Hey hey... Don't assume I won't smile the whole day. It's still a good day for me. I had fun being all busy again. Haha!!

Ok FINE.. Maybe my lips were smiling, but my heart wasn't. I knew about my results yesterday morning. I was planning on waking up really late on the day but suddenly my conscious took the better of me. It forced me to pick up my ass and switch on the laptop. So at about 9.45am, my doom awaits.

I've pictured how it might be/feel like. I've even dreamt about it some weeks ago. Mysteriously, in the dream I only saw two out of the four subject's results which brought smile onto my lips. Though, I wasn't hoping for the extreme and I didn't expect anything bad. But God knows best, I didn't make it through. I won't disclose my actual results but all I can say is that, only two of the subjects brought joy to me... Just like in the dream. The only difference is that, the subjects were switched. So the subjects I dreamt being good are the ones that are bad.

You wanna know how I feel? Did I breakdown? How much did I cry? The level of my regret?? Surprisingly, I can take everything positively. I didn't breakdown as much as I did when my AS results where announced. I only cried for about 10 minutes. And I don't seem to suffer from regret. All I thought in my head was, 'You've worked hard but maybe Allah has something better planned for you.', 'He wants to see how much you can bear with His tests.', 'It is a sign for you to work a LOT harder in the future.', 'You've had enough blessing already. It's time to share it with others.' and all those sorts of things...

Seriously, I'm okay. So don't worry... ^^

Besides, I've already planned on what to do next. The only thing stopping me from proceeding is TIME and PROCEDURE. Ngaaa~~ I want this thing to settle quickly... =(

THINGS TO DO:

• Appeal to Warwick (eventhough my results are waaaaay out of the league)
• Wait for Clearing (which is like waiting for a dragon to fly above your head~ =.=)
• Contact my Counsellor for further advice (which she already replied to my email this morning. Thanks Pn Kas!)
• Call people from IDP Australia to consult regarding my application to Australian University (more calling and calling people...)
• Calm my friend so that both of us can plan all these together... (HWAITING!! =D)

And to the rest of you blog-walkers, pls pls plsss pray for us. I'll love y'all forever!! ^^