boring. Answers for scientific questions are clearly written on paper and journals, but for social sciences question, you have to think. Just take Management courses for an example, people say its hard because it doesn't have any specific answer for its questions. Well, that's the whole point! That's the adventure I've been looking for in life, indefinite but possible in every single way. I can say that there aren't any discipline that is better than the other. There are just passion and interest in either field, since they are the complete opposite of each other, but they work just as similarly, though not quite. So stop bragging!

And to say that I might not be qualified to take science-based courses at UQ, that's totally wrong. I have 13 a-level points, and pharmacy only need 11 points. If I've wanted to, I can easily take that course. But I'm just not interested, so stop comparing between the two. Because again, it's ANNOYING.

And one more thing, I don't do things that i don't like to other people because I don't want other people to do it to me. So if I've been kind enough to keep the house clean, please don't take it for granted. I want you to do the same. And don't give excuses that you're busy and such, I am too. Even though I have four free-from-classes days, it doesn't mean that I don't have readings to do at home. I've taken both science and social sciences subjects even if its at different levels, so I know all the differences. So don't give me those load of crap as if I don't know how busy you science people are. Give and take here, please.

p/s: I've been wanting to speak this out, but being a silent person as I am, I will just write it out. It comes out of me in a much better way anyways. And there are more things I'm still not telling you, but I'll keep that to myself just a little while longer.

p.p/s: The bowl is mine. ASK if you want to use it. And WASH after using it. Don't piss me off!

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