Lustrous Pinion

Treurotrip: Ola~ (Part 1)

2012-02-11T03:54:00.001+10:00

This has been long overdue, but I feel that I am obliged to share this memory so that one day I can go back to it and be reminded of the things that I did and the paths that I took in my younger days which has undoubtedly contributed in shaping my inner personality.

And so, here it is, a ~~few paragraphs~~ (I made it a long story, I'll do it in parts instead) about how my trip to Barcelona went. Later I will also write down about my trip to Paris, and perhaps London too. :)

BARCELONA, Spain. 20/12/11-23/12/11

This is such a gorgeous city. Out of all the places I’ve visited, this could be the most wonderful city I’ve set foot on so far. When we first landed at Barcelona International airport, I wasn’t awed just yet. The airport was of a simple, minimalistic architecture. There was nothing flashy about it unlike our KLIA. Perhaps I could put it on the same level as LCCT or Coolangatta Airport, only that Barcelona International Airport is bigger in size as it has three terminals of separate buildings and it takes about ten to fifteen minutes to walk from one terminal to the other (depending on how fast you walk).

We exited the arrival gates and went straight to the Tourist Information booth located right in front of it. There weren’t that many people queuing so we didn’t have to wait long. We greeted the person in English. There wasn’t any problem of us understanding each other since the person had a good command in English, although she did have a strong accent that I find very amusing and pretty. She gave us some brochures and maps, and marked roughly on the route we should take to arrive at our booked hostel. We had absolutely no clue where we should go next, but I was thoroughly excited to start on this adventure.

Unfortunately, we forgot to ask the person where the train station was! We walked out of the airport and all I could see is a vast car park, the blue skies and a few palm trees. We examined the direction signs and none of them gave us a clue of where the train station could possibly be. We had to depend on our instincts and turned left, and soon we were grateful to find a building across the road with a train icon on its roof, and saw a bridge connecting the airport to that building. It was quite a long walk from our terminal (terminal B) to the fly-over bridge and to the train station. A part of me regretted wearing the high-heel boots, though it was necessary because it was winter, it was the only boots I owned and it was VERY comfortable since it fitted the contours of my feet perfectly.

We had a little bit of a problem when we arrived at the train station. We didn’t know which tickets to buy! They have this T10 ticket, which you can use ten times within zones 1 and 2 at reduced price. We argued if we should get the ticket because we weren’t completely sure if we’d make use of all the ten rides, and we weren’t sure if Park Guell was located within the two zones. We didn’t want to waste our money because the currency is like four times higher than where we came from.

So we ended up buying a single ticket, and that is with the help of one of the train staff who came to ask us if we were okay because we looked so clueless. LOL. We’ll think about the T10 ticket again when we arrive at our hostel and rest for a while. :p

The train brought us from Aeroport station to Passeig de Gracia station. It took about 20 minutes if I could recall it correctly. The moment we entered one of the carriage, I was pleasantly surprised that the train that looked so-so from the outside actually looks very comfortable and modern on the inside. They feel comfortable too! :D As the train started moving, suddenly a group of street performers, whom I've thought came out of nowhere, began playing their instruments and singing catchy Christmas song. I thought it was very lovely of them to welcome the tourists like this, but that is before they started shoving paper cups to our faces saying that we should give them some change since it's nearly Christmas and Christmas is an event for joy, happiness and "sharing". =_='

When we arrived at Passeig de Gracia station, we went up from the underground station and began our search to find our hostel. The hostel gave useful directions on how to get there on their webpage. I read it a few times and had thought that I memorised it because it was so simple, but once we saw the streets and the buildings and the cars around, we were somehow lost. It took us a few minutes to think of what to do then. The roads in Barcelona looks similar at every junction because their buildings are set in blocks. Trying to search for the name of the roads proved to be a bit hard too. My friend decided to pull out her iPad and we went to a corner to hide from prying eyes. However, it didn't help much since we couldn't be sure at which end of the road we're actually on. So we gambled and took a corner at random and began looking at the building numbers and the road names as we passed, referring back to the free map every time we received new input. Compared to the simple directions given on the web (should've taken at most ten minutes only), it took us half an hour to locate our hostel. But we found it nonetheless. :)

Barcelona Central Garden Hostel. This is where we stayed at for four days and three nights here in Barcelona. It is highly recommended! The place is very homey and comfortable, and the staff are very friendly and accommodative. They're about our age, contributing to better understanding. ;) We were welcomed with wide smiles and open arms. Firstly, we settled all payments before we were given our keys. They informed us of some simple rules (i.e. how to use the kitchen, you must label your food in the fridge, selected toilets and baths will be locked from 12am to 9am every day etc) and the gave us another comprehensive map of Barcelona. This one actually has small scribbles and notes specially written by them, highlighting even where we can get cheap food nearby the hostel. When all that is done, the girl invited us to sit at the coffee table and she voluntarily began telling us more about Barcelona and the places worth visitting, just in case we don't know where to start. Her explanation just made the excitement in me heighten! :D It was only about an hour later before she was done with her stories and we retired into our rooms to take a quick rest and wash up for the day ahead. It wasn't even lunchtime yet! :)

TBC.
-This feels like a cliffhanger of a fanfiction. :p

A/N: sorry, but no pictures yet. I started snapping photos when we started the tour. :) In the meanwhile, please enjoy this song. I'm not sure if I've shared this with anyone yet, but this is my MOST favourite song from SHINee. It's also the OST of a movie, I can't remember what. :p But the arrangement is really good. I heard Jonghyun wrote the lyrics. Interesting... Well, enjoy! ^_^

I Want To Get Married

2012-01-20T03:05:00.000+10:00

Scandalous much? Quite an interesting title isn't it? :p haha~ Don't put your hopes up just yet. This is just what Jaejoong answered for one of his recent interview questions. Did I disappoint you? ;)

Well, at least I think that it has already come to that appropriate time where Jaejoong should think seriously about marriage. I have a brother who's the same age as Jaejoong, and I definitely know that he's thinking about marriage as well at the moment. It's perfectly normal so to say. Though thinking about it is one thing, but trying to realise it is another. I may not be so young anymore to not take the issue of marriage seriously, but while being engulfed in more important commitments at the moment (such as my studies) I can't allow myself to get distracted just yet. Of course we're all dreaming about finally meeting our soulmates, wondering how they'd look like, who they are, how you'd meet... But once you'd meet, would you be ready? Marriage is a lifelong responsibility, and you'd be liable for everything related to it for the rest of your existence and non-existence (the afterlife). Simply put, there are absolutely a WHOLE lot of things to think about before being able to make that final decision just to be totally and absolutely sure that it's the right thing to do and that it's the right time to do it.

I have a lot of friends who is already married as of this moment. The first among them to get married is a friend of mine from high school. She married her own classmate (who is also someone I know) only months after school life ended. I was still a junior in college doing my a levels when I heard the news. And now they already have a handsome baby boy, perhaps turning three this year. Then, two of my middle school friends got married some time after, both have babies of their own too by now. Then, I started to lost count of how many of my old friends got married while I was in college and university; maybe twenty? But the latest marriage I heard was of my crush from high school. haha, if you ask me, I didn't feel a thing seeing him get married because a crush is just a crush, and I'm already a big girl. ;) And besides, he looked much too young to have a family of his own, that it almost seemed like a joke. But who am I to judge. :)

It does feel surreal at one point or another. Sometimes I do allow myself to imagine if I were in their shoes. If one day a guy came to my parents to ask for my hand in marriage... Gosh, I bet it would be mind-blowing! xD And to think that I have a close friend who's currently a few months pregnant... to think that we went to college together, we used to study together, we used to play together, we used tease one another... and now she's pregnant! To which the baby's father is also a friend of mine. o_O Well, I'm just glad that she's happy... ^_^ that they're both happy, that all of them are happy.

My other half... Where art thou? T_T

Hmm... why does it seem so easy for them to find their soulmates? And how did they know that the person is the one? I think some might rely their decision on love. If they didn't love each other, then they shouldn't get married until they do. Well, I have to disagree to that notion. I believe in fate and destiny, because Islam has thought us that we are created in pairs of men and women, to which a women is created from her man's rib. It has been written for us of who we're destined with, how we'd meet etc. We just have to have faith in HIM. Even if you love someone so much, if HE says that you're not meant for each other, then it'll never work out! But then again, people will start to question, why would there be divorces and people who died old without ever meeting their other half? Well, perhaps God has bigger plans for the said person. Or maybe Allah wants them to be a direct example of a lesson for the rest of the human kind to learn from (to which most of the arrogant people of the world nowadays refuse to give in to).

The easiest way to help us in making such an important decision is to do Istikharah, a prayer to ask guidance from Allah on which to choose. The love can come after marriage, because marriage in the name of Allah comes with an invisible attachment between the husband and wife, like a string connecting their hearts and allowing them to have loving feelings towards one another. It's a gift from Allah to the pair, a gift that should be cherished forever.

Aaaaaand may I let this video conclude my lecture for today, simply because I love this song so much. :D

p/s: Jaejoong said that he wants to get married but before that he needs to become a good person first. A good person... There are a lot of possible interpretation as to what a good person may be in this context. >] hehehe

Thirsty for fan-fictions

2011-12-09T21:40:00.001+10:00

I have a really long and developing reading list at the moment. I just can't stop reading them and finishing them and also finding new ones. And did you know what I'm currently reading, what fills up my unending reading list for the past six months? Yunjae. Yes. YUNJAE, the well-known yaoi, boyxboy, gay, forbidden love relationship etc stories. omg I can't believe I just admitted this out loud on my own blog where absolutely anyone could read. But... you just have to admit, no other fanfic authors out there could write angsty/fluffy love stories better than those Yunjae authors. Funny right?

Let me clear up something before I get on with this post. I am a Muslim. Islam has well taught us that intimate relationships with persons of the same gender, no matter where you stand on this Earth, are FORBIDDEN. Humans are gracefully created by God in pairs, of men and women. To explain this in more depth will definitely divert my initial intention of writing this post. So for now, just know that anything gay is forbidden in my religion (but of course there's that other meaning of gay according to the dictionary which doesn't relate to today's topic). And yet, I'm reading these gay stuff... GASP!!

Don't get me wrong. I definitely do NOT support gay marriage/relationships whatsoever in the real world. And I most definitely do NOT ship Yunjae. I won't stop everyone else though, the right belongs solely to you. You can ship Yunjae all you want as long as everyone is happy :)

When I'm finding a fanfiction to read, there are several important factors that I will consider:

i) grammar and structure. I bet most of fanfic readers out there would pay really close attention to these. They might not emphasize so much on the sentence structures (but I do!) and would consider a simple fiction with good grammar as good enough to give it a try. But for me, as soon as I come across a fiction, be it a gay fiction or normal ones, I'd skip to the middle chapters and skim through the words roughly to get the general idea of the quality I'm looking for. The summary also plays an important point because an eye-catching summary would most probably mean that the story owns a pretty good structure, and what's left for me to hope for is that the story will be able to move me emotionally.

ii) graphics. I won't necessarily demand that fictions have their own graphics before I read them. What I mean is that an eye-catching graphic will most definitely draw me in to read the story. My logic is that, if the story isn't very good, a skilled graphic designer wouldn't agree to create a poster/banner for the story. I would say that they aren't able to get any inspiration at all from the parts that have already been written, and non-inspiring stories are dull in my books. And when I say an eye-catching graphic, it doesn't necessarily mean graphics with lots of awesome elements present on them. I'd rather the graphics be simple, but able to speak volumes. By looking at the graphics themselves, you can already see the overview of what the author has in store for you.

iii) character development and details. As a writer myself, it has always been difficult for me to develop my characters. I tried plenty of times, but when I do develop something, it will always be the plot and almost nothing else. Well, a developing plot is good, of course. But that's a given. All other authors will have to develop their plots in order to make the story. Though, without character development, readers will feel pretty much detached from the storyline and its implied emotions. I've found out that these sorts of details are what provides the subtleness and flavour to the whole creation. It should be able to make me cry buckets of tears with each passing sentence!

I've been around the fanfic world longer that what I gave myself credit for. Fanfic sites appeared and gone and I'm still roaming around, fishing for new stories to read. I've always been in awe whenever I come across awesome authors with awesome stories. Most of those I've came across with should've printed their stories in paperbacks and make profit out of their talents! But as time passed by, these awesome authors got too caught up with their own real life and soon become unable to update anymore of their stories. A lot of the stories I've subscribe to had been left hanging and it's already been years since their last updates (I don't read yaoi at all before these recent 6 months). And when these awesome flock is gone, came new ones of course, in a way eager to continue on the legacy. However, these hormonal teenagers of the new flock were too wishful and began to write nonsense to their hearts' content. They think they're writing fanfics, but to me what they're writing were more of their own self-centered day-dreams. =_=; And so there were less and less normal fics to read for me to satisfy my craves as the months went on. I spent a whole year searching and searching, and when I found something I could be considered VERY lucky.

And at this point I got fed up. I can't remember how I ended up in livejournal after that, but I did. And this is where I was able to meet more awesome authors who could actually write and do not base their stories solely on daydreams and imaginations. And as you can already guess, these authors write YUNJAE. I was able to find awesome normal fics communities at first, but I have no idea why updates became slower and slower as the days go by, and at this point I think it has stopped all together. It's utterly disappointing. SO I have no other choice but to turn to these Yunjae communities where updates were flowing like waterfall. At least I won't run out of fanfic supplies. I know they consist of gay love, and most of them contain gay smut and all that, but I'm a big girl and I know what my priorities are when I read them, which are awesome love stories with the 3 criteria specified above. When I read Yunjae, what I picture in my head aren't necessarily two guys loving each other. I am more interested in engulfing myself within the words and in letting my heart be carried away into another world of romance and destined love (or otherwise, doesn't matter) conveyed beautifully by the author using equally beautiful words. It's all literature to me yawwww~

Maybe I should just find regular fictions to read from now on, yeah? But I like it when I know exactly how the characters look like! And using their real names helps my imagination by a LOT and will allow me to focus on other more important elements of the writing other than the physical appearance of the characters. xD

Another Holiday Destination :D

2011-11-16T13:26:00.001+10:00

I wonder when I'll have the time and money to visit Korea. All that I have right now has been set aside for my Eurotrip. I'll have to start from scratch. =_=;
One day...

Two Down

2011-11-08T11:51:00.002+10:00

I've resolved on not commenting on the paper I've just taken. In the end, no exams are easy. We're either able to answer them, get a little bit confused on some of them, and could be totally lost for the rest of them (which in the latter case is your own fault for not studying seriously). I don't know if it's just me, but once I've focused on something, it is very hard to get them out of my mind no matter how long ago I've came across it. I do have a photographic memory though, so maybe that's the reason why. Otherwise, if I wasn't focused, or is just skimming through stuff, all I will be able to remember is the lines and the shapes and the colours of the pages, but not the details. If I didn't get the details, then how am I supposed to understand and reproduce those facts somewhere else?

Well, what I'm trying to say is - more like scolding myself here - FOCUS on what you're studying. Take your time in digesting the facts. Get into the details, because details relates to one another. It makes the world go round. -_-

Anyways, here are a couple of interesting photos I managed to grab from somewhere. I don't remember where, sorry! But I remembered the post was about these weird clocks of all shapes and sizes. It's really intriguing, but absolutely not practical. Though, I wonder if I could get my kids to get use to such weird clocks from the moment they're born. Haha! If I'm lucky they could become potential geniuses (hopefully not geeky, nerdy and everything else that goes along those lines), but if I'm unlucky they could potentially lose their left and right brain equilibrium at such a young age. I'd prefer them being normal though, so let's just stick to normal clocks shall we?

So at first glance, what time does this clock shows? Don't look at the bottom you cheater!! The moment I look at it, all I could see is the eyes of an insane person. I imagined shaking the box and the eye-balls would bounce everywhere. As tensed as I am now after all the revisions and exams, I am feeling even more stressed at the eye-balls. This clock definitely isn't helping...

Ahhh this is a bit nicer than the eye-balls. And it's not hard to read because we're already used to the positions of the hands. It's a plus though, because we can play while we check the time! Even though the so-called sentence won't make sense most of the time. 'Desire is Time' is completely rubbish. -_-

I've come across an 'Engineer's Clock' once on facebook where they replace the regular number with an equivalent equation. For example; the number 12 is replaced by square-root of 144, things like that. Some of them involves cos, tan, sec, log and whatever which is useful if you're hoping to nail the equation down on your mind. However, it's an absolute rubbish to the rest of us.

Time is GOLD is what they all say. There are many quotes involving time, and still many of us would take time for granted. In the Holy Quran, one whole Surah is dedicated to time, and we still can't see the cruciality of a good time management. Time can't move backwards and time never stops. If you missed it, then you'll miss it for the rest of your lives. How would you feel for something that will be gone from your life forever?

I need to get some sleep now. My head feels like it's going to burst anytime soon. I think it's been overworked. I need to do something physical for the rest of the evening. Should I dance when I wake up later? hee maybe I'll just jump around and scream like crazy. Then all will be good for the preparation for my next paper (and my housemates would finally regard me as a certified lunatic from overdosed ginko) puahahaha.

And Jae darling understands me, as always ~in my dreams..

*SMACK* and wiggle-wiggle :p

Cr: yukimiya@tumblr and wherever it came from

half hung in the air

2011-11-06T10:49:00.000+10:00

There's no specific reason for me to share this video. I guess it somehow inspired me to do better, to work harder to push through all sorts of obstacles, and most importantly to be grateful of everything that I have. We might think that we've been through the worst, but there are certainly others who've been through a lot worse.

Despite my hectic schedule, here I am hoping to write an entry that will make sense. I really really really miss writing, seriously. I miss rambling and pouring my heart out in words. I miss the feeling of my fingers dancing across the keyboard and watching as letter by letter appear on the screen, telling a story that's been buried deep inside of me. It's been months since I last wrote anything creative. I had thought that the break from writing would do me good, and will able me to focus more on my studies. But it seems that I was wrong. I'm slowly losing myself now, I'm becoming more easily detached from everything around me. I simply can't find my equilibrium anymore. Anything I do seemed to be not enough, and if it's enough, there's no satisfaction within the effort. Something is missing within me. Or more correctly, something is trying to push itself out of me, wanting to reveal itself, but I've stubbornly kept it down. And that has sent me to this state of confusion, emptiness and longing. God, how I wish I could ditch just a few hours to write a oneshot or something, any plot that crossed my mind. But each time I gave in to these desires, it would always be cut back by the reminder of the ticking clock, signaling that I won't have enough time to cover all my academic materials if I did. Writing a oneshot usually took me a few hours, and that few hours equals to a topic of lectopia (our recorded lecture provided by the university). I could resolve in writing drabbles, perhaps, but a few hundred words honestly won't be able to quench my thirst. I can't wait for exams to be over. But then again, a lot of other things awaits by then. A lot more things... This is life huh? heh..

