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| ♥ 지켜줄께 Aaaahh it's finally the weekend. At least I'll have a little bit more space to breath. I'm a little upset with the outcome of this week though.. I didn't manage to run away from being grouped with foreigners for my assignment this semester. sigh. If you're in my shoes, I know you'll dislike it too. But life still had to go on. :( The experience I had during my first semester was enough to give all the bad impressions about mixing various backgrounds into a small group of three or four people. I won't mind if those people has the same ambitions as I do (to get the best grades and no less) and knows how to come to an understanding on certain important issues, and actually understands what has been expected of them in order to get an excellent mark. One thing that I still can't comprehend until now is when this one person from my group during my first semester's assignment said 'Oh my God I can't believe we did this. *0* This is really gooooood! We should get very high marks for this!' when all that we have compiled is rubbish, gibberish words and sections that didn't connect to one another. -_- I think she's never made a scrapbook before. And I think scrapbooks are prettier and more useful than our assignment. I ended up getting a mere pass for this assignment, and it hadn't looked good for my final grades at all! She's from mainland China btw. -_- Because I relied so much on group work, I've always waited for their opinions, inputs etc. But I got none even until the assignment deadline. When asked to meet, they were busy etc. When I emailed them, it took weeks to get a reply. The assignment was given to a group for a reason. If I could, I'd do it by myself, that way I might get a better outcome from it. But no, I can't do a three person job all by myself. I've only got two hands! So I tried to avoid the same incident from happening again. But our tutor is evil T_T She wanted diversity. I've already asked my juniors to take the course with me so that we can group up. But the moment we entered the classroom, the tutor had this knowing look in her eyes, and she tried as much as she could to seperate us, and thus I'm now in the same group with another girl from mainland China (SIGH!!!) and a guy from one of the arabic countries. -_- I pray that the outcome will be much better than that first semester. All I'm asking for is their cooperation on the group work. Anyways, my main intention today is not to ramble about all those above. -_- Haha but honestly now, I forgot what I wanted to say. And look, Jaejoong is laughing at me for it. dang..  Speaking about this guy.. sigh again.. Can he just stop being so wonderful in everything he does? I envy him so much! He has so much passion, so much comprehension and so much of everything good in this world and he is still trying to do much much better. I think it is the best decision he has ever made to go against SM and leave the company. If not we won't be seeing this side of him, I reckon. His truest potential would still be held down by that awful company and he wouldn't be given the chance to do other things as freely as he would love to do it. He composed, he directed, he acts, he sings and he's doing such a brilliant job at everything he got his hands on! I'm starting to think if this is just the delusion carried by the fandom, or in reality he is really that good, know what I mean? Because for one thing, I know the perception of his physical is mainly drawn in by what other fans and the netizens say about him, because honestly, I do not think that Kim Jaejoong is handsome. Sorry~ >_< Don't bash me because of this! I adore the man so much now that I even forgot about my Changmin! But I have to agree when he himself said that he didn't think that he's a handsome guy. He speaks honestly that he thinks he looks good only because of the stylists and the talents of the cameramen getting to his good angles etc. He himself is just an ordinary person, and I agreed to this. But still, I think his looks is still exceptionally good because he has such a strong and beautiful heart. He has his achievements and unfulfilled dreams that kept him going on to decorate his persona. His high expectations and kind heart made everyone see only the best sides of him, when in reality, he's just another human being. Yes, we often remind ourselves that Jaejoong is still a person of his own, but did we really understood our own statements? Did we really consider him as a mere person, or did we just fantasize him to be just another person? Haha, don't let me start talking in circles. :p Anyways, yeah.. Kim Jaejoong is my new crush. He had unbelievably pushed my Changmin far away from me that now I no longer think of Changmin the way I used to. Well, I used to like Changmin very very very VERY much you have no idea.. But then I've also realised that I've always had a little of my eyes on Jaejoong at the same time, only not as closely as it had on Changmin, because to me Jaejoong isn't as attractive as Changmin and he only had a very nice voice. They've rivaled for years, seriously, just to get my utmost attention. And in the end, Jaejoong kicked him right in the butt and robbed Changmin off his throne in my heart. (Jaejoong you evil...) And now I feel nada for Changmin. Like totally zit, as if he was Junsu or Yoochun or Yunho who I'd only look at first glance with zero chemistry. It's really unbelievable, and I still can't comprehend why or how it happened. hahaha Eventhough I haven't liked Jaejoong from the very beginning, I will always love every song that he composed (if only I knew Korean like a 3rd language and understand his lyrics, then maybe that too). Until now, my most favourite song is 'Still In Love'. I don't know why, this is the one and only song that sparks NEVER dies on me. My every listen to this song felt like the first time. And the way my heart warmed and churned pleasantly at it didn't change no matter how many time I replayed the song. I've said this before, it just feels like Jaejoong is embracing me with those melodies, and it felt really good... Hmmm I hate to admit that I'm being delusional. But whatever it is, I'd still say that 'Still In Love' is the BEST out of all of Jaejoong's songs yet (Because I also love In Heaven and can't wait for it to come out in a proper album). I LOVE his songs, his compositions, his voice, his passion... I love Kim Jaejoong... :) |