One down, three more to go. Well, things went quite well for my paper yesterday. Aside from the part that I was fairly ready and was able to complete my preparation for that subject, the question wasn't too hard. It was fairly challenging for a third year subject, but I've been through something much worse which was to the point that I lost ALL of my confidence to push through my studies. It was that bad the last time round. Remember the story about my Banking and Lending course? Yeah.. That was much MUCH worse. I gave up and wasn't able to get back on my feet for a whole of two days! So yesterday was fairly fine. I can't say I'm confident that I'll perform for the subject, but at least I was sure that I gave everything I could. Maybe I could've given more, but I'm not complaining. I will trust God to arrange what is best for me. :)

The hardest parts are yet to come. I'm mostly worried about my last paper. I hate it when information are vague in my mind, and the materials for this subject is just that. It's not that the course itself is vague, in case you misunderstood. I meant that the input that I've received still haven't clicked the right switches in my brain, I can't really connect to it yet, which also means that I could be completely lost with just a tiny twist of an exam question. And I don't want that... I'm very much hoping that I could further my studies, and to get to that point, I'd need more than just an above-average results. Help me God...

P/s: Did you know that 'Allah' is the arabic word for God? Some people has mistaken that muslims should use 'Allah' when referring to the Almighty. I once wrote on a chat conversation 'Oh My God' and this friend of mine attempted to correct me and wrote back 'Oh My Allah' as if using omg was inappropriate. Honestly I feel there is no need for such things. Allah has 99 names. I could just reply back an 'Oh My Ar-Rahman', or 'Oh Tuhan ku' if I wanted to. It's what we're referring the Name to in our hearts is what matters most, and our Iman. Muslims are confusing themselves between arabic culture and the religion itself. And that is why it is crucial for us to get to know the world around us, to learn from the poeple we meet and to learn from our mistakes.

:D

sorry for disappearing..

2011-10-23T18:47:00.001+10:00

It's been more than a month since I wrote anything here. It proves just how busy I actually am, FINALS are coming nearer anyway. I have a little bit more quizzes to settle before I can really focus on revising materials for my finals exam. sigh. Thank God my management class assessment is done with. Just two more 3104 quizzes and one 2200 online test, which is due next Tuesday. You know.. I had initially thought the 2200 test would close tomorrow (I was freaking out!), so I'm so glad when I checked that it was 25th instead of 24th. I have another 24 hours extra to prepare. However that also means that I'm deducting 24hours from my initial preparation plan for 3104 quizzes. sighsigh! Everything is on the top of my list of priority right now I don't know where to start! Or how!!

And to top off my anxiety and stress, my midsems isn't as eye-catching as I'd hope they would be. This could be my worst semester yet! I just hope I won't screw up too much let alone failing any subjects. Please please God give me at least a pass! >_<

Emotional Stress

2011-09-21T19:57:00.000+10:00

My mental stress is recovering since midsems ended a few days ago. I'm still a bit anxious though for the results. I've received one, but am still waiting for the other two. The one that I've already received was for the subject that I was most confident with, and the outcome wasn't very flashy~ -_- So it's making me even more worried for my other two papers, 3104 which had been extremely challenging and 2200 which had been fairly easy but I was already overflowing with too much input that my systems kind of shutdown in the exam hall. sighs. I really hope that I didn't screw up too bad. :(

I'm having peer issues as well at the moment. Well, I tried to help her.. But when a person is stubborn, she'll always be stubborn until reality decides to hit her right in the face. When she only knows how to be self-centered, she can't possibly realise that there's a wonderful emotion called empathy. I've ran out of ideas on how to bring her back to the right track, to someplace that won't attract other people's annoyance and hatred towards her (she's practically asking for it!). Well, it's not only me who has issues with her. Almost all of the student body wishes that she was never around in the first place. Different groups of people agreed that she's such an eyesore, desperate for other people's attention that she didn't approach people the right way, she picks up friends from wherever her hands could grab and dumps them when she found someone else. And when the discarded person decides to ditch her openly, she blames the person as someone who doesn't know how to appreciate a friend (like her. BLOODY BLAH). Come on woman. Do you expect a single blind date would make someone fall in love immediately? It doesn't happen in this side of the world, and certainly it's not going to happen within single gender relationships. -_- Friendship is all about trust, love&care, give&take, sacrifices, understanding&empathy... WTF do you expect when all you do is contact us out of the blue just so you won't have to go to a function appearing all alone. WTF do you expect when you gave a person something out of your fridge which had been there for weeks and almost turn bad, or when you cook and serve something from an effort half-done? It f*cking gives us the impression that you're not f*cking sincere! You come to us in the time of need, and not AT ALL in the time of deed! WTF WTF WTF!!!!

I've tried communicating with her, tried to speak in her language and make her understand. But I guess her head is just too thick now that whatever I throw towards her would bounce right back. -_-

Aside from that, I'm extremely annoyed with this certain person who doesn't seem to know what's good for her, and won't listen to other people's advice. Well, she does listen to most of our advices when it's not concerning THAT. But can't you see? An advice is an advice. Everything should be taken into account, thought over and evaluated. But no, she straight out said NO, I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING! Arghhh woman nowadays!!!

And to top to all that, I'm depressed after watching JJ's latest kissing scene with WJH :S demmit I was completely fine with CM's, YC's, JS's and absolutely YH's kiss scenes, no matter how intimate they appeared. I was completely indifferent regarding his kiss scene back in H.Postman. But nope, not anymore. JJ dem you! You stole CM away from me and now you dare make me feel like this!?? I.am.definitely.gonna.kill.you! >[

~~p/s: I may be hormonal or even delusional at the moment, but I really can't bring myself to listen to jj's songs right now -_-~~

I'm In Heaven :)

2011-09-18T19:13:00.000+10:00

It may not be the most vibrant album out there, but surely it has been a huge talk of the world! Well, mostly the world of the red ocean, but believe it or not they've managed to lure in some newcomers through this as well! :D It's just too overwhelming to even think about the success they've reached to thus far.

I've waited for this album for what has seemed like forever. I swear I'm always on guard whenever 'In Heaven' is mentioned. When I received the news that some suppliers were taking pre-orders for the first press edition, I just couldn't sit right. I was anxious and I just can't make up my mind. I wanted the album regardless of in what form it comes to me, but I was really tempted by the posters, and to think that I can choose from three different colours! (Red=Jae, Blue=Chun, Brown=Su) Of course by instinct I wanted to grab the red one. :p And as efficient as I was, I could've been the supplier's first customer! But I hesitated for reasons unknown even to myself. Maybe because I've studied too much on cost-benefit analysis that I've weighted more on the benefit of just getting a digital album rather than fuss on postage cost and storage for the physical album. hahaha! So I ended up buying the album from iTunes, and the only cover available was in Brown :( Well, since Junsu is soooooo dashing in In Heaven's MV *sighs* I think I could grow to like him nonetheless LOL!

We've heard of most of those songs anyway, like Nine, Pierrot *my favourite!*, I.D.S., Mission, The Boy's Letter, Fallen Leaves etc, but to listen to them in a proper album condition is just too stunning! It made me appreciate the songs even more, of course with the help of my awesomest earphones by Unlimited Ears (I'd never get bored of promoting them hehe), everything is just crispy crystal clear!

Then, earlier in the month they released Get Out on the online stores. The piano intro itself captivated me to the very core of my submitting heart!! :p Well, you should know I'm a sucker for piano intros anyways. But seriously, it was one of the best ones, it brings out the feel of the song even before they started singing. It makes every next listens to the song that much more interesting if not more captivating. However, I did complain (in my mind) that the song is weird the moment they started singing, especially the chorus which wasn't as attractive as I've hoped it to be considering the stunning intro. But almost expectedly from them three, we would get addicted to the song in the end anyways. They just know how to create something so addictive, a new form of innocent ecstasy. A simple tune with a good beat that will steal your breath away. They do it simple, but with style~ ;) I can't wait to watch the MV, which will be released a few days after the off-line album is released.

When I was clicking away to purchase the album from iTunes, I noticed the popularity bar for each song, and You're followed right behind In Heaven surprisingly! :p Ok fine, maybe it was my fault that I didn't give a chance to that song when they sang it during the world tour. But I have to admit, the song was great! From start to finish, I could just feel my heart blossoming colourful, fragrant flowers. Oh~ I really like songs with a good and distinctive beat, but this song isn't just all about those. The overall impression is just beautiful, you'll feel like hugging them! That is until I read the translations, which nearly made me cry! It's even more beautiful with comprehension! How can I not love them so much? How can I not want to protect them with all my might? They're just the sweetest, hardworking, talented persons on this planet!

The Boy's Letter is just as great. T_T Gosh I'm tearing up, goosebumps rose on my skin. The lyrics are so sweet and full of expression. The melody couldn't be more complimenting! I did say to this certain someone that the very start of the song sounded like one of Goong's OSTs. But it stopped at that. It's the most beautiful ballad I've ever heard in Kpop! My favourite part in this song is the bridge. OMG Junsu's voice is just sooooo stunning it took my breath away yet again! The words spoken during the bridge melted my heart and I long to replay the song again and again. sighs.

And last but not least, my personal favourite of all time. IN HEAVEN!! ♥ Jaejoong you're the most brilliant! If you were here, I'd pull you down and hug you so tight you could die in my arms! Muahaha!! The song is simple, not too much dressing. People said that it's similar to Big Bang's haru-haru, but seriously man, it took me another ten listens before I could distinguih the similarity! And wtf it's just like.. only 2% of the whole idea! You can't accuse of someone plagiarising with less than 10% similarity (talk to my dean, that's how much they tolerated on pliagirism for our assignments) -_- some of you just won't learn how to appreciate someone's hardwork. anyways, the more I listen to the studio version the more I fell for it, no kidding! At first I was kinda disappointed because I was used to the echo from the stage performances, which I thought added to the 'heavenly' feeling. But the rawness of their voices in the studio version brought even more charm to the song and emphasized greatly on their talents. I'm just sooooo proud! T_____T With the heart-tugging MV accompanying the song, I need not ask for more.

Hands down, JYJ is at the top of my heart right at this moment. My inspiration, my source of courage. Now all I have to wait for is Tohoshinki's new album Tone! Yeah baby!! :D

I'll Be Back!

2011-09-16T12:10:00.002+10:00

I shall come back to update regularly soon! (well, at least until it's time for the final exams)
It's been a gazillion years and I don't even notice that blogger has changed the dashboard's navigation systems. It's honestly confusing because everything has been moved around. I know this button has to be somewhere, but it took me hours to locate it, and it's only on the same page! (ok, that might be an exaggeration, but I'm stressed so let me be)
I've stopped living since three weeks ago, when Eid arrived and exams happened. I've made the huge dining table as my study 'desk' and my actual study desk is sadly forgotten in my room. It's just too small to accommodate all my scattering papers, heavy books and stationeries. I've skipped too many classes because my current priority is to perform in my midsems. (I'll refer back to lectopia and tutorial solutions later, don't fuss) At least my management assignment has been submitted. I started on it since Monday and managed to finish it three hours before the deadline. (The task was given waaaaaay back in week one though) Now I'm struggling to finish my 2200 revision for this Saturday. sighs.
Anyways, there was plenty I'd like to share and tell. We'll see what I can come up with on my next entry. Most probably it'll be a lengthy spazz on In Heaven♥

:D

Intrigued

2011-08-15T20:12:00.005+10:00

I've just found the most awesomest MV ever!! I can't believe that it hadn't been promoted enough to let me know its existence. It was released waaaaay back in March 2011. But I've only heard it like a few nights ago. Seriously, it's like one of the best I've ever seen, both the clip and the song.

I first came across this song through its instrumental piece, which I heard from a friend's tumblr. At the first listen itself I was already captivated, drowned by the tunes and melodies that felt so much like myself. As if they were telling an untold story about myself, things that I can't put into words, it was complete and fulfilling. It was just... perfect. I didn't know what song it was then because there wasn't a name on the playlist, so I left that friend a short message asking about the song. And this morning she replied me, and I immediately youtubed the song, and listened to the full version for the first time. I didn't care who sang it, how she looked like, or where she came from. What was on my mind was only the song. A little while later, I started to pay attention to the MV, specifically its storyline. Hehe... Watch it and tell me how you think the storyline actually goes. ;) Gosh this is fun!

SO, who do you think is the stalker and who's the real victim?

After thinking the whole day (kidding!), I strongly believed that the stalker is actually the girl. Why? Even though the 'stop stalking me' parts are sang by Ms Song, MV-wise the lead female held the most negative persona overall. Look at her make-up, her style, and her actions. To me, the girl looked almost like those psycho stalkers in English psycho-thriller movies. She could be driven by the evil voices inside her head, which led her to killing the guy. Who knows exactly why she killed him when she actually claimed that she loved him. Well, we'd never understand psychos anyways now would we? Besides, the guy was too hot to be a stalker/psycho. :p Demmit I replayed the part with the guy almost a gazillion times trying to picture how his whole face would look like without the blindfold. Eyes are my weakest point! I need to know who played the guy.. -_- Ok that's besides the point. But really, the guy looked normal enough to be innocent. In the end, the girl was like 'If I can't have you, then no one else will'.

However, if the song was to be listened by itself, of course we'd picture the girl being stalked by the guy, right? This is where the MV is insanely brilliant! Apart from giving us audiences a different perspective visually, it's actually playing with your own logic and consciences. The lyrics could apply both ways and they'd emphasized this point within just the few minutes. 'This isn't love, it isn't love'. How would you know if it is or isn't love? Song-wise, if he likes you, and he shows it to you, then the affection could possibly be turned into such feelings. To me, the way the guy rapped his part, he doesn't sound like a stalker hungry for the girl's love and attention at all, but instead the girl was the one who was afraid to accept him. It could probably be that the girl realised that she was getting insanely in love with the guy now and didn't know how to cope with her own feelings, so she declared that she didn't love him anymore to save herself from the heartbreak, or the commitment it beholds. Hmm confusing much?

Well... I could go on and on and on with this 'review', but I have lotsa work to do right now. I have more points to say about the setting and suchs, but let's just leave my critical digestion for my leadership assignment this semester ayte? :)

I hope you enjoyed the song as much as I did. And do let me know if you agreed to my conclusions! hehehe see you later~ ^_^

지켜줄께

2011-08-12T16:58:00.004+10:00

Aaaahh it's finally the weekend. At least I'll have a little bit more space to breath. I'm a little upset with the outcome of this week though.. I didn't manage to run away from being grouped with foreigners for my assignment this semester. sigh. If you're in my shoes, I know you'll dislike it too. But life still had to go on. :(

The experience I had during my first semester was enough to give all the bad impressions about mixing various backgrounds into a small group of three or four people. I won't mind if those people has the same ambitions as I do (to get the best grades and no less) and knows how to come to an understanding on certain important issues, and actually understands what has been expected of them in order to get an excellent mark. One thing that I still can't comprehend until now is when this one person from my group during my first semester's assignment said 'Oh my God I can't believe we did this. *0* This is really gooooood! We should get very high marks for this!' when all that we have compiled is rubbish, gibberish words and sections that didn't connect to one another. -_- I think she's never made a scrapbook before. And I think scrapbooks are prettier and more useful than our assignment. I ended up getting a mere pass for this assignment, and it hadn't looked good for my final grades at all!

She's from mainland China btw. -_-

Because I relied so much on group work, I've always waited for their opinions, inputs etc. But I got none even until the assignment deadline. When asked to meet, they were busy etc. When I emailed them, it took weeks to get a reply. The assignment was given to a group for a reason. If I could, I'd do it by myself, that way I might get a better outcome from it. But no, I can't do a three person job all by myself. I've only got two hands! So I tried to avoid the same incident from happening again. But our tutor is evil T_T She wanted diversity. I've already asked my juniors to take the course with me so that we can group up. But the moment we entered the classroom, the tutor had this knowing look in her eyes, and she tried as much as she could to seperate us, and thus I'm now in the same group with another girl from mainland China (SIGH!!!) and a guy from one of the arabic countries. -_- I pray that the outcome will be much better than that first semester. All I'm asking for is their cooperation on the group work.

Anyways, my main intention today is not to ramble about all those above. -_- Haha but honestly now, I forgot what I wanted to say. And look, Jaejoong is laughing at me for it. dang..

Speaking about this guy.. sigh again.. Can he just stop being so wonderful in everything he does? I envy him so much! He has so much passion, so much comprehension and so much of everything good in this world and he is still trying to do much much better. I think it is the best decision he has ever made to go against SM and leave the company. If not we won't be seeing this side of him, I reckon. His truest potential would still be held down by that awful company and he wouldn't be given the chance to do other things as freely as he would love to do it. He composed, he directed, he acts, he sings and he's doing such a brilliant job at everything he got his hands on! I'm starting to think if this is just the delusion carried by the fandom, or in reality he is really that good, know what I mean? Because for one thing, I know the perception of his physical is mainly drawn in by what other fans and the netizens say about him, because honestly, I do not think that Kim Jaejoong is handsome. Sorry~ >_< Don't bash me because of this! I adore the man so much now that I even forgot about my Changmin! But I have to agree when he himself said that he didn't think that he's a handsome guy. He speaks honestly that he thinks he looks good only because of the stylists and the talents of the cameramen getting to his good angles etc. He himself is just an ordinary person, and I agreed to this. But still, I think his looks is still exceptionally good because he has such a strong and beautiful heart. He has his achievements and unfulfilled dreams that kept him going on to decorate his persona. His high expectations and kind heart made everyone see only the best sides of him, when in reality, he's just another human being. Yes, we often remind ourselves that Jaejoong is still a person of his own, but did we really understood our own statements? Did we really consider him as a mere person, or did we just fantasize him to be just another person? Haha, don't let me start talking in circles. :p

Anyways, yeah.. Kim Jaejoong is my new crush. He had unbelievably pushed my Changmin far away from me that now I no longer think of Changmin the way I used to. Well, I used to like Changmin very very very VERY much you have no idea.. But then I've also realised that I've always had a little of my eyes on Jaejoong at the same time, only not as closely as it had on Changmin, because to me Jaejoong isn't as attractive as Changmin and he only had a very nice voice. They've rivaled for years, seriously, just to get my utmost attention. And in the end, Jaejoong kicked him right in the butt and robbed Changmin off his throne in my heart. (Jaejoong you evil...) And now I feel nada for Changmin. Like totally zit, as if he was Junsu or Yoochun or Yunho who I'd only look at first glance with zero chemistry. It's really unbelievable, and I still can't comprehend why or how it happened. hahaha

Eventhough I haven't liked Jaejoong from the very beginning, I will always love every song that he composed (if only I knew Korean like a 3rd language and understand his lyrics, then maybe that too). Until now, my most favourite song is 'Still In Love'. I don't know why, this is the one and only song that sparks NEVER dies on me. My every listen to this song felt like the first time. And the way my heart warmed and churned pleasantly at it didn't change no matter how many time I replayed the song. I've said this before, it just feels like Jaejoong is embracing me with those melodies, and it felt really good... Hmmm I hate to admit that I'm being delusional. But whatever it is, I'd still say that 'Still In Love' is the BEST out of all of Jaejoong's songs yet (Because I also love In Heaven and can't wait for it to come out in a proper album). I LOVE his songs, his compositions, his voice, his passion...

I love Kim Jaejoong... :)

Lustrous Pinion

2011-08-09T07:50:00.000+10:00

Guess what? I'm changing my blog title again! I've always fancied SAT words so finally I came up with these two words that I think best resembles myself, my hopes and expectations to be exact. hehe, go ahead and search through your dictionaries for it. :p

I don't have much to tell as of now. I'm trying to catch up with my studies at the moment. sigh. I'm telling you, the workload is like sh*t! It's only the beginning of week 3 but I'm feeling as if half the semester has gone by already. T_T There's so much to learn with so little time. But I don't want my head to explode!

I'll leave you to listen to my latest favourite song. I know this is also everyone else's favourite, just by looking at the soaring charts for this song! :D Listen with your earphones. ;) As much as I LOVE the audio speakers on my mac, nothing beats the awesomeness of Unlimited Ears. Even Homin's Superstar sounds ABSOLUTELY different through Unlimited Ears. Everything is crisp and crystal clear, you have no idea. So, Enjoy!

Spread Your Wings and Fly

2011-08-04T21:29:00.000+10:00

In Heaven~ again~ hahaha..
Firstly, sorry for not updating this blog for the longest time. I have plenty to say, so many stories and ideas came into my mind that I want to share, but time does not permit. :(

It's already my fourth semester here, so things are getting more hectic than before. This time I have two Level 3 subjects to score. I'm pretty scared for my Corporate Finance course. Rumours says that it's going to be hard. Like.. super hard. So I need to start drilling from now even if it's only the second week into the semester. sigh. I can already feel the pressure.

I have this huge desire to keep on studying, thus I've been planting this great idea to further my studies after completing my degree. The thought itself is my very source of encouragement to score high in my current courses. But then again, I will only have a sponsor to further into masters if I can get first class honours for my degree (which is near to impossible now), even when I've already passed the requirement for the application. :( Ahhh I've always wondered if I can make it through. Besides, money matters right? Maybe I should work hard on finding a wealthy husband so that I won't have to worry about the expenses. Just in case. LOL! Yeah I wish...

My main aim now is to maintain my gpa, and if possible, with Ramadhan's barakah may my prayers be answered, get an even higher gpa for this semester and the next until graduation. I really hope to further into masters, perhaps even phd? :p Nahh, we'll see about the phd hahaha~

Oh, btw I just knew that my sponsor is actually very flexible that they would allow us to expand our wings even into areas unrelated to our courses of studies. When they visited a few weeks back, I mentioned about this art/sketching class that requires us to buy the full sketching set (leads etc included) at above $100, and another $60 for the classes fees. I've wanted to try and take up that class once but cancelled when I saw how much I actually have to invest just to fulfill my pastime interest. They told me that they could actually help with the money issues if I can come up with some justifications as to why it would be a good idea for me to take up that class. They added that they totally encourage their scholars to have a wide variety of skills, provided that they could still perform their best in their studies. Haha, that's the main thing that I'm worried about. So I'm still considering if I really should ask LOL~ But really, it would be really cool if I can actually sketch, you know~ Especially when people around me kept on saying that I have the fingers and the precision. It makes me wonder.

And believe it or not, I've invested about $30 on a Complete Korean Language @udio course, which initially costed $100+! It consists of all levels of learning the language, from the Absolute Beginner all the way to Advanced. There are about 10 main components in this Complete set, and if I were to buy it separately, one main component would cost me $20. Yeah, I'm not kidding. That's why I immediately bought it while it's on sale! Muahaha! So I'm going to take my precious time studying this language slowly. :D

I'm also in the middle of learning basic Hiragana :p But I'm not that far yet. Corporate Finance is holding me back. LOL~

Alright, I think this is enough of my sharing for now. I'll see you on my next update, whenever that is. Choww!

Victoria

2011-07-18T18:25:00.001+10:00

DUN DUNNN~!! I'm back everybodehhhh~ :p I know you miss me. I know you miss mehhh~ It's not healthy to lie to yourself so just admit it you miss meeee~ ^__^

It was an awesome break I had these past few weeks. So many stories to tell, but because of that I don't think I'll be able to write them in detail. hehe sorry~ So yeah.. I went all around Brisbane again, this time with my parents, and we went north and south and tried to do as many activities as we possibly can, with me as the tour guide. :) It was fun, and extremely tiring. But as long as we enjoyed it, it's all good. ^_^

After Brisbane all of us went to Melbourne together. Well, I don't have much to say about this place except that I think it's a little overrated. No offense. I like Melbourne, and I might consider to have my honeymoon there *ehem* simply because its countryside is insanely wide and beautiful. I fell in love with the greeneries at first sight. But the CBD (central business district)? Not so much. It's a crowded city, but of course nothing surpases the busy NYC and Tokyo perhaps. But Melbourne city is busy in its own way, very condensed. It's not hard to get around, it's true, but at some point, it's suffocating. Not because of too many people, but because the people here smoke a lot. Let the celcius fall down a bit and they'll immediately suck on another cigarette. If they can find a quiet corner to do that, I would try to tolerate the polution considerably and mind my own business, but come on man, while shopping? While walking along corridors? While waiting for the traffic light amongst these many people? Are you serious?

And not just the smoke.. everywhere reeks the smell of alcohol too! I smell piss everywhere! It's disgusting. :(

In overall, I would say that those nice things of Melbourne are very nice, but those bad stuff are really baaaad. And I love how they've organised the precints, but I just think that it's too organised if you know what I mean? They have a financial precints where they keep all the banks, they have a sports precints where they keep all their stadiums, they have precints for this and precints for that. Everything is just too neat. It gave me the impression that people there could be robots or something.. But then again, maybe all metropolitan cities are like that, and I'm just the naive village girl getting my first glimpse of the world.. =_= whatever you say lahh..

Sorry no piccies here for today. I've posted most of them on fb so check them out there. :) Here's one of my latest song addiction. I've come to a resolution: as long as I can't understand what they're saying, I won't mind listening to them over and over again. :p Here's Mia by IU~

The Aftermath

2011-06-21T08:12:00.005+10:00

Greetings everyone! ^^ Did you miss me? xD Sorry I had some problems these past few days. I had to restrict the access to this blog because it turns out that someone had been as depressed as I was after the 3404 paper, she googled the subject code and somehow landed on my page. Well, her landing on my page by accident wasn't the problem, I don't mind at all. That was why I never put this blog on private. I like it when I can share my experience and all even to strangers.. But things got a little bit too complicated for the course, and she ended up sharing my link on the Discussion Board with the rest of the student body. -_- (more like with the hundreds of people enrolled for the course as well). Well, let's just say I got too overwhelmed... and not in a good way.

My purpose for writing in this blog is mainly to update my life to the people back home, also to my dear sister in Russia. And along the way, I figured that all my experiences can serve as a guide, example or an inspiration for the rest of you out there who stumbled upon these pages. Who knows when you might encounter events that I've went through. At least after knowing my experiences, you could react better and make better decisions than I did when your time calls for it. However, one of my rules is to keep myself anonymous as much as I can. No one outside this virtual world knows about this blog except for my family and very very very extremely close friends. I told no one else. I might've posted pictures of my face somewhere around here, but that was intentioned for my parents to see, and it wasn't appropriate enough to be uploaded on FB.. Whoever managed to come across my face were considered lucky (lol!) but strangers wouldn't know who I am anyway. haha...

To put it simply, I don't want people to suddenly barge into this blog all at once including my friends who also took the course, and get teased by everyone the next day in uni. -_- I got teased once before, I don't want another one. Not because of this...

How bad was the situation of this 3404 course you might ask? Well, the matter went all the way to the school's academic dean. This one girl got called up to his office because she was the first one to lodge in a complaint email to the lecturer, cc'd it to the Business, Econs & Law faculty. She wrote all her frustrations, and consequently everyone else followed suit. eg:

1) there was too much questions and it was impossible to complete it within the given time period, even for a 7-graded excellent student who could actually think through what the alienated questions really wanted.

2) majority of the 8 marks question weren't thoroughly covered in lectures and tutorials but required substantial explanations and thinking, and those which were thoroughly covered were only given 1 to 2 marks, and some 4 marks. Even if students managed to cover all the given lecture and tutorial materials twice or more, it was still impossible to grasp what the question really wants and it was even more impossible to get the full 8 marks if at all. (It was as if the lecturer was treating us like postgrad students who would do our own researchs on these things T___T)

3) There were too much flippings of the exam booklet especially for the Zscore model, it wastes time enough said. (This one guy told that he set aside a good 30 minutes for it and still couldn't solve he table alone)

4) The course was badly structured. No one can see a clear outline and its relations to other topics in the course, and almost all of the terms were needed to be googled again in order for the students to grasp a better understanding. (They should've just given us a prescribed reading material!)

5) Sample exam questions and materials from the Revisions lecture were absolutely misleading! (We aren't provided with past years at all, and all our other courses sends out sample exams which we could actually rely on, meaning that the question will be somewhat similar with some added evil twists here and there. I personally thought the topics they would assess us on can be based on the sample exams and revision lecture's materials combined, but believe it or not, NONE of it came out.. -_-)

And more... Majority of the students demanded for justice, either we should be rewarded an easy 5 or 6 just for enduring the stupid exam, or everyone gets to pass no matter how awfully they scored on the paper, or... resit a new exam that is more to a degree student's capacity and consist of what have been covered in lectures and tutorials and not on ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING OF BANKING AND LENDING DECISION THERE IS TO KNOW IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD! I hope they won't do another exam though T__T 3404 is such a pain in the neck I hope not to have to go through the materials again. Using a Bell curve would be good, but the school told us that UQ NEVER uses methods such as bell curves, like ever... but they do implement some other weird statistical stuff to grade the students. But then again, these methods couldn't really help those who were simply shocked by the insanity of the questions and just broke right there in the exam hall. It was simply the most awful exam everyone has ever sat for, even for those students who had been studying in UQ for 6 years! Things got even more serious and the Discussion Board ended up being hidden by the faculty because it could be provoking the matter, and not solving it...

And guess what. I wasted two days of my precious income tax law revision time just because my heart just won't settle! I just felt like everything is lost. I felt like all my efforts could never be enough ever again. I felt like everything is just a waste of time, that is if exams like this 3404 ever takes place again. A WASTE OF TIME! I never felt that way before for a paper which grades could actually determine my future. T_T

I was lucky I managed to finish my law revision in time, and Alhamdulillah I managed to do my best for it, and walk out of the exam hall with a content heart and a content smile. :)

I think I shall open this blog again when I get back from my winter trip in 3 weeks' time. How does that sound? :p Here's a solo from Park Yoochun for his new drama Miss Ripley!! ^_^ But honestly I don't really like the song. Because I only love Jaejoong's songs!! Weeeeee~ xD

Be Strong!

2011-06-16T22:58:00.000+10:00

I'm going to blog about my exams again, specifically yesterday's exam. For those who have read the comments on the check-in that I was tagged on FB will know what this is going to be about.

For my previous economics exam, maybe it's because I was too confident in myself since I've taken the course twice before (at different institutions for different qualifications, not that I failed and needed to repeat it). I've known almost all of what to expect, I've thought of every twists and turns that the lecturer might put up in the questions because I've already seen quite a few. I have absolutely all the important concepts right here at the back of my mind. Unfortunately though, I wasn't able to figure out that the question could be maths/equation-based like that. As I've said, I've expected graphs, and lots of them...

However, the econs exam don't compare to yesterday's exam at all! Well, partly because yesterday's subject is new to all of us. We can't really take up finance when we're in school. The most money that we counted back then was from firms/businesses through their financial statements and that's about it. For me, it was not until I took my first semester diploma in uitm two years ago that I got my first taste in what finance could be like, that is when I took Business Maths which revolves around the concept of Time Value of Money, Interests Rates, etc... And last semester I took finm2401 at UQ which is about Financial Management. Fair enough, my background that I received from Uitm helped me a little, though 2401 is much much more than that. We dug into more details about the concept of all kind of loans, how to calculate the interests and so on. It was still fairly simple now that I thought of it (though it almost killed me too when I answered my finals back then).

But but... finm3404 aka Banking and Lending Decision is just... T___T

I have to be honest that I knew that something might go wrong. I have no idea why I was so calm and collected during the gap before this finance exam. I knew I wasn't ready yet, but there was no adrenaline at all, even as much as I tried to force it. My revision went on slow and steady, perhaps too slow. I could still find time to go online, blog some more, and sleep! I'm not going to hide it that I have this one day that I went to bed at 7pm and only woke up at 6am the next morning. And I didn't feel guilty at all! -_- I knew something is going to go bad for this exam somehow, but I really didn't expect for it to go this baaaad :'(

I managed to finish my revision before I went into the exam hall. I went through some questions as well, and I was pretty confident with my preparations, albeit worried that I would jumble everything up and confuse myself. I even flipped some of the concepts a few times more to make sure that I got it right. I was starting to like this subject now I have a better comprehension of it. However, when I was at the exam venue, instead of "I can't wait to get this over with! *fighting mode*", what came out of my mouth was, "Can I skip this exam? I don't want to go in. I don't want to take this exam... :(" much to my friends' amusement. Well, it turns out that there could just be a reason for everything.

This subject is all about Banking and Lending Decision just as the name suggest. We learnt, in the banks' point of view, how they assessed loans, credits etc. The first half of the course were more towards how to calculate interests and profits from all kinds of loans (eg: commercial, home mortgage, project financing), how much to give out as loan, identify who's eligible. And the second half is more towards assessing the banks' perfomance internally, how they could manage their asset and liability against unexpected change in interest rates, how much to keep as capital to back up for it's long-term loans, and we also learned a bit about Islamic Banking! Pretty interesting right? The catch here is, you will need to switch your mind into thinking that loans are the assets and deposits are the liabilities unlike in accounting, because they're the banks. And their income mainly comes from interest earnings. So yeah, I had to turn my head upside down to get the hang of things here.

And just as I thought I've got the hang of it all and will be able to answer the questions, it turnes out that my lecturer has hired an alien from Mars to prepare the questions for her. T_T The questions were so deep and so confusing that even the 10 MCQs seems to take me hours to complete. Not to mention that I hate it when they start using SAT words in the questions. -_- Each MCQ collects 2 marks, and believe it or not, I was only confident with ONE of my answers, and the other 9 was BLEHHHH~ When I started on the Problem questions, I found one that she took straight from the tutorials. Oh yeah I was happy for this one. :D I immediately went through the sub-questions, and when I was up to the third sub-question, suddenly my heart began to pump weirdly and my mind started to think, "Am I doing this the correct way? Or is it supposed to be the other way round? Oh shit." Then, I totally lost my confidence in the question. I paused and inhaled. Bad thoughts was starting to take over and I can't let them get to me. This is a very crucial state. T_T "Subhanallah," yes I almost said that out loud in the quiet exam room. -_- I decided to try other questions, I flipped and flipped, and I recognised another question about Ijarah (lease-to-own for Islamic Banking). I was happy that I was able to answer everything, however, the marks allocated were only 1 to 2 marks for each of those four sub-questions. T_T This isn't going to contribute much marks for my grade, dang! Then I flipped and flipped; this one's hard, this one's hard too, what is this question talking about?! and suddenly this thought came to me, "Why are you flipping so much, you're wasting your time! Just get to a question already!" Mummy~~ :'(

In short, I have an 8 marks question left completely blank, and also a few more blanks for the 4 marks question, and some of them I could only answer half-way. T_T I seriously thought that I was doomed. Am I the only one who's struggling this badly? I couldn't even spare a moment to look at other students' reactions while in the exam hall. But when I came out, some people were crying. It was weird, the atmosphere was tense. After my econs exams, everyone was oddly loud on their way out of the exam hall, I guessed that everyone must had the same opinion as me. But this time, it's the complete opposite!

Then, I waited for my friends to come out of the hall because we were seated separately and my seat was closest to the exit, but they're no where to be seen even as the hall has cleared out. Guess what, this one friend of mine forgot to write her name on the exam booklet, which will represent 80 out of the 100 marks of this final exam. She was still inside trying to argue with the invigilator to give her exam booklet back so that she can at least scribble down her ID. But they were very strict. :( Even our lecturer was there and tried to help us out, but the Invigilator wasn't giving in. It was the first time that I saw her cry...

It wasn't her fault though. Even I almost forgot to write down my details at first, because we aren't allowed to write anything during perusal except on the scrap paper given (perusal is the time when you're allowed to look at the questions and plan which ones to answer first. You can't start writing down answers, but we usually answered the MCQs during perusal and scribble a b c d or e on the scrap paper and transfer it to the MCQ anwer sheet later. oh, we also aren't allowed to use our calculators during perusal), and that was also when we were shocked by the extremely advanced questions. Automatically, our alerted mind would rush to answer those question right after perusal ends. Thank God I was still quite collected then to realise what was most essential. My friend must've had it worse that I did. :( They cried as we left the exam venue, for fear that they won't even pass the exam. I still had some strength left in me, so I didn't let that thought pull me down. But I regret it that I didn't know how to console them.

Well, this has been a pretty long entry. haha. Sorry that you had to read a full essay of it. I just felt like I need to get it out once more, because the thoughts of yesterday are still disturbing me. I know I should just let it go and move on to focusing on my next exam, but you know, something in me was crushed because of finm3404 and I'm trying to get it back together. I hope I'll be able to start revising on income tax law soon. I need to get back in the game. :')

p/s: Last minute edit. This is a video of last night's lunar eclipse. I believe this is taken somewhere in Australia. :)

Any comments?? :)

Save & Boost Iman in the Online Age Series #5

2011-06-15T22:49:00.000+10:00

So easy to get distracted - Step 5 is about Staying Focused. Dunya is beautiful & easy to lose yourself in! Paradise is even more beautiful. This video presents some of the most convincing and instructional verses from the Quran and authentic hadith from the Prophet Muhammed (s) about getting the right, winner's perspective on life that we all need to be reminded of from time to time!!

Speaker is Shaikh Aslam AbuIsmaeel
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So far in the 7 Steps to Iman in the Online Age Short Video Series, a series for Purification of our Souls:
Step 1 of 7: Understand the Challenge with Road Plan Notes at End of Video
Step 2 of 7: Dua - A Winning Formula [Ways to get prayers answered]
Step 3 of 7: Conquer the Sins - The Winning Strategy with Road Map to Have All Sins Forgiven!!
Step 4 of 7: The Friend of Allah with a Favourite Hadith at End of Video
Step 5 of 7: Dunya! Dunya! Stay Focused on Paradise (This video)

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What Music is to you?

2011-06-14T08:19:00.002+10:00

This question has been running a lot in my mind lately. It's been quite a while, but I still can't get a definite answer for it yet. I know that some says that we are forbidden to listen to music. Some says it's because that music is like another form of drug/alcohol, something that can make you drunk and lose your mind (eg: lost in the dunya). And I do have a friend from UAE who never listens to music (she doesn't even listen to nasyeed songs!). When we switched on the television, whenever there is a background music for a scene in a movie, we will turn on mute for her, we respected her beliefs. But you know what, I can't really comprehend it. Why? What's wrong with it?

Maybe I'm still in denial because I like to listen to music, especially TVXQ's music. Whenever I'm going out, I'd take my iPod and turn on the songs and listen to it on shuffle right until I reach back home. I'm not really addicted to listening to those songs, I just wanted to listen to it. Like it's part of multi-tasking for me. Going shopping, get on the bus, watch scenery, listen to Changmin and Jaejoong, daydream.. :p

Unlike what that video has mentioned, which is clearly an extreme case, TVXQ is known to be good people, with good hearts and good intentions. People became good persons because of them, and people did charity and those sorts because of them. (I know in our cases we're supposed to do it because of Allah, but they aren't Muslims...) But you get the point right? So is there any harm in me listening to TVXQ's music? Should I learn to stop listening to music once and for all?

At least I'm grateful that I'm no longer interested in listening to American music. I didn't know when it stopped. During my teenage years, I loved Eminem's music, I listened to Limp Bizkit, Papa Roach, POD, Evanescence, LINK!N PARK etc.. And I didn't realise when it stopped. Maybe it was when I entered MRSM? Because then I started to listen to nasyeed 24/7. I guess that must be the point when the interest in American music completely diminished? I'm not very sure. When I entered KYUEM, everyone around me listens to American Music -_- Those smart ass geniuses of Malaysia won't stop gosipping about American artists with each other, and sing American songs even in the shower. haha. But that didn't quite made me want to listen to American music again. Though I still found myself bobbing head to Britney Spears sometimes. :p

Well, maybe Allah has helped and shielded me from that evil influence of those kinds of American musics, Alhamdulillah...

But why did I turn to Korean music instead? I first knew about Kpop when I was in KYUEM. That was also when I first knew about TVXQ. Starting from that point, I just can't stop listening to TVXQ! (and I listened to nothing else but TVXQ, I'm not kidding) Sometimes I figured that maybe Allah wants me to learn something here, but up until this point I still can't quite figure out what. It's odd isn't it, how I become so attached to TVXQ and no other groups? Like seriously, even after almost five years, I easily grow bored with songs from other Kpop groups. Even when I say that it's my song addiction, they aren't really on my shuffling list, they aren't even on my iPod! What's on my iPod right now is the full set of TVXQ/JYJ/Homin songs, Maher Zain's songs, 2 piano instrumental pieces, and B2st's new fiction&fact just because it's new. o.O And that's it.

For now, all I can say is, as long as these songs doesn't keep me away from doing my duties to Allah and to myself, then maybe it's fine. -_- But then again, humans are careless and forgetful. We sometimes don't even realise that what we're doing doesn't comply to our beliefs. Subhanallah. May Allah shower us with guidance...

HAHAHA!

2011-06-13T07:58:00.001+10:00

This happened yesterday, at JYJ's concert in Busan. I just couldn't stop smiling. They did 'the wave' in the stadium, and the fans just wouldn't stop! It goes round and round and round and round... :p LOL! It's just too cute. I wish I was there :') Oh I wish I was in any of their concerts... But I know I can't... bleh~ Anyways, watch the video! ^^

Breaking news yesterday, all Qantas and Jetstar flights in and out of Melbourne are cancelled due to the volcano ashes from Chile. The volcano burst about a week ago, but the ashes just arrived yesterday. Some flights to New Zealand were also cancelled, and some of them changed routes and altitudes. I hope my trip to Melbourne and Adelaide next month will run smoothly.. >_<

Oh! And I love the weather today. It's sunny with hints of cloud here and there. It doesn't matter that it's only 12 degrees out there, at least we got the sun to help warm us up! :D Alhamdulillah~

Hush Hush My Baby...

2011-06-12T16:46:00.003+10:00

T^T

I'm sad.. so sad.. and so angry.. I've managed to score a 7 for my midsem for this subject, but but.. argh! why is it so unfair! I've expected to be able to tackle all the questions and grab decent marks for it. But why are they asking questions like that? Out of all those two times I've taken microeconomics final exams, I've never seen even one question which was approached like this one does! Honestly, I felt like I was taking a maths/algebra/calculus exam instead of economics. There was this enornous emphasis on marginal equations, and perfect competition. And that's about what I could remember. Oh yea, another one of it consist of Game Theory, and that's it. -_- What happened to all the other topics? What happened to all the other areas of economics that we're supposed to know. During my previous two economics courses that I took (for diploma and a-levels), we were always reminded that graphs are essential in various areas in economics. To understand the theory, we need the graphs. To explain a theory, we need the graphs. And not even one question in the whole exam booklet yesterday asked us to draw graphs, even if it's just for justification. WTH!! Economics don't consist of marginal analysis only! They don't evolve around equations like algebra etc! Why did you keep giving us equations and more equations to solve?!!

As of the theory questions that I had expected so much, there were only 2% of it in the whole exam paper. Just imagine.. Even the MCQ questions wasn't anything like the past years' at all!! -_-

Furthermore, our short answer questions turned out to be fully 'fill in the blanks'. And there were 50 blanks to fill, which represents 50 marks, which also represents 50% of the final grade... It feels like answering MCQ questions WITHOUT any choices of answers. Please God, have mercy on us...

I really really wish that I can get a 7 for this subject. I was so hopeful... :(

Southern Queensland shivers in grip of cold snap

2011-06-10T07:50:00.001+10:00

Article by couriermail

KEEP yourself rugged up if you're in Brisbane – the mercury just plummeted below 7C in the CBD and it’s likely to drop further this morning.

The southeast is freezing this morning following its coldest day in 11 years on Thursday – when the maximum daytime temperature struggled to warm up at 12.5C.

Weather Channel forecaster Tom Saunders said Brisbane’s outdoor temperature had plunged to 6.9C at 6am and was expected to go even lower until sunrise.

Amberley is near-freezing at 1.8C while the temperature at the Brisbane airport is a frosty 5.7C.

In Toowoomba and Oakey the mercury dropped to just below 0C, while Kingaroy recorded 0.6C and Charleville a chilly minus-3C.

Mr Saunders said frost was likely in areas to the west of Brisbane, where the temperature got below 2C.

"There is frost, even around Ipswich and there could be some frost in the far western parts of Brisbane, this morning, too," he said.

"After such a cold day yesterday and with skies clearing overnight, any heat has escaped and that’s why it was such a cold night."

Mr Saunders said the predicted daytime top today was 16C, although there would be less cloud cover than yesterday.

He said it was still an unusual daytime high for Brisbane and 6C below average.

"It’s pretty unusual," he said. "We don’t get many days that stay at 12.5C in June."

The average for this time of year is 20.9C, putting Thursday’s 12.6C maximum 8C below average.

The June record, which is also the seasonal low, is 11.3C.

The Weather Bureau expects Friday to be more like 15C, due to the chance of some sunshine peeking through.

Forecaster Greg Browning said the cold snap was caused by a substantial low level layer of cold air pushed up from south of the continent.

"Above this very cold airflow, we have dense cloud cover," Mr Browning said. "This meant sunshine was not getting through to warm up the atmosphere."

There were no reports of sleet or snow in the elevated border regions although conditions were cold enough.

At 2pm, the city was just 12.2C. This put Brisbane's apparent temperature - what you 'feel' with things such as wind chill and a lack of sunshine factored in - at just 8.9C.

That made it colder than Melbourne, which made 15.3C.

Mr Browning said the cold conditions extended just north of Mackay, with temperatures well below average right along the coast and into the interior.

Applethorpe on the Granite Belt had the coldest temperature in Queensland, with 6C at 3pm and Toowoomba to the east made just 6.7C.

The good news is that the bureau has slightly wound back predictions of up to 150mm of rain on the weekend and early next week.

Mr Browning said patchy rain would still occur in the south of the state, with central Queensland to get the heaviest, perhaps about 50mm.

Cloudy and rainy conditions would continue over most of the eastern half of the state next week, with moderate to heavy falls about the central coast and inland.

There remains the potential for heavier rain extending into the south of the state on Wednesday.

shiver

2011-06-09T21:53:00.004+10:00

Apparently, today is the coldest June day in Brisbane since 1916~ O_O
I checked the temperature on my iPod at around noon today and it was 12 degrees. And as far as I remembered from last year, June's midday's temperature hadn't even come close to 15! And to think that it's at noon when it was supposed to be the hottest time of the day...
Right now... it's 7 degrees *shiver* This is supposed to be the temperature for peak winter, although the coldest I could remember from last year was 8 to 9 degrees.. I can't imagine how it'll be in July later..
I think I'll need to sleep early tonight. The quilt seems so inviting *_*

At least I have this video down here to warm up my heart.. oh Jaejoong..

Salute to the Japanese fans for knowing how to sincerely appreciate a superb performance.
*silence is golden*

Subhanallah!

2011-06-06T07:27:00.002+10:00

p/s: jyj is back in Asia!

Fiction & Fact

2011-06-05T06:38:00.002+10:00

I find this new album from B2st very interesting. I have always admired this group for not saying that they want to be like somebody else for example TVXQ or 2PM or whatever, and can still be a great group with their own identity. Unlike some of those 'cakap tak serupa bikin' and 'perasan' idiots Code-V, X5 etc... -_-

Now I officially label this group as something in between TVXQ and 2PM :D So for a fan of both, I'd most definitely be listening to B2st and will be looking forward to more of their works.

This here is one of the songs that I like from this new album of theirs. All other songs are really good too! But for now my addiction is this! ^^

And just for fun, please enjoy this video below too! I'm not implementing anything, but if you watch this video closely, most of the funny moments are triggered by the trio JaeChunSu. Has anyone realised how HoMin now lack of humour? I mean they are still awesome like that, but realise that the funny bone has left them somehow... I just, miss them as 5. The best entertainment for me are those JaeMin moments.. I miss their one-touch-love LOL!

Save & Boost Iman in the Online Age Series #4

2011-06-04T06:25:00.001+10:00

Is there anything greater in this life than to be a Friend of Allah! YOU can be the Friend (Waliy) of Allah! This short video, Step 4 of 7 for the Iman in the Online Age, is about HOW you - yes YOU - can become a Friend (Waly) of Allah!

Part one of this short video is about the Friend of Allah - the greatness, the way, the love and protection of Allah for His slave, the Waliy (Friend) of Allah, "Were he to ask me for anything," says Allah about His Waliy, "I would surely grant him and were he to seek protection in Me, I would surely grant him."

Part two of this short video: Hadith on how each one of us can be the Friend of Allah, 'Whoever shows enmity to a Friend (Waliy) of mine, Allah declares war on him.'

Don't miss in this short video the meaning of Waly / Waliy of Allah, as we find in the Quran.

This is the 4th of the 7 steps to Save & Boost Iman in the Online Age, each talk delievered by Sheikh Aslam AbuIsmaeel (www.facebook.com/AslamAbuIsmaeel) - a Talibul Ilm, a graduate from the Shariah faculty at the Islamic University of Medina, Saudi Arabia, and a brief student of Sheikh Muhammad ibn Salih al-Utheimeen.

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2011-06-03T06:59:00.007+10:00

Warning: More spazzing of In Heaven :p

Watch this video down here and listen, I swear this must be the best sound system I've ever heard! Use earphones on your laptop/PC, a good one like Unlimited Ears to get the best results. :p Good job Jaejoong for making it better and better everytime. :)
p/s: ignore the crazy screaming fan voices. lol!

And to this video, I send my generous thanks to the cameraman for capturing a very close HQ image of them singing my favourite song on stage. If only the camera could focus on Jae at the climax though... But still, he looked at the camera at the beginning of the song! ^^

Now I am awfully addicted to Jaejoong's song. I've even made a playlist on my iPod calling it 'Jaejoong's'. muahahaha~

I am Beautiful!

2011-06-01T06:34:00.004+10:00

10 Beautiful Aspects of a Muslimah

1. Her Obedience to the Creator: A practising Muslim man loves to have a practising Muslim wife; who knows that the life of this world is nothing but a test from her Lord; giving her an opportunity to come closer and closer to Allah, doing more and more good deeds to please Him, restricting herself from the desires of her inner self that go against the will of her Creator.

But as for him who feared standing before his Lord, and restrained himself from impure evil desires, and lusts. Verily, Paradise will be his abode. (Surah An- Naaziyaat: 40-41)

2. Her Haya (Modesty/Shyness): Haya is one of the most significant factors of a woman’s personality. Haya according to a believer’s nature refers to a bad and uneasy feeling accompanied by embarrassment, caused by one’s fear of being exposed or censured for some unworthy or indecent conduct.[1]

Prophet Sallallahu alaihiwasallam said: “Haya comes from Eman; Eman leads to Paradise. Obscenity comes from antipathy; and antipathy leads to the fire.” (Sahih Al-Bukhari)

A Muslim woman feels shy to do anything that would displease her Lord in any aspect. She has haya in her talk, she has haya in her gaze, she has haya in her clothing, she has haya in her walk. Her haya in her talk is that she is not soft in her speech but speaks honorably. Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala says (interpretation of the meaning):

“O wives of the Prophet! You are not like any other women. If you keep your duty (to Allah), then be not soft in speech, lest he in whose heart is a disease (of hypocrisy, or evil desire for adultery) should be moved with desire, but speak in an honorable manner” (Surah Al-Ahzaab:32)

Her haya in her gaze is that she does not look at what Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala has prohibited for her to look. Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala says (interpretation of the meaning):

And tell the believing women to lower their gaze (from looking at forbidden things), and protect their private parts (from illegal sexual acts)… (Verse continues) (Surah An-Nur: 31)

Her haya in her clothing is that she does not reveal to others what Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala has forbidden for her to reveal. Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala says (interpretation of the meaning):

…And not to show off their adornment except only that which is apparent (like both eyes for necessity to see the way or outer dress like veil, gloves, head-cover, apron, etc.), and to draw their veils all over Juyubihinna (i.e. their bodies, faces, necks and bosoms,) and not to reveal their adornment except to their husbands, or their fathers, or their husband’s fathers, or their sons, or their husband’s sons, or their brothers or their brother’s sons, or their sister’s sons, or their (Muslim) women (i.e. their sisters in Islâm), or the (female) slaves whom their right hands possess, or old male servants who lack vigor, or small children who have no sense of the feminine sex.. (Verse Continues) (Surah An-Nur: 31)

Her haya in her walk is that she walks modestly without attracting others attention towards herself. Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala says (interpretation of the meaning): .

..And let them not stamp their feet so as to reveal what they hide of their adornment. And all of you beg Allâh to forgive you all, O believers, that you may be successful. (Surah An-Nur: 31)

Abu Usayd al-Ansari narrated that he heard Allah’s Messenger Sallallahu alaihiwasallam say to the women on his way out of the mosque when he saw men and women mixing together on their way home: ‘Give way (i.e., walk to the sides) as it is not appropriate for you to walk in the middle of the road.’ Thereafter, women would walk so close to the wall that their dresses would get caught on it. (Narrated by Abu Dawood in “Kitab al-Adab min Sunanihi, Chapter: Mashyu an-Nisa Ma’ ar-Rijal fi at-Tariq)

A woman who has the knowledge of Allah’s commandment to preserve her modesty, submitting herself to the will of her creator, even after having the desire to be praised for her beauty, is without doubt beloved to Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala and as well as to all good believing men.

3. Her Beauty: Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala made women beautiful in the sight of men. It’s just that some human beings are more attracted towards some than others. Aishah RadhiyAllahu anha said: “I heard the Prophet Sallallahu alaihiwasallam saying: ‘Souls are like conscripted soldiers; those whom they recognize, they get along with, and those whom they do not recognize, they will not get along with.’” (Sahih Al-Bukhari)

Al-Qurtubi said: “Although they are all souls, they differ in different ways, so a person will feel an affinity with souls of one kind, and will get along with them because of the special quality that they have in common. So we notice that people of all types will get along with those with whom they share an affinity, and will keep away from those who are of other types. [This is like the old saying goes, “Birds of a feather flock together”] For a believing man, a Muslim woman’s beauty is not just how her nose looks or how big her eyes are, but her modesty, purity of heart, and innocence make her look beautiful as well. Also Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala makes people whom He loves, pleasing to others.

“When Allah loves someone he calls to Jibreel Alaihissalaam saying, ‘O Jibreel, I love such and such a person, so love him.’ Then Jibreel will call to the (angels) of the heavens, ‘Allah loves such and such a person so love him.’ And the angels will love [that person]. And then Allah will place the pleasure in the hearts of the people towards this person.” (Sahih Al-Bukhari and Muslim)

4. Her Intellect/playfulness: Intellect and playfulness are two qualities of women highly liked by men. Every man likes to have an intelligent wife who can advise and support him in day to day matters. Khadija bint Khuwaylid RadhiyAllahu anha was one of the most beloved wives of Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him). She supported Allah’s messenger (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) at the very beginning of his Prophethood when Jibreel alaihissalaam brought the first revelation to him. Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) always admired her and remembered her even long after her death. A playful wife is a joy and pleasure to a man’s heart. Prophet Sallallahu alaihiwasallam recommended Jabir bin ‘Abdullah to marry a virgin so that the two could play with each other and amuse each other. Narrated Jabir bin ‘Abdullah: “My father died and left seven or nine girls and I married a matron.

Allah’s Apostle said to me, “O Jabir! Have you married?” I said, “Yes.” He said, “A virgin or a matron?” I replied, “A matron.” he said, “Why not a virgin, so that you might play with her and she with you, and you might amuse her and she amuse you.” (Hadith continued) (Sahih Al- Bukhari)

5. Her Truthfulness: Being truthful and honest is an essential quality of a believer. ‘Abdullah ibn Mas’ood RadhiyAllahu anh said: The Messenger of Allah Sallallahu alaihiwasallam said: “I urge you to be truthful, for truthfulness leads to righteousness, and righteousness leads to Paradise. A man will continue to be truthful and seek to speak the truth until he is recorded with Allah as speaker of truth (Siddeeq). And beware of lying, for lying leads to immorality and immorality leads to Hell; a man will continue to tell lies until he is recorded with Allah as a liar.” (Sahih Al-Bukhari and Muslim)

A person who is known to lie repeatedly loses his trust. And if that happens in case of a marital relationship the whole relationship falls apart. A woman who is known to be a “Siddeeqah” certainly has a higher status in a Muslim man’s heart.

6. Her Obedience: Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala made man protector and maintainer of the woman and enjoined upon her to obey him in all the matters that do not go against Quran and Sunnah. Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala says (interpretation of the meaning):

“Men are the protectors and maintainers of women, because Allah has made one of them to excel the other, and because they spend (to support them) from their means” (Surah An-Nisa’: 34)

The Messenger of Allah Sallallahu alaihiwasallam said, “The best women is she who when you look at her, she pleases you, when you command her she obeys you, and when you are absent, she protects her honor and your property.” (At-Tabarani, Ibn Majah)

7. Her Patience: Patience is a characteristic that can never be praised enough. A woman who remains patient at the times of hardship and relies on the help and mercy of Allah is without a doubt a beloved servant of Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala. Allah says (interpretation of the meaning):

“And Allah loves As-Saabiroon (the patient)” (Surah Aal Imran: 146)

8. Her Cooking: Delicious food is without a doubt weakness of men. It’s an old saying that “The Way to a Man’s Heart is through his Stomach”. We also know that one of Prophet’s (Sallallahu alaihiwasallam) wives used to cook food that he liked a lot and due to that Aishah radhiyAllahu anha would get jealous, because she didn’t know how to cook that.

9. Her Contentment with Rizq: No man likes to have a woman who is always complaining about how less her husband earns or how rich her other friends are. A good Muslimah is the one who thank Allah for what He has blessed her with and she is thankful to her husband for what he provides her with. Abu Hurairah RadhiyAllahu anh reported: The Prophet Sallallahu alaihiwasallam said, “Richness is not the abundance of wealth, rather it is self-sufficiency.” (Sahih Al-Bukhari and Muslim)

10. Good Manners: A woman of good manners is a blessing from Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala. When she speaks, she speaks honorably, why she deals with others she deals with them kindly. She is polite with elders, loving to children, and good to her fellow folks. It is related by ‘Abdullah bin Amr that the Prophet Sallallahu alaihiwasallam said: “The best of you are those who possess the best of manners.” (Sahih Al-Bukhari and Muslim)

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Buttery Jittery Fly Fly!

2011-05-31T16:14:00.000+10:00

I think this would be the third post of me spazzing about In Heaven. Seriously I can't wait for the recorded version to come out. And if I have enough savings, I'm definitely buying this tour's Concert DVD! aaaahhhh! >_<

Kim Jaejoong, stop making me fall for ~~you~~ your songs!

p/s: sorry the title made no sense. It's just that I'm not myself these days. :p

Monday Parody

2011-05-30T13:00:00.004+10:00

Oh, this totally made me miss the 'Manglish' back home. :D It's so awesome how they changed the lyrics to sound so Malaysian. hahaha This made me smile. :) And they say:

"Some girl named Rebecca Black made a parody of your song!"

Save & Boost Iman in the Online Age Series #3

2011-05-29T11:23:00.000+10:00

In this video (step 3 of 7) by Shk Aslam AbuIsmaeel:
Part One: A beautiful serene Mosque from Malaysia is the background image:
- Major sins a danger zone
- Minor sins easy to take it lightly
- How to conquer the major & minor sins
- Amazing hadith shows how to have all your sins forgiven and that is no joke!
Part Two: Roadmap to having all sins forgiven - With a beautiful Mosque background picture, a highly motivational nasheed to listen, see a hadith that may hold the key to your paradise and all sins forgiven!

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I miss them :')

2011-05-28T15:33:00.002+10:00

This definitely brought back memories of happiness and laughter. Oh... How I missed those days. I specifically missed watching Jaejoong and Changmin hitting each other, getting into witty conversations together, and also... I always loved it when Changmin always gets his way and win over Jaejoong through his witty maknae ideas. And let's not forget, our most favourite Soulfighters' battle royale: the XMan Danghyunghaji where at last, Jaejoong takes the crown :D LOL! (Click the link. Video can't be embedded -_-)

That's all I came to say today. hahaha. Chow peeps, off to study! ^_^

Ten Most Common Misconceptions About Islam

2011-05-26T18:51:00.008+10:00

I'm very busy. And will get even busier until the end of next month. Oh God... I'm so anxious, so worried about my final exams. I didn't expect that level 3 subjects would be this hard. It feels like such a leap in my required academic capacity. I wouldn't mind so much if I'm given a textbook and clear lecture notes to refer to (except for Income Tax Law. sigh!!). At least I'm able to tackle the subject through different point of views. But for my finance course... argh. The lecture notes only contain short explanations and very few simple examples. The rest of the content can be ONLY obtained from the lecturer, that is when she's giving the lecture. No textbook, no proper document for reference... Aish... There's not even a proper case study that we can look through!

Anyways, that's not the main topic for today. My ex-housie shared this link on her facebook, and I find it quite interesting. However, we aren't allowed to take out the article, so I'm just listing them down for you. So if you're interested to know more, feel free to click on the link given at the end of this list. :)

Ten Most Common Misconceptions About Islam

Misconception # 1: Violence and Terrorism is the Muslim Creed

Misconception #2: Jihad Means Killing Non-Muslims

Misconception #3: Women are Oppressed in Islam

Misconception #4: Muslims don’t Believe in Jesus

Misconception #5: Propagation of Islam is the result of Force

Misconception #6: Islam is Intolerant of Other Religions

Misconception #7: Muslims are Savages with no Regard for Culture and Civilization

Misconception #8: Islam was founded by Muhammad (peace be upon him)

Misconception #9: At least Four Wives for Muslim Men

Misconception #10: The Crescent and Star is the Symbol of Islam

Read the whole article (with full explanation) here: Pakistan Insider

People who'd always lived in a Muslim country/community all their lives rarely notice these things. It is when I'm out here that I can see with my own eyes, how they behaved around us, and what their personal conceptions about us might be. This is when I'm able to see reality.

Even though they don't say it, or tries hard not to show it, we can still see that some of them are very cautious. Some of them could be seen looking down on us. And some of them tend to act differently, e.g: avoiding eye-contact. Some of the bold ones even screamed 'terrorists!!' on our faces when they see us, even when we're only out shopping for groceries. However, there are also some of them who doesn't care, and prefers to stay out of the way. And only God knows what went through their minds then.

The public has been misconcepted by many parties, and it could come from various sources. I have a twitter account, and all those accounts which I follow are mainly related to Islam. One day I was shocked that I was followed by one account called 'Ant!Syar!aBot'. I clicked on it and read the few tweets that it has posted. Astaghfirullah, they're spreading such unforgivable fitnah's! These are the people who tried to twist and turn the facts of Islam and turn it into an offensive accusation. e.g: The Hudud Law. They tweeted that in Islam, it was compulsory for all thieves to have their hands cut off as the punishment, and they emphasized that it is an act of cruelty to the humanity. So they concluded that Islam is a cruel religion, etc. Astaghfirullah... I immediately blocked the stupid bastard. -_-

Just... search through the very basic cores of a religion before you decide to challenge the facts.

It is actually an ugly world out there. But fear not, fellow Muslims. Allah is always by our sides, InsyaAllah. :)

16+ only.

2011-05-24T07:46:00.006+10:00

I am officially disappointed at how the performances in Vancouver and New Jersey went...and expect more to come on the rest of the stops of the US tour -_- But I shouldn't blame Jae, I shouldn't!

CR: DTL + as tagged

But waeeeeeeee did all those had to happen? You guys are Asians! Doesn't matter where you're at, you're still Asians. Doesn't that scream something in your minds, your consciences? Did it really have to go that far? Increasing the amount female dancers are TOTALLY fine. I don't care if you don't want to use male dancers at all even. But did those female dancers really have to wear UNDIES all the time? -_- Come on... they look more like sluts than dancers. And what's with touching the private parts? Even though that particular dancer didn't actually grope at your b*lls, that's just a little too much fan-service for Asian singers on stage don't you think? Wait, that's not a fan-service... That's just an eye-sore, and perhaps a little treat for those perverts out there who doesn't have a life.

Groping, Sniffing... I really want to kill the person who came up with these ideas. -_-

You don't have to watch the video below to get the idea. You can already see her *ss there...

Of course the shows are held in the States and Canada, and perhaps these are some of the ways for the guys to promote or market themselves or whatever. But if that's true, it only shows how 'corrupted' the place really are for the guys to take it this far.

I hope they'll at least tone it down a bit for the coming performances. Otherwise they would most probably disappoint another quarter of their Asian fans, the land they actually come from...

At least, I'm happy that the performance of In Heaven doesn't require any slutty dancers. So perhaps you can cool down your burning rage and disappointment with this, which can help you focus on their superb talents instead... :)

A Beautiful Description

2011-05-23T08:48:00.003+10:00

I don't have the mood to ramble today as what I have intended. So instead, I'm just going to copy and paste this thing here, and I'm letting the article speak for itself. Enjoy :)

p/s: I'm so proud that 'Nabi Muhammad SAW' became #1 in Trending Topic WorldWide on twitter last night. :D Subhanallah!

Beautiful Description of the Prophet (SAW)

Muhammad, peace be upon him, was a shy, reticent man who lived among his people with such high moral character they called him al-Amîn - the Trustworthy.

The Prophet’s unique physical appearance, his high character and willingness to sacrifice for others, are often at the essence of any description of him. According to the narrations from his Companions he can be described in the following words:Muhammad was imposing and majestic. His face was luminous like a full moon.

He was taller than medium but not excessive in height. He had wavy hair, which he parted and it never went beyond his shoulders. He was light-skinned with a high brow. He had full eyebrows and a small space between them. His beard was full, his eyes black. His physique was supple and lithe, with a full chest and broad shoulders. When he walked, he was determined and his pace was as if he was walking down hill.

He was decisive and whole-hearted in everything he did, so intent on the task at hand that he never looked over his shoulder, even if his cloak got caught in a thorny bush.

When he spoke he was always brief and reflective. He spoke when he saw benefit and spent long periods in silent contemplation. His speech was comprehensive being neither wordy nor abrupt. He had a mild temperament and was never harsh nor cruel, coarse nor rude. He expressed gratitude for everything given to him no matter how insignificant. When he spoke, his companions lowered their heads as if birds were perched upon them. When he was silent, they felt free to speak. He never criticized food or praised it excessively. He never swore, nor did he find fault in people. He did not flatter people but praised them when appropriate.

When he did turn to speak to somebody, he used to swing his entire body around and address them full face. When he shook hands, he was never the first to withdraw his own.

People entered his gatherings as seekers and left enlightened. He would ask about his companions when they were absent often making inquiries about people’s needs. He never stood nor sat without mentioning the name of God. He never reserved a special place for himself in a gathering and sat where space was provided. He gave each of those who sat with him such full attention that everyone felt that he was the most important person in that gathering. Voices were never raised in his presence. The aged were respected for their age and the young were shown compassion for their youth.

His wives and Companions spoke of his humour and cheerfulness. He said once, “I joke but always tell the truth.”

His wife Aisha said, “he was always making us laugh in the house.” One of his names is ad-dahhak - the smiling one.

Once an old woman asked him if she would enter paradise and he replied, “Old people don’t go to heaven!” The woman was crestfallen with the answer he had provided, to which he added with a smile, “You shall enter paradise in the prime of your youth.”

And once a gruff desert Bedouin came into the mosque and prayed out loud saying, “O God forgive me and Muhammad and don’t forgive anyone else.” Hearing this the Prophet laughed and said to him, “You are limiting the vast mercy of God.”

He died on the same day he was born, in the same house he had lived in for ten years in Medina, on a small bed made of leather stuffed with palm fibres, in the arms of his beloved wife Aishah.

His dying words were, “Treat your women well, and do not oppress your servants, the prayer, the prayer, don’t be neglectful of the prayer. O God, my highest companion, O highest companion.”

Muhammad exemplifies the strong and profound relationship that each human being ought to have with his Creator, his fellow human beings, and the world around him. May Almighty God and His angels and all His creation bless him and greet him with the salutations of peace!

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Save & Boost Iman in the Online Age Series #2

2011-05-22T07:12:00.001+10:00

Here comes #2 of this series, folks. :) Do watch, it might move something that's deep within you. hehe
p/s: please pardon the video's freeze pic (or whatever you call it) -_-

Dua - A Winning Formula, by Shaykh Aslam AbuIsmaeel, is the Step 2 of 7 to Save & Boost Iman in the Online Age series.

Contents of this video:
Part One: Talk (Beginning to 14 minutes)
Part Two: Hadith - Text of Story of the Three Men in the Cave (14 minutes to 18 minutes)

This talk includes:
- the Power of Dua (praying / supplication to Allah)
- How to do Dua to make it a winner, answered dua
- Times, Places and manners from Quran and Sunnah (authentic hadith) of doing dua to make it answered by Allah

To receive the whole series, subscribe to mailing list at www.HikmahWay.com/iman

So far in this series from Quran & authentic Hadith:
- Introduction 7 Steps Save & Boost Iman in the Online Age
- Step 1 of 7: Understand (Fiqh) the Challenge
- Step 2 of 7: Dua - The Winning Formula
Next:
Step 3 of 7: Conquer the Sins - The Winning Strategy

Talk by Shk Aslam AbuIsmaeel
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Video Presented by:

Sunnah Inspirations
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In association with:
HikmahWay Institute
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For Islam World TV - Pure Devotion, True Satisfaction!
Online Islamic TV at www.IslamWorldTV.com
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If looking at the speaker somewhat annoys you because he had his eyes kind of everywhere, you can always open another tab and just listen to his voice in the background, haha. The written slides only appears at the end, and they're actually only the hadith that he talked about.

That Made Me Think

2011-05-21T10:42:00.006+10:00

Morning peeps! :)

I apologise if my last post was such an eye-sore. It was simply what I was thinking the moment I saw that poster and I just had to write something about it and get it out of my systems. LOL. I know some of us don't care about the happenings of that group anymore, because I don't too. But what made me become annoyed again is how some of the others actually had changes of opinions after seeing that poster. That made me think, are Malaysians that easy? And things like that...

Well, this entry isn't going to be about them, again. =_=

I went to Ob!'s blog yesterday and read about his review about POTC and NurKas!h movies. He put it side by side and actually made a comparison on certain issues that I think is true, but quite inappropriate, and he concluded it by saying that watching NK is considered halal and watching POTC is considered haram on the bases that POTC is purely fantasy (the youth fountain etc) and that it has scenes of half-naked mermaids (sin to the eye) and suchs etc. I'd rather not elaborate.

I think he was being sarcastic. Offensively sarcastic, not just to the viewers of the movies, but to the religious authorities, and Malaysians as a whole. -_- This guy is evil. (and I could picture him saying 'thank you, I take that as a compliment.' when I say that). ---again, I don't wish to be critical, so I'll leave it at that.

I watched POTC last night, and I learned a lot actually. I think the producers are actually trying to insert elements of history into the film. Or maybe that was coincidence...? -_- Anyways, I was confused about the role of the Spanish at first. I had initially thought that the Spanish was after the fountain as well, but it seems not. At the end of the movie, the Spanish turned religious as said that 'No fountain can bring youth. Only Faith. Destroy the fountain!' or something like that.

It looks like as soon as the Spanish discovers about the fountain, they immediately went there to destroy it, so that no more people will be tempted and goes astray from the righteous of their beliefs.

The Spanish here were portrayed as Christians. But according to what I learn from history, Spain had been a great Muslim empire in the earlier centuries. So why had the producers made it this way? Are they trying to be sarcastic as well? Why did they pick the Spanish, not the Greeks or the Indians or whatever? That made me think...

I have to say that my trip to the cinema was actually quite worthwhile because of these findings. I had fun too, along with my two other friends. And it's been a while since I went back home after 12am. Shhhhh! xD

p/s: I haven't watched NurKas!h so I can't actually compare the two movies like what he did. And you know what, I think I caught a sore-throat. -_- and a headache, and I feel like a flu is coming... Darn this unpredictable weather. :(

And to end this entry please enjoy this video. I just love how synched and powerful their moves are. :D

WTH...

2011-05-20T10:19:00.007+10:00

This is an extremely clear evidence that these people forgot were their brains are at. What people, in their right state of mind, would declare things like this in a way so shameless and humiliating? Aren't they truly stupid? They think that we're comdemning them because of their name and the 'Kpop' issue? Are they blind too?

Your songs suck, your dance sucks, and your image sucks even more!
At least I had hoped that one of your management board members has a decent education background...

May GOD have mercy on them, and guide them towards the right path.. -_- ameen..

Save & Boost Iman in the Online Age Series #1

2011-05-17T07:03:00.006+10:00

:) Hello! Today I want to share something that I've recently received in my email. This is a video that is prepared and spread through to the people who attended the Arabic, Tafsir and Fiqh classes on Fridays here in Brisbane, Australia. The speech in this video is made by the person giving the Tafsir and Fiqh lessons. However this isn't recorded during one of Friday classes. If it was, the syakh would talk much faster, and sometimes there could be interruptions from the audiences with questions.

There will be seven videos in this series. And this will be the first one. Feel free to share elsewhere. :)
p/s: I just realised that this is held at the Steele Building in UQ, room 206. I used to have lectures and exams in there last semester. :p

Step 1 is a short talk given at the 2011 Brisbane Islamic Convention to launch the 7 Steps to Save & Boost 'Iman in the Online Age'. The rest were recorded in Studio.

Part One of this Video: Talk Understand the Challenge
Part Two of this Video: Five slides with Keys to Iman in the Online Age

So far in this series:
Intro: 7 Steps in the Online Age
Step 1 of 7: Understand (Fiqh) the Challenge
Step 2 of 7: Dua - The Winning Formula [Coming Next]

Talks delievered by:
Shaykh Aslam AbuIsmaeel
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Produced by Sunnah Inspirations
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For: www.IslamWorldTV.com - Pure Devotion, True Satisfaction [Online Islamic TV]

In assoication with:
HikmahWay Institute
www.HikmahWay.com
www.facebook.com/HikmahWay

The Convention organised in association with:
Australian Muslim Youth Network (AMYN)
www.AMYNweb.com
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I think someone tried to hack blogger.

2011-05-14T06:51:00.003+10:00

Anyways, I initially wanted to add more stuff to my previous post, yet because of blogger's disruption for the whole day yesterday and the day before that, I can't access my dashboard to add/edit them. And by now, I've already put the issue behind and so I've forgotten what I wanted to ramble about. Maybe it's because you're not meant to know exactly everything that is in my head then, what a pity. hahaha.

I have an online quiz due tomorrow night and I'm still on my way revising the textbook because the questions are made by the textbook publisher, so I HAVE to study the textbook. I hope I can get this done by tomorrow morning or if possible, tonight even.

Final starts 11 June, and I'm just relieved that I have no papers on my birthday. :) But still, my time is running out, and all I feel like doing now is scream like Changmin in this video (not like the other two idiots ok). I think I know how to use my head voice, but it's not as powerful as Changmin's yet. :p

This is what I call SCREAMING WITH STYLE :D

LolliPOP!

2011-05-12T16:53:00.000+10:00

Just because I've decided to go with the flow, I will harass them too in this post. Who am I talking about? Who else if it's not those wannabes and shameless plagiarisers? So dearest readers, today's main topic is going to be about keeping your dignity on top, and not down under. -_- As for me however, I'm allowed keep my dignity Down Under because I will have to keep myself in Australia anyways for the next two years. (Australia is also known as The Down Under or The Outback for you thickheads.)

In my humblest opinion, a normal and rational mediocre would always feel slightly (or in serious cases, VERY) embarrassed when being asked to show off the talent that they have (and that is if they have them). They feel shy because they aren't confident enough that they can keep up to the receivers' expectations. That is why our people has learned to develop this thing called 'confidence' to support their inner strength so that they will be able to bring more of their talented insides to awe the audiences. However, some of these people couldn't quite control the amount of confidence they emit from themselves, and that is when they call it OVER-CONFIDENCE, which is a very very severe setback for people with enormous ambitions.

However, it isn't simply a question of confidence by itself. It is also, my friends, an issue of knowing who you really are and where you come from. All of us has different backgrounds, no one can deny that. We do have similarities that we can share, but the difference is what makes us special in our own special way. We should embrace this specialness and turn it into something even more special. But sadly, there are still so many idiots out there who would rather become a photostat machine and work hard to be someone else, someone they're not, and someone they OBVIOUSLY cannot copy at heart. Aren't they just wasting their time?

It is not simply an issue of lack of market research. It isn't simply an issue of lack of sponsorship and support. It is... the question of identity and DIGNITY, and a question of respect and morality.

What do you know about them so much that you think you can be like them? You don't even have the facts right and yet you're declaring yourselves as one of them?

Alright, let's be straightforward from here on. Here are some THINGS that you should know about KPop before you decide to become one of them.

1. Koreans love it when they look cute and younger than their age. The cuter and the younger their image is, the prouder they'll be to face the rest of the Korean community. This is totally the opposite for the Western countries, because people in the Western countries prefer to look older than their actual age. That is why we can see that Western music are more mature and more defined, and they talk lots about sex, fame, superiority and attraction in a very serious tone, and they also include all other serious issues around them in their music. But for Korean music, most of them consists of cute stuff, adorable outfits and expressions, and light music contents. And for Kpop idols to market themselves, they have to react to the preferences of majority of the audiences, who obviously likes cute things. They have to look like the cutest little Barbie dolls who can dance in prefect synch to the music, and can look cute/pretty in whatever they do (that is why the term Ulzzang exists!). That is why they like to puff up their cheeks, make cute puppy gestures and the likes to appear loveable to the audiences.

2. The Kpop entertainment industry is VERY complicated. That is why they're able to produce great kpop groups like Wonder Girls and Super Junior (I purposely set these two examples because these two are obviously who they are copying). It isn't simply by auditioning potential members that they get to form the groups. There are also the questions of YEARS of training, physical alteration (if needed), long-term contracts, and also a LOT of hardships for them to be as successful and as likeable as they are now.

Can't you see? They are trying to be the best of themselves (in being Koreans) but why can't we? When are we going to stop adapting external influences into our systems instead of creating our own? I can understand that ours is a developing country, and so we should learn from others on how to improve and do better. But how possibly lower could you go to take in things like these like a sponge? Did you know that the water that you squeeze from a sponge is dirtier than its original state? And you're still squeezing it in the hope that you could still make some money from your so-called hard work?

And what's with your recording studio? It looks like a maid's room hanged with comforters on all the four walls. -_-

Even if you don't realise it, let me tell you. All of you are already flushed down the drain with the dirty waters sucked up your nostrils. May God have mercy on you for those other things that I purposely left out. I'm out...

Spreets is giving away an iPad 2!

2011-05-11T16:01:00.001+10:00

Haha~ Did you know that the half-priced parasailing voucher that I got was from Spreets? :)

Yeah, everyday they provide different great deals for Spreet website followers of things that is usually very expensive for people who don't make a lot of income like me. :p As mentioned, I got the parasailing voucher for half the price of what should've been A$75, that is equals to RM240 according to the latest currency exchange. LOL.

So now, just for fun, I've submitted my details for the lucky draw to win this thang~ xD You should too if you're from Australia. Because if you win, you'll get the iPad and I will get one too! :D Cheers!

stretch

2011-05-08T12:40:00.002+10:00

If you remembered, I was supposed to post something 'gay' here, because it was so gay. -_- But now that I gave it a lot of thought, maybe I shouldn't. Because I know they didn't mean to make it look so gay, but it did. haha. I should stop using the word gay now, because I feel weird even when writing it down. :S

Anyways, I'm done with all my midsem papers now! Fuhhhh.. That was two tough weeks that I had to go through. Besides sleeping, praying and washing up, all I did was read the Principles of Taxation Law and Australian Taxation Law Cases textbooks. Even while eating! And I had to be honest, I didn't make it to the last supposed page when I went for the exam :S I think I missed about 3 headings, that is equal to 30 lecture slides. sigh. I depended solely on the lectopia to answer the questions that came up relating to those headings. I still did okay though, but you know, reading a book that has the thorough explanation about it and just listening to the lecturer giving 'briefings' on the materials, are very different. That is why I don't prefer the way my finance course is being taught now, because they don't provide us with any prescribed readings. We were to depend solely on the lecture slides and the lectopia. -_- Which to me, is pretty vague...

And not just that, I didn't even get to study my microeconomics properly. Gosh, there were just too much readings to do! And as a human, I can't possibly read and read everything non-stop. I had to take short breaks, but sometimes even my naps were useless because my head had become too heavy that it even forgot how resting should feel like. -_-

You know what, I'm just glad that it's over for now, and that I didn't do too bad on the papers. I'm still anxious for the results though, but I can't change anything now. :) We'll see how it goes, and let's just do better for the finals!

It's been a while since I posted my song addictions, right~ Hmmm, which group should it be for today? How about some dongsaengs of mine ;p SHINee!!! Aren't they just too cute in here? ^^ I simply love the way this video and song convey the feelings of a guy who is falling in love. Or maybe it could simply be a crush, but it's too cute! :D

Oh, and just as a bonus, here's another group that I think has climbed my rankings up to the top 5 :D Please welcome dearest Infinite!! If you still remembered, I posted their video 'Before The Dawn' before, and now, thanks to Jaejoong, I'd like to introduce to you (for those who missed it) a simple Spring-y feeling song of theirs: Nothing's Over~ Enjoy!

너를 위해

2011-05-02T20:28:00.002+10:00

ORIGINAL VERSION

SE7EN'S VERSION

JAEJOONG'S VERSION

Which one do you like best? Should we vote?

Of course I'd go for Jaejoong's Version! :D

The Break Has Come To An End

2011-04-30T16:56:00.002+10:00

Hello~ :) First of all, thanks to those who visited my blog (specifically my last entry). And to Hara-chan, I didn't expect you'd post the link on fb LOL~ Anyways, I'm pretty sure that most of you agreed with what I wrote, but some might not. Just remember that it was written solely based on my own personal thoughts.

This entire week has been my university's Easter Break, which is going to end this Monday. I went to many places since last Tuesday. That is why I was unable to update this blog, and I'm also a bit behind with the kpop news (although it has only been a few days). Not that the gaps are significant, but you know, when I'm used to it, it's hard when things changes. But I had a LOT of fun on my trips!

On Tuesday, I went parasailing with some of my close friends in Brisbane, namely my housemate, ex-housemates and a few of my arabic friends. It was my first time so it was entirely exciting. We managed to get a half-priced voucher for this, that was why we managed to secure this experience. :D We had to travel via public transport to Mariners Cove very early in the morning. I think it was 5.30am, and we had a little bit of a drama haha~ We needed to catch the first train of the day if we were to arrive by 8.30am, since the train journey itself will take an hour, excluding the bus trip towards SeaWorld. Buuut, we missed the first train from Toowong, so we had to take another cab to take us to South Brisbane Railway Station to catch the Gold Coast train. And thank God this time we made it! But barely... xD Mariners Cove was very pretty. There were lots of boats. Since we will parasail from a boat, we got into one at exactly 8.30am. It took us towards the ocean. The day was nice, and the experience was awesome. If you'd wish to fly, you should also try this water sport hehe. And in this picture, is us :D

I have to warn though, that it might not be suitable for those who has motion-sickness, because it WILL make you dizzy. But again, it was good fun ^_^ A few of my friends went for the 'water touch', which means that they'd try to lower you down until your feet could touch the sea water (which is super cold!). The first two people to go wanted a water touch, but it took a while for them to be able to touch water because the wind was a bit strong and they didn't weight enough to be brought down. But they still managed to in the end =) The guys had to switch to a smaller parachute for the remaining pairs. We aren't allowed to go solo because we were too light. :p

Then we went to Harbour Town to shop! The Easter sales were still on and we managed to get many goods on bargain. I was so happy that the perfume I wanted was on sale. 100ml of an Elizabeth Arden perfume for only A$19!! :D I bought new clothes from Esprit and got a further 30% discount from the already discounted price. I only paid about A$40 of what could've been A$100!!

The next day, I went to Movie World with my housemate. Well, I don't have to tell much about this place, because I'm pretty sure many of you already know that this is one of the fun theme parks at Gold Coast. Since the last time I went here, I think they've added 5 new rides, and demolished a few that WAS there, but is there no more. The shows that were on were also different. And I think, somehow, the Movie World has gotten smaller from last time. o.O Maybe it's because of the new roller-coasters. :)

And two days ago, I went on a two-day road trip to Sunshine Coast, stopping at a few interesting places along the way. This is when I realised that there are many places worth visiting in Sunshine Coast, when many other people had been telling me that Sunshine Coast is boring... We went to the Strawberry Farm (although they aren't in season yet) and bought strawberries (they're so goooood!!!!!!! I swear!). We also went to the Bellingham Maze (similar like the one Harry Potter went through on his last task in Goblet of Fire :p). This is where I learned that there are plenty more types of puzzles in this world, and I was tempted to buy some of them to show to my family, but they're so expensive! :[ So I only gave it a try at the shop itself. And failed quite miserably, haha~

Other than that, we also stopped at Castle Bli Bli (cute name huh?) which is like an English castle, but smaller. We had to solve a puzzle and I received a free lolly for getting the right answer~ :D Inside the castle was a bit spooky, because they stored too many dolls. (yikes). But it was fun to get spooked together with friends. ^^ Another of our stops is the Maleny Dairy Farm. Here, we learned how they produced milk, and for the first time in my life, I tasted milk straight from the cow's tits! LOL! Ok, not that I sucked on the tits... -_- I put my palm forward and the person giving the tour sprayed some onto my palm and I licked it from there. And surprisingly, it tasted GOOD! :D

The fifth place that we went to is the Noosa Heads National Park. The Noosa National Park is very big along the Sunshine Coast, so make sure that you know which area of it that you want to go, or you'll most probably get lost. LOL! We went to the area near Laguna Bay, bush walked to Boiling Pot and Dolphine Point, talked and laughed along the way. There were many surfers walking up and down the bush-walk. Some of them were very friendly and talked to us. :) The place was refreshing, and definitely a sight you'd rarely see elsewhere. The rain came and gone throughout our trip, but I think that is what made the trip more fun that it would sound. ^^

There were five cars which went in total, and we made two convoys. My convoy group often got lost even with a GPS. It's true that the GPS will force you to go across a lake if that is what is on its route. SO, never trust a GPS, unless you have a paper version of the map with you as a reference. Because for me, whenever the GPS commands to turn into a regular road, I would ALWAYS rebel and search for a Motorway (main roads), better off a Highway whenever possible. The car that I was in was supposed to be the last of the three cars in our convoy (like a sweeper in hiking expeditions), but in the end, we ended up leading the convoy because my housemate and I (we were in the same car :D) had experiences as navigators. So we guided the way, and we never got lost again after that. *CLAPS*

And so, that is what I did during my break. Now I will need to re-focus on my coming exams! Income Tax Law and Microeconomics, which happens to be held on the very same day, one after another. *sigh* So... that is it! See you on my next entry! :)

Another TVXQ Wannabe?

2011-04-24T08:50:00.002+10:00

Haha... If I were to become a singer, I'd aim for my group to be much much better than TVXQ! :P But this new group here only aims to be like TVXQ. As what they say, if we aim for the stars, in most unfortunate cases we'd still be able to land on the moon. But if we only aimed for the moon, then your next stop would be back to where you started, the solid soil of the Earth.

My first impression of X-5 was... 'urghhh not another one -_-' LOL!

I believe than I'm very very picky in my choices of preferences. And it took TVXQ quite a very long while to secure themselves a place in my heart. Almost half a year? Imagine it took me months to finally say 'Fine, they're really good...' :) As my standards has become higher, I've come to expect a much better debut for newcomers for them to declare themselves going towards the path same as TVXQ. And this group X-5, I would say that it's gonna be a long long long way with lots of detours before the path that they're looking for will probably show up. And that's if they got lucky.

First of all, there's too much techno add-up to their voices. If they really want to show what they're really made of on their HOT debut stage, they should've sang with their own voices the whole way. I should admit that they have the vocal talent, even though some of them didn't possess favourable ones. :p But once I heard the techno-ish sound to it, it completely blew my expectation in a bad way. BYE BYE X-5! What's the use of good looks, great vocals, when you started with the wrong attitudes. Over-confidence, I might say, as I watched this HOT debut stage. I don't see humbleness, I don't see passion, I don't see hard work... -_- Their dance is all over the place, and they still dared to compare themselves to TVXQ. Nice try hoobaes~ Lucky you TVXQ is such generous and kind-hearted people, they won't criticise you on that openly. I'm a bad and picky person, so I will... xD

But I think I should give you some tiny credit for making catchy songs that's entertaining. It might not make it to the 'Top 25 Most Played' on my iPodTouch, like ever ever and ever, but yeah, it's catchy. I like catchy :P

BAAAAAAAAAKA~!!!! >[

2011-04-23T06:41:00.000+10:00

I hate this. I really really do! OMG!! I'm so angry that my tears are coming out!! How could they ask them to do this? This shouldn't be accepted. This is just too cruel! arghhhhh... Look, even Changmin's face looks pissed!

This, my friends, is the so-called 600th stage of MuBank and to honour it in a way, they're inviting TVXQ to perform Rising Sun, which is one of the song that raised their name a few years ago. dammit. When I heard the news, I was partly hoping that Homin would decline. Who knows. But I guess SM really have the power over them. :(

All the other members' part are screwed. The song isn't the same anymore. It used to be one of my most favourite, but this one, it didn't even make it to the list. God, it didn't even make it to any of my lists! I don't know where to put it! I've put so many hopes and feelings into this song as a fan, and now, I think they're gone for a vacation too. -_- What I'm trying to say is, there's no one like dbsk except for dbsk themselves. FIVE of them. 2 stars doesn't make a Cassiopeia. It just doesn't shine as bright anymore! Arghhh those stupid people! New fans should notice this, what they've missed for not supporting either of them, because the five of them put together is just DABOMB I tell you!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is the stupidest thing, the most unacceptable thing so far that they've decided to do. The dance isn't as stunning. Can I call it lame? Why would you even try? God... It will never work like this! Creating new songs for tvxq and let Homin sing them is fine. But to let songs like this being sang by only two when the original is five is just... I dare them to let Homin sing Hug. I DARE YOU!!! It's going to be a disaster. muahahaha~ Because people will continue to support Homin, but SM is definitely going down!! But please, just don't do a five persons' dance with just the two, and hope that the back up dancers would be able to fill in the empty spaces. Because we've seen how great it could be otherwise.

Or other than that, just stop trying, SM. It's not ever going to work!

What Goes In The Mind...

2011-04-21T19:01:00.007+10:00

yeahh... maybe it's because I don't want to in the first place, that is why I'm behaving like this. I do believe that there is some sort of reasons that I'm meant to get that scholarship and go to Australia instead of the UK. Now that I've spent almost a year thinking about it, this is actually the best for me, I have to agree.

Now I can see with my own eyes how other Msian students behave once they are abroad. I'm watching my juniors now, and often compare the difference of what each of us have gone through. I can clearly see the evidence, that it is true that they come here just to get their names listed as 'Overseas Students'. Get what I mean? Maybe not. When we were still in preparation, we often watch our seniors who are already abroad, going to places and shopping imported goods at low prices in a foreign country. They were wearing layers and layers of clothes with snow in their hands, and we would think, 'That is so cool! That should be me! She's so lucky! I'm going to show them that I can do that too!'. Just because we yearn to play with snow, and we can't possibly wear layers of clothes in Msia so it's simply a solid proof that we're overseas (and it is exactly the largest bragging item that we could show off to everyone in the whole wide world).

So I watched my juniors doing each and every of those how-to-show-off-to-people-back-home steps. First, come back home late at night. We can't really do this in Msia because it's plain dangerous especially if we're alone. But this is a more civilised foreign country, people here are more conscious about manners and humanity, so no one would hurt you like they would in Msia. Besides, it's already dark at 5pm, which doesn't look that much different from 12am. Second, buy new clothes! Damn, the fashion here is so different and I should be part of it. "Barula nampak cam oversea sikit!" -_- And they would go all the way to Harbour Town after a few weeks being in this foreign land just to do the shop-for-the-low-priced-imported-goods-in-a-foreign-land kind of thing. WTH. Third, make weekly get-togethers!!!!! WOOHOOOOO!!! Caucasians do it every Friday even for no reason at all. We should do it too!! So they meet up at the city or Southbank to dine or watch a movie, or sleepover and gossip all night just for the sake of it. Every week! Fourth, work! And earn solid AUD!! No matter what it takes, we should think of something! Maybe we should set up a business! Then we can tell people that we're earning in AUD! Fifth, mingle with Aussies, because we're in Australia! Not everyone can get Caucasian friends like this. What a perfect asset to show off!! -_- OMG.

After they're done with all those steps, and more, they'll write about them on facebook so that everyone can see, become curious and ask. L.A.M.E!!

Do they realise the purpose of them being here? To show off? Come on people, this chance is a curse! -_- Fine, that might be a bit harsh. But really, this is a lifetime's commitment to the country. What is the use of being in a foreign land but not to catch up to their life's standards? We should learn what these people think should be a priority. How are they different from Msians. What can we learn from these smarty-pants-Caucasians that could bring up our own nation? -_- No wonder Msia is still the same ol' Msia, if not worse. sigh. These kinds of people are selfish! They only take what they can, and when they come back, they would only bring the foreign goods, foreign clothes and foreign pictures to SHOW OFF. What is the good in that? Where are those foreign findings, the special values that we should share with the rest of our country? To adapt the better in this foreign culture to make our own people live better?

Yes, we should take this opportunity to go to places while our visas are still valid, but when I think about it, till how far? Are we going to each corner of the Outback just so that we can tell people later that we've been EVERYWHERE? If I'm having that mindset, yes, I would search for every corner and every hole and see them with my own eyes, because my aim is high. That is why I'm not fussy of wanting to go to places. I just don't care, because I know I'll only be disappointed in the end because I can't go EVERYWHERE. It's just not practical. And partly, I'm just not a traveller. I want to see the world, but I'm not that enthusiastic to see everything. Unless, if I'm going with people who are dearest to me, because they're what I care most for. I like to have the joy of being with the people I love. I value quality time with family and friends most. I don't care about seeing the world. That could come later in my to-do-list.

Flying alone, and living with private students who didn't just come here to have fun or go with the popular flow, I think it made me this way. It gives me a chance to see things in a different perspective, and to not be clouded by typical mindsets.

p/s: I do tend to post parts of my feelings on facebook in case someone might get curious of me, but not parts of what I'm doing!
p.p/s: and yes, I still can't get this out of my mind. Because it keeps on popping in front of me just as I was about to enjoy my peaceful and quiet student life here. -_- It's EXTREMELY annoying!!

In Heaven

2011-04-20T18:12:00.003+10:00

Remember the song 'In Heaven' that I posted a few entries back? Well, I've been trying to understand the meaning behind the song and the lyrics. I just think that the song is so special and it contains some hidden feelings that could only be thoroughly comprehended by the native speakers of the song's language. sigh. I really really wish that I can understand Korean, aside from the words 'Gajima', 'Kohdjimal' and 'Saranghae' LOL~ And not only the meaning of it word by word, but the honourifics and expression-wise of the language.

I had some hypotheses about the meaning of the song, to who it might be directed to generally. Could it be that the man is singing for a loved one that is already dead? That is, he can't quite accept what has happened? Or could it be that the girl is half-dead? LOL. Because the title stated In Heaven, though there were not a single part in that song initiates a heavenly feeling or beyond happiness. And the composition is bittersweet in a way. The song goes on slow and simple, with steady beats. And the bridge isn't like any other that I've heard so far. The impression that I got when I listened to this song is 'a true love that has to be suppressed'. I don't know about the rest of you, since I'm not a master in korean language anyway. I might be delusional. :p

That is all that I want to share today. I wanted to add about something else too, but I think I'll save it for its own entry. It is... the gayest thing I've ever watched in my whole life. -_-;

Anyways, chow! ^_^

HI!

2011-04-19T17:44:00.002+10:00

Hey peeps. I've been gone for too long again. Exams were holding me back. I'm done with 2 of those papers now though, and I've already got the results. :D They were pretty good! Despite that I expected higher marks for my costing, I got higher than expected for Finance instead! I'm really thankful, because this finance course in particular has been biting on my neck for weeks. It's an interesting course, I have to admit that, but I think it's just too much about banking and lending decision that I have to know about in such a short time. It felt like my head were to explode. -_- And not only that, there were too many formulas related to this course, yet the lecturer only provided exactly four out of tens for the whole exam paper. What the hell was that? Damn, it was torture when you know the formula, you remembered what page it was on, which line of the paragraph was involved, yet you just can't make out the details, everything was a blur. But I'm still thankful for the marks that I got. Although its not at the top of the class, at least I proved to myself that I'm capable of taking over this course! :)

Aside from that, last weekend was the worst weekend that I had so far this year. :( Everyone around me seemed to know how to tick on my anger suddenly. I was so mad and so disappointed at my housemates, and at my juniors, for being so childish and annoying. -_- Or maybe I was behaving childishly, I don't know. Am I expecting too much from the people around me, or did I give too much in return? All I wanted is for people to treat me like I treat them, with respect and consideration. That's all. But what do I get in return? Ignorance. And not a single person managed to see that I was angry for the whole two days, 48 hours! Until I confronted one of them, though not verbally. I didn't want to lose my composition when I talk to them, because I was too angry. Yes, I'm this type of person, so deal with it. So we chatted, when she was only a room away from me. I told her that I was angry, and she was surprised. She asked me why. And I honestly said that she was one of the reasons. She accepted my opinion about her, and she apologised. Then, the anger was still there, and I told her a few more reasons, in regards to my other housemate. She listened and agreed with my feelings, because she felt quite the same way too. So she volunteered to be the one to talk to that other person. I felt partially bad for being too straightforward, so I kind of regret my actions at first. But when I think about it again, my anger could've last for the whole week if I kept quiet. So it should be a good decision, even if it might not be the right one. :p Yes, I'm also that selfish kind of person. lol~

We're all good now, though. Well, I think so. I hope so.

Riiiiight, now I think I wrote too much. Let's conclude this entry with yet another song! hehe. I've grown to like her voice, and some of her songs~ ^^ I hope you would like them too. She's only 18 by the way. This one is her slow+sad song...

Busy Again...

2011-04-08T12:51:00.003+10:00

Now I have to set my mind on another midsem paper, which is a Finance course. sigh. This is a third-year subject, and I'm sort of still struggling for this one. It feels like there's so much to know, since the lecturer babbled non-stop for two hours during class (literally), yet sometimes it seemed too simple, though I still can't get a firm grip on this. It's just confusing -_- My friends agreed that the lecture was very dry, and many of them stopped coming to lectures, because they'll end up needing to listen to lectopia again anyway. They might as well save the two hours for something more beneficial rather than ending up spacing out for that whole period and wasting it just like that...

Lucky that this exam only consist of mcqs.. :)

To not let this post get as dry, here's another song addiction by me. :D Ignore the lead girl because she's not pretty. Just focus on Hong Ki and his handsome voice <3

That's it for today.. ;p

Water Break...

2011-04-04T22:23:00.004+10:00

Yeah, consider this as a water break, as if I'm hiking right now. lol~ I'm still in the middle of preparing for tomorrow's exam, while listening to youtube (damn to whoever created this site) -_- I just can't stop myself from wanting to post my thoughts about the videos that I'm replaying tonight. I have no idea how many times I've listened to the same few videos over and over again. I just can't stop! Well, at least it's keeping me awake :p

I've posted once before that this is one of my most favourite Jaejoong-composed song... <3 Awwhhh even after months and months of listening to it, I still can't get enough of it. And now, to see it being performed live once again, with Jaejoong wearing that O-M-G outfit, I'm once again, overly distracted. haha! I can't deny that it looked good on him, but he's too skinny... I wish he would eat more and gain some weight and be a cuddly chubby bear that I can squeeze in my arms (okay, that sounded weird)... -_-

Ahh anyways, this is another video that I'm currently obsessed with. Been jumping from tube to tube to find one with HQ audio and good visuals... And I'm still not satisfied, because the song is too good that I think all these videos aren't doing it justice.

Jaejoong was right. It does emit goosebumps. Damn it Jaejoong why was your voice able to reach a note so high... Changmin, don't ever let that hyung beat you!
Other than that, I'm absolutely in love with the composition, and also the bridge of the song... It's addicting! Here are the lyrics btw. It just shows how much more people out there also LOVE the song to have it translated this fast. The original copy isn't even released yet! :D

Wiping away the miracle of seeing you
i won’t be able to live on
even when i’ve escaped from every dream
the first time i saw your image
it felt like i was drowning in the raindrops of this world
from where am i watching you?
forever
even if there’s regret, there’s really no way of seeing you
memory of a shadow
moistness of a name
it’s there in that little memory

i can’t do it, really can’t do it
it’s like you’re by my side
not waiting, i’m not waiting anymore
i’ll try again to say something
i’ll try again to leave some memory
walking in the dreamscape
in my footsteps
afraid to close my eyes

don’t go, don’t leave
can’t you remain by my side
lies, all are lies
i can’t hear anything
love you, i love you
can’t you see that from one single line
love you, i love you
will you love me again

so fast, you have already clean forgotten
the tracks of finding you have also disappeared

this last path, adheres closely to my tears
again i inch a little closer (again it’s about the same)

….(i’ve also changed)
you’re not here by my side
i’m going to go now
i’m going to go
now i’m going to follow your path
follow an endless path
going everywhere to find you
i’m afraid that losing her will bring sadness

don’t go, don’t leave
can’t you remain by my side
lies, all are lies
i can’t hear anything
love you, i love you
can’t you see that from one single line
love you, i love you
will you love me again

don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me

don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me

don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me
I beg you, come back to me

don’t go, don’t leave
can’t you remain by my side
lies, all are lies
i can’t hear anything
love you, i love you
can’t you see that from one single line
love you, i love you

will you love me again

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p/s: It feels like winter over here. I've put on my sweater, and I closed all windows, yet I'm still shivering from the cold. It's only the beginning of April, and June is a LONG way to go.

I Feel Like Updating

2011-04-01T21:43:00.003+10:00

This is going to be short, although my fingers are getting itchy from wanting to write loads.. -_-;; As usual, things are getting more hectic as time goes by. Midsem exams are coming, and lucky me, I have 2 papers before Easter break and 2 papers after. sigh. Sounds like a good arrangement? Well, the two papers that is scheduled after the breaks happen to be on the same day, and back-to-back, with econs and LAWS. I'm telling you it's NOT PRETTY. omg. And to add to my misery, I've already had my easter break fully planned with trips to Gold Coast. Seems like I really have to work hard, before and after the trip. bleeehhhh..

Currently I'm struggling to finish my studies for Costing, one of my favourite courses. :) There's a quiz due Sunday and it's midsem exam is on this coming Tuesday. I've finished about 3/4 of everything, so it's looking pretty good. ^^

To my favourite people back home, sorry for not calling for quite a while. I'll try to find a time and hope it'll be soon. And to my sis in VR (Volgo, Russia), cheongmal bogoshiposo!! xoxo

p/s: I have no idea how it's spelt in hangul. I can romanize korean words, provided that I've seen the word before (and I can't figure it out solely by ear, since Koreans tend to slur when speaking). And I have no idea about Korean grammar (do they call it that?). So please excuse if the tenses aren't correct. :S

Before You Go

2011-03-15T23:49:00.002+10:00

I really shouldn't be posting this, but... I want to share this new song from tvxq, which I personally think it's an imitation of another song I heard from somewhere *sigh* It saddens me to think that SM no longer prioritise TVXQ in their plannings. So far, I was always left with contentment and pride after watching a new production relating to TVXQ. But right now, all I could think of is that SM is only tying to sell off another song, and no longer trying to make a breakthrough in something new for TVXQ. But I can't run away from saying that I love their voices.. Whenever and wherever, their powerful voices will be one of the things that I'm most proud of. Please don't let it go to waste...

Isn't Changmin just the hottest in that MV. *sighssssss* I love it when he did that back-flip at the beginning, it really showed off his longest legs. And I think, I might finally accept that hairdo on him... Still looks weird to let all of them down though. I preferred it to be styled like on KYHD's 1st press poster LOL! (which is hanging proudly on my wall right now). <3

AND!

Now this part is the update of my life. Guess what, amidst all the natural disasters that has been going on around the Pacific Ocean lately, it was reported that residents from the Northeast Qld felt a 4.0 magnitude earthquake this afternoon. I watched the news today and saw the graphic representation, and the point was really close to shore. o.O I didn't feel it though, because I live a bit farther down south, near the border to NSW. Gosh, to think that an earthquake could happen in Australia? Who could've imagine that? Things are really really getting scary...

My prayers to friends and fellow fans of TVXQ in Japan... We Stand By U... *takes out blue lightstick*

I'm Back at Brisbane!

2011-03-06T21:53:00.000+10:00

It's been more than a week now... Initially I wanted to post an entry a few days ago, but then I suddenly found something more fun to do and I pushed this task aside without meaning to.. haha.. Please pardon my selfishness.

Good things and bad things happened.. Even weird ones too.. Now I live with two new housemates, one being my junior from KY, and the other one is the junior of a friend. I have no idea why that friend of mine could push her away so gladly.. But whatever, my priority now is to get a third person who we could share the rent burden with. ;)

It was extremely busy the first few days after I arrived. The point of discovering the exact condition of this place was... a bit devastating. I can't bear to think about any of it anymore. I would just like to let things be, rather than discovering 'Oh shit! Where's my _____?!!!!' Because the only answer is that 'It's gone with the floods...' -__-; I'm tired of re-thinking those over and over, because it would only make me sad, because the stuff that I'm discovering to be gone are very very dear personal stuff... I'm never gonna bring my favourite stuff over here again...

But on the bright side, the unit is now looking good and new! They're not using the carpets anymore, and we now have a new and huge fridge, along with a new dishwasher (although we practically never used it).. I had hoped that they'll install a new electric oven, but nope.. sigh..

I now sleep in the biggest room in the unit. hehe.. I actually really really loved my old room, but I can't simply surrender all the luxuries of life and let all the new people get all the fun.. I've decided to enjoy the ensuite bedroom while it lasts.. Maybe next year I'd move to the room nextdoor, but I'll let time decide that.. :)

BTD

2011-02-22T00:21:00.001+10:00

My current song addiction (aside from 'She' and 'Why' from TVXQ):

Good beat, great tune, and an absolutely stunning choreography. I love this song for those. ^^ Congratulations Infinite for being able to secure a tiny little place at the corner of my heart. lol.. I believe that this rookie group has a very bright future in front of them. If it's not for the type of song they sing, I would've loved the group itself very much. But I'm not so much into their genre, though I can assure that they offer really good stuff. :) Similar goes to the other groups that I'm interested in, such as 2PM.. I love most of their songs, but I still can't love them as much as I love the whole of tvxq, maybe because I can't really relate to their genre. But I love those B-boy stuff they had to offer, and the great voices of Wooyoung, Junho and Nickhun (just to name a few).. And I do follow 2PM in some of their variety shows, oh they're too adorkable~ :D

I know this is a bit outdated because BTD was released like last month or something, but yeahhh, I was pretty busy. -__- This afternoon, I had just managed to send a huge 20kg box to my Brisbane address, that is after 2 days of trying to fit all my remaining stuff in there without leaving any empty spaces. Then, by the time I got home, I totally forgot about my gummy candies. T_T I was supposed to include that as well in that box... sigh.

Well, four more days before my departure. I hope I can recall any last minute issues so that I can settle it before I go back... :)

Of Bags and TVXQ ;)

2011-02-19T02:48:00.003+10:00

It has been a while again, hasn't it. Haha. Sorry.. I've been busy counting the days and stuff to bring back to Brisbane. I've been packing and un-packing my bag almost four times already. I'm currently in real trouble with the weights. If I could, I'd like to bring every food possible along with me so that I won't be missing my mum's cooking too much. haha.. It's just that all those packed food and instant stuff are too heavy for their sizes. My bag already weight tonnes yet there are still plenty of room in there. I can't just leave those spaces empty now could I? I've considered to only use one luggage bag and pack all 25kgs in there, but I fear that the bag won't be able to take it. The most I've put in it previously was only up to 18kgs. So yesterday I went to the airline's website and bought another 5kgs, and that was the maximum the airline could offer. lol! That is why I'm re-arranging my stuff again so that it could fit better in the bags and there won't be that much empty spaces left.

While I was re-packing, I watched some music videos on TV. This evening there was MuBank on kbsworld. I watched Why's remix performance, and to be honest, I don't really like it. Haha, I guess I said the same thing when I first listened to Why. But I did add that it has a tune that one could grow on to like. But the remix version, I don't think I'd ever turn to like it, but I might try to get used to it. sorry guys.. Other than that, I had to stop what I was doing to watch the awesome performance by Yunho and Changmin. :) I freaked out during the beginning of the performance because my laptop accidentally hit the mute button on the remote control when I was putting it down. Suddenly I forgot where the mute button was and it took me a minute to un-mute it. sigh. Later I'm gonna draw the remote control's map in my head. -_- wahahh..

Then, just now, I watched Kpop Hits and I am pleased at the chosen songs. Most of them were my favourite. :) It's just that they chose 'Somebody To Love' to represent Tohoshinki. I was hoping that they could choose a newer song, or at least a better MV. But I guess the people from Kpop Hits reads dbsknights and was informed that people are now beginning to buy Hug album again, so they thought it might be a good idea to introduce the firsts of Tohoshinki in Japan. -_- sigh.. I can't deny that I feel slightly embarrassed watching that old MV. I think it's because I know how much much better they are now. But I have to remind myself that every single step has its own beginning, and we won't be able to learn if we don't take the risks or experience the worst. I'm proud of their early days, but I'm even more proud of tvxq now, even through the midst of the lawsuit.

p/s: happy belated birthday to my twin Shim Changmin! <3

Back From Hols!~

2011-02-06T15:08:00.002+10:00

Finally... It's been a while since I updated this blog aye? :) Sorry for the absence, I've been spending these whole time traveling to places. I was excited before any of the trips started, but now I'm thoroughly exhausted. I first went to Penang with my family, stopped at Taiping for lunch on the way there. As usual, we're going to these places to eat all the good food. So basically, I've gained a few more kilos by the time I get back... =]

Then I went to a four-days-trip to Sabah with my besties. It was the first time I went to Sabah and this is the only Malaysia state that I've never been at. And to tell you the truth, I was impressed at how beautiful Sabah actually is! Of course I've heard other people mentioning about it before, but I've always thought that it would look like any other rural areas around Malaysia that are still rich with nature. But Sabah is much much more than that. We went to several places, but not all around Sabah because we had some difficulties trying to find someone who could bring us there. We were lucky enough that this one guy is willing to drive us to some of the good spots in Sabah, even when he has tonnes of assignments and he had to drive late at night because the traveling time took half a day in total, and we don't even know him that well. We owe him a lot.

This was our first destination, the Tip of Borneo. From here, we could see a thin line connecting the two seas (South China Sea and Sulu Sea) and the sea breeze is strong but soothing. I've always loved to look out at sea because it is of my favourite colour, sea's blue. :)

This is at the Botanic Garden in Kinabalu Park. The weather was chilly. Loved to watch the trees here, everything looked so fresh!

This was our third day in Sabah. We went snorkeling at Pulau Manukan and Pulau Sapi. It was also my first time, and it was awesome. :D The beach was beautiful, and the fishes were very friendly! There were several types of fishes that I've never seen before, especially one that has the colour of the rainbow. I mean it, seriously. The fish has all the colours on it, very cheerful ^_^

The fourth day was reserved for shopping. What? We're girls after all, haha! Then we had our flight back in the evening. It was overall a very good vacation trip that I wish to go on again, God's willing. :)

And yesterday, my niece got married and the reception was held in Johor. We spent quite a few hours there and on our way back, the traffic was very slooowwwwww~

So that's pretty much what I did these past few days. I'd like to stay home and rest now before my flight back to Brisbane. I still have a few more stuff to settle before that, but I'm gonna take it slowly. I need to catch up on my fandom, and ohhhhh how I miss my Changmin so much... I hope he's doing well with the promotions and going back and forth between S.Korea and Japan. :))))

p/s: I've received my KYHD album. Yay! But but... I don't see any photocards for me. Wasn't I supposed to receive one?? :(

I Need A Break

2011-01-26T18:36:00.002+10:00

I'm gonna stop myself from being delusional. Maybe I first became like this after I often visited a blog called be_delusional on livejournal lol. I'm just exhausted right now. I didn't even realise that I've been pushing myself until the thought struck me last night. Suddenly I feel like I have been doing nothing else in life but 'that', and I'm on my holidays for God's sake. This is supposed to be the time for me to recharge myself and enjoy the break. Though it seems no different than being in school and studying hard for an exam.

You know what I would like right now? It would be great if every single one of us can meet up and discuss about ALL those things face to face. I'm getting bored of going back and forth between multiple parties. If it's about two or three issue involving only a few parties, that's still fine by me. But I have a gazillion issues here that I need to sort with even more parties... I feel like my head is starting to split into just as many pieces.

I really need a break...

sigh

2011-01-26T01:19:00.007+10:00

I did it. I watched it. Changmin's new drama, Paradise Ranch. I watched it even without the subtitles, so I don't really understand what everyone was saying (though I can make a pretty good guess) haha! I was very distracted in many parts of the story *ehem* blame it on Changmin *ehem*. I have to agree, his acting isn't so bad for a beginner. I can understand it when he said that he will have no regrets, but he will certainly search for the points to improve, because throughout the episode, I can see - although not that clearly yet - that he is improving. I'm certainly looking forward to more episodes of this drama. But Changmin-sshi... I was really surprised that you acted out those 'scenes'... T^T Thumbs up for the first episode though :)

"... even if the both of us are from a different culture, eat differently and have different education background, we could meet and fall in love" -Shim Changmin

-what are you trying to say here? Different culture, different food, different background... I bet this sentence alone can stir many hopes from your fans. Or maybe I'm over-analysing? lol~

Other than the drama, there are plenty other important things that is happening around me. For instance, I have only another month left to enjoy Malaysia before I will have to part from my family for another nine months or more. I can't believe how fast time could fly. I'm just starting to grasp the flavours of Malaysia once again, and when I'm starting to enjoy it, I have to return to aussie to fulfill my responsibility as a student and as a scholar. It will be my second year, and the pressure will increase. I hope I will still have time to fan-girl, and write fanfics.

Lately, problems came and gone, and all of them are relating to the same thing: the QLD flood. I wonder when all of these will end...

p/s: happy birthday, Jaejoong!! ^__^

What Are Friends For?

2011-01-25T01:15:00.003+10:00

People usually uses this phrase when they've helped another friend in need: "This is what friends are for, right?" and they put up the sweetest smile on their lips as part of the package. Maybe some did say those words with sincerity, but I can't help from thinking that there are also some who says it just as a part of speech, like a trained courtesy. But no matter which one it is, this phrase must have meant something, right? To me, it means that friends should be there for each other whenever and wherever, they help one another at times in need and won't leave them at times of difficulties...

Maybe I still wasn't considered as a friend to her, I was ignored and haven't been given even the least attention that I would've received even from a stranger. My questions were left unanswered, and they simply continued on with their lives as if I didn't even ask. What pissed me more is that she sacrificed her time to give another friend a hand right under my nose, but not me, and it was for the exact same purpose. Just because I wasn't the one who had to attend the isv all the way in New Zealand, she thinks that I have all the time, power and knowledge to do everything by myself? She needs to know that not being in Australia itself is a big disadvantage at the moment. I don't know what's going on there, and I don't know what has been provided for the flood victims that is not easily accessible all the way from Malaysia.

Maybe she's simply ignorant. I mean, of course I can't expect everyone to be alert of every expect of their surroundings. Or maybe I'm being overly sensitive at the moment, but I do hope that I can get as much help as I can to recover my loss. I'm just saddened that she won't be there to support my needs, definitely she's not a friend at the times of need...

Tensed. lalala

2011-01-17T21:26:00.000+10:00

How does students get over studying pressure? How does normal citizens get over their life's pressure? How do they even know if they're actually under pressure? Yes, right now I know I'm pressured. It's like there's too many forces around me, making their ways to screw my life up. I wish I could have Harry Potter's Elder wand and just woosh everything away. -__-' You know what's even more annoying than having problems from all corners of your life? It's being unable to do anything whilst the issue is mocking you right on your face. It's having no power at all to make a difference. You don't have the money to fly there ASAP to help the flood victims, which includes yourself. You have no telepathy to enable you to be in contact with EVERYONE WHENEVER you need to, since they're all very busy people who don't even have time to answer your calls and messages. And guess what? You've just been kicked out from your house for the next two months! ok fine, it was for cleaning up purposes. BUT STILL! Where am I going to return to when I get back? sigh.

At times like this, (aside from praying endlessly to God that everything will settle down quickly) I can't help myself from diverting my attention to something else. This is what students tend to do as well when they're stressed, which is to do something that they would never do at times of sanity.

Nah, committing suicide is just stupid.

p/s: Congrats to TVXQ for their second winning for KYHD! I absolutely adore the performances :) But I have to say that I can still see them running out of focus at times. Changmin, saranghae! <3

Life Updates

2011-01-16T02:05:00.001+10:00

I received more news about the flood in Brisbane this morning. Since the water has receded, the residents have started to return to their homes. The clean-ups has begun and some pictures of it has been posted on facebook. Some of my friends took a few just to show to us the exact conditions of the houses after the flood has recede. No one actually took pics of my apartment yet, but there's this one guy who took some picture of my neighbour's apartment.

Yeah, that's our apartment and the area around it. Look how dirty and muddy everything is. T^T I bet the stuff that I had left on the floor is all dirty.

This is the stairs leading to my neighbour's house. My unit is at a different building and had a slightly different layout. We don't have these carpeted stairs. And again, see the muddy stain and the footprints the photographer left to get to my neighbour's unit. I have no idea how the landlord is going to fix this. It's either they pay thousands of dollars to clean them, or to replace them completely. They say everything smells euwwwwwy~

This is their living room. Can you see the stains on the wall? The water rose a feet from the floor. Thank God it didn't rise above that. They had predicted that the flood will peak more than the one on 1974 which is 5.45m, but it only peaked at 4.64m. Otherwise more of my stuff will get soaked. But no matter how much I'm relieved to know that it was only a feet high, my thoughts are still on my Complete Box-Set. :( i hope it's not badly damaged, since it's still plastic-wrapped (although it had been opened). And my favourite plushies too. The giraffe and the dolphin. sigh. I hope my fluffy Junsu is okay. LOL!

Enough about the flood for now. I went to my cousin's wedding today as an escort. It's been a while since I had gone to any weddings (since I'm overseas duhh), and now that I'm back, I went to one almost each week. Just two weeks ago I went to two weddings in one day, which doesn't happen very often. I went to one today, and there's two more waiting this month. haha! Lucky me, I get to eat free food every now and then. ^^

I did nothing much at home these past few days. Almost everything has been settled at it's now time for me to rest and enjoy my time in Malaysia. If I'm not watching TV with my dad, or having girl-chats with my mom, I'll be on my laptop almost 24/7. hehe. To me, the internet is both a good thing and a bad thing at the moment. It's good because it makes it easier for me to get updates about the flood in brisbane, but it's also bad (in a way) because I'll be getting about TVXQ's news first hand, faster and more often than I would have preferred, especially during this most crucial time (okay, there goes my rambles on TVXQ again).

Kill me now. -_- I just can't get this guy out of my mind. Now that he frequently appears on broadcasts again, I'll tend to end up watching him all day long. Guilty me. Just yesterday, I watched him perform on Music Bank. Finally I get the chance to watch him on TV, and not just on youtube. I dunno if I actually had a pretty high expectation, or I'm simply very observant, but I can see that the both of them isn't very focused on stage that day. I can see that Yunho is troubled by something, I assumed it to be that he is nervous about the outcome of the day (but you guys won, leader-sshi!! Congratulations!). But I think Changmin had a lot more on his mind, not just about the show and their possible first winning/loss after this comeback. He seemed on and off. At a moment he's fierce and confident, but at the another, he seemed lost. Is he worried about the recent interview which had involved the question about JYJ? Changmin, I'll always be here for you. :) And oh, I hope your right hand is alright. I saw the scratch/blood on it when you made the winning speech. Perhaps, it was from the glove? Take care <3

I gave up on making myself busy on issues regarding the lawsuit recently. I have my own beliefs, and I've heard enough opinions from other people. Everything is just going on in circles, and keeping this on is a waste of time. I prefer to stay put for now and wait. It's not that difficult. The faith is strong in my heart, and I'm going to take care of this by myself. I don't want to pressure others to do the same, it's their own rights. I'm not keeping myself quiet because I don't have anything to say, but considering how the community is taking opinions on this recently, its best that I keep out of it to reduce the amount of headache. No matter how convincing we can be, there will always be other people who will have their own opinions to be heard, stubborn ones at that. It's good enough to let you know, TVXQ, that I'll always be with you guys. I'm a Cassiopeia, that's what I do best. :)

Recently Jaejoong tweeted about some videos made by fans in tribute to him. How sweet. Everyone was surprised that Jaejoong actually watched youtube. But to me, all of them had been all over the net all these time. It's just that this time Jaejoong decides to get public about it. Who knows, Jaejoong had even read your blogs before. LOL! I wish I would get noticed as well, but I've kept my profile very low since I entered this virtual world. The chances are TOO minimum. hahah.

Lastly, this is a video someone forwarded the link to me. It's damn hilarious. No offense, but it's just the doings of those overly creative and perverted fans. Kids, please keep away from this. It's going to be dirty~ To you pervs, enjoy!

Devastated

2011-01-14T00:45:00.000+10:00

Yes, I am, very much indeed. :( Up to a point where my heart won't stop shaking and I can't think about anything else but that. I know I'm in no place to blame anyone or anything. I wish I could though, so that I can let out this frustration that won't seem to diminish at all. Every second, I would go around facebook to check my fellow Queenslanders' pages, and I'll visit aussie's yahoo site to check my email and their news about the flood, while in between, I'll just stare blankly at the wall in front of me. sigh. Here's ONE picture of a scene just in front of my apartment:

I could imagine how high the water has entered our unit, but I still hope it's otherwise. The only thing I still can't get over with is the fact that I left my limited edition Tohoshinki's Complete Box-Set (the one with the jigsaw puzzle) there and I left it on my wardrobe's floor! My other DVDs are replaceable, but that one is... OMG. I dun think there'll ever be a replacement. T^T Unless if there's hidden stock somewhere, or if anyone would be willing to sell theirs to me... double, triple sigh.

I'm going crazy just by worrying about this. If only there's ONE person that could update me with the exact situation that's happening at my area. But sadly, the picture above is the closest that I can find. No one seemed to be interested to take a snap of my apartment. TT_TT And what's with the conflict that's beginning to start again among TVXQ's fandom. Just with these two issues, I'm already feeling lost in my own drowsy world. I just hope that I won't lose myself. I have to keep strong. HWAITING!!

Things On My Mind

2011-01-12T18:02:00.002+10:00

QUEENSLAND FLOOD

I don't know how far this can go, or how badly my area would be affected, but this is the one thing that won't allow me to think straight right now. I watched Aussie news online and updated myself on this matter, and I can't see hope at the end of this line. Yes, I hope that my apartment won't be drowned like those many other properties across Queensland. I hope that my books and clothes that I left there won't get soaked (or at least not badly). I hope that my plushies will still be as fluffy when I get back. I hope that my Tohoshinki CDs over there will be safe and still playable, and I hope my Tohoshinki jigsaw puzzle won't get damaged. sigh. Why must this be the year for Queensland to experience this horrible incident since 1974?

I'm not sure if I'm purely glad that I'm no where near Brisbane right now, but when I thought about my limited edition collections that I purposely left there... T^T This is devastating already, and they're saying things are about to get worse. Please God, have mercy on us...

SHIM CHANGMIN (eheh, guilty as charged)

I just have one question in mind after I listened to this: How would Changmin know what's the feeling of a student who'd just came back from overseas? LOL! And he relates it to the feelings he had during TVXQ's comeback, its very curious indeed. Even as much as I tried to imagine myself in Changmin's position (since I'm a student who just came back from overseas myself), I just can't. haha. But their conversation is just so adorable as always. :) 'Now I'm just chillin', Feel like I'm healing'

PARADISE RANCH

This drama is airing soon. Will I be able to take it positively? LOL! But I'm totally looking forward to immersing myself with Changmin's good looks all around this drama. ;) Wanna join?

The Infamous Smirk

2011-01-09T02:48:00.003+10:00

You took my heart away~~

Darn it, he did it again. It's amazing, really. I've never actually paid attention to overnight changes, but this one is really obvious that I just had to congratulate them for being the strong-willed persons that they are. :)

Only yesterday that I commented about how Changmin looked out of character, and how Yunho was being a bit too emotional. I presumed that its due to the fact that it was their first comeback stage after so long. Too many emotions already built up even before that, and finally having the chance to finalise those emotions on this comeback stage, for sure the feelings are overwhelming. I still remembered, during the year 2008 during MKMF, how Changmin cried on stage after receiving the Daesang award... I didn't understand it very much back then, because I was only a fan starting from the end of 2007. I was happy beyond words, of course, for their winning. But Changmin's tears triggered my curiosity. So I began to learn more about them as much as I was learning Economics and Finance at school.

I was a Cassie back then, but after staying by their side for so long and witnessing them go through thick and thin, I feel like I'm even more than a Cassie by now. I've never understood why some of the fans decided to commit suicide when something bad happens to TVXQ (or their biasses) and they couldn't take it. I thought it was very stupid of them. But now I realised, caring for something so much can really do that to someone. It's draining me too. But I'm a strong person, and I know I have so much more ahead of me, so I have to stay strong, for myself and for the ones I love.

Seeing Changmin able to smirk like that on stage again really made my heart feel lighter. Even though I feel that it's an obvious act to hide their real emotions, at least we could see them smile again. :) A smile that means they'll continue to fight for a better future. Keep up the good work, members of TVXQ! I'll Stand by U forever! ;)

p/s: I wish I had enough money to buy JYJ's Music Essay. :(

Comeback Stage :)

2011-01-08T01:19:00.003+10:00

TVXQ performed at Music Bank today. They made one really awesome comeback stage if I may say. The vocals especially, were exact and absolutely breathtaking. I can’t ask for a better performance from HoMin. :)

This is the first time they’re appearing on stage and taking the name TVXQ with them after over 2 years. Writing this on paper won’t give out any significance, but after seeing the particular videos on youtube, my heart sank little by little (go figure why). I still remembered the moments when I was truly excited to see TVXQ singing Love In The Ice on Music Bank, and MIROTIC before that of course. I was excited to see my 5 favourite boys perform together on stage. I won’t let my eyes falter even for a second, and I wish to memorise every single expression on their faces as they sang the songs until the very end. I did the same while watching these comeback videos, my focus was totally on their voices and expressions. And I swear I saw a tear coming out of Changmin’s eyes just as he was finishing his rap and until the end. I can also see that he wasn’t into his ‘character’ very much throughout the performance. He kept on making this ‘look’ at the camera. He seemed distracted. And as he sang, I definitely caught his frustration and desperation as he let out one of those legendary Changmin screams.

Things didn’t turn out any better for Yunho either. I watched the video ‘How Can I' as well, and we can definitely see that he’s suppressing his tears. I’ve never once see Yunho looking at the camera (or even avoiding the camera lenses) that way, I mean EVER. But for that performance, there was something within his eyes that is particularly hard to interpret.

All I can say is that, this comeback stage contained thousands of emotions that only true Cassies might realise. We’re hurt, and so are they. Why can’t we just stay strong for them, lend them our shoulders when they need them, and just pray for the best? For now, let’s just support their exceptional talent and hard work. We owe them that much at least…

No matter if they’re HoMin or JYJ, they will always be that five boys who brought us laughter and tears, and bittersweet memories for us to cherish ever since they debuted in 2004. Nothing is going to change the fact that Junsu, Yoochun, Jaejoong, Changmin and Yunho will forever be the TVXQ in our hearts. AKTF!

p/s: embedding for those vids weren't allowed.

AKTF.

2011-01-07T02:50:00.002+10:00

This is ridiculous. I don't even know where to start. I've never really thought about things like these before. To me, as long as they're able to sing and move forward to achieve their dreams, that's good enough for me. Even though they may not be together for now, I'm willing to wait for the day that they'll finally reconcile. In the mean time, I'd just like to enjoy the music that they're able to produce with all their will and hearts.

I visited the 5th DBSK thread at soompi again these past few days. I don't want to blame my curiosity, since I'm getting bored of waiting for updates from my favoutite writers. At first, I was curious regarding the rumour that one of the TVXQ members is engaged (which I'm sure is just a rumour). I was planning on amusing myself on comments from fellow soompiers, because they tend to write very long replies and they really say what they mean. The replies that I read yesterday was pretty fun. Everyone is praising HoMin for their new song 'WHY (Keep Your Head Down)' which has climbed charts very quickly all over the world. I was glad that other Cassies are taking things positively (so far). Then I went to dbsknights just a few hours ago and saw the news about Junsu tweeting about something 'fishy'. Then all the heartache came flooding in again...

To be truthful, the first time I listened to TVXQ's new album, I was a bit sad. I wasn't disappointed, but sad. I just can't find the TVXQ that I loved so much in those songs. I loved Changmin's voice, I loved Yunho's dance, and I absolutely enjoyed the MV. But something was seriously missing. I just feel that the 3/5 of the JOY is absent... I wasn't fully satisfied. The same thing happened when I listened to JYJ's album 'The Beginning...'. But I didn't noticed such things yet back then. But now, it suddenly hit me. This emotion carried on and became worse when I read what Junsu had tweeted, and also when I saw Jaejoong's twitter account and realised his sudden passiveness.

I was trying to find something that could help me feel better. I wanted explanation, or rather I wanted to know what other people thought about this, or how they're taking all these in. So I ended up in soompi's 5th DBSK thread again. And to my shock, the positive vibe I just saw yesterday was completely gone. Only at this point I realised what is really happening out there as a result of these JYJ/HM issue. And it hurts... It really hurts.

Cassiopeia is the best fandom I've ever seen and been in my whole life. Even until the day my hair turns gray, I'd still call myself a Cassiopeia. This fandom changed me, made me into a better person, and to see it starting to fall apart like this is really heartbreaking. I don't want to point fingers, I don't intend to be too bold, but I really need to ask that we keep this bond intact. They asked us to ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH. Why can't we do just that? Things haven't even settled yet for them, and we're already accusing and taking sides? 5-1=0! Even if one of the member is absent, TVXQ will never be TVXQ! TVXQ exist with the 5 of them, no more and no less. Things are just a bit difficult at this point, and it will pass sooner or later. Until everything is settled, please please please... keep your ground. If you want to continue to support TVXQ, then please support all 5 of them just as equally. If they have the intentions to return back as five, I believe that it will happen sooner or later. The only thing we need to do is to eliminate all obstacles, and stay strong.

p/s: I'm absolutely in love with the song 'She' at the moment. ;)

Between Fire And Light

2011-01-04T02:28:00.000+10:00

I can't believe it. It's out! The full MV is out! I can finally see the whole version of what used to be my imagination. And it's great! It started with Yunho and his whipping rope, then Changmin's masculine trio dance. And as the music started, my heart started to beat faster. Finally, after over two years, TVXQ is releasing a new song!! :)

Many sites crashed upon this song's release. And I couldn't be more happy to know that. lol~ I mean, they totally deserve it. They've grown to be such great entertainers. I've told you before, I just couldn't imagine what'll happen to this song if it was sang by another group. There are absolutely no one else that could become anything like TVXQ except for TVXQ themselves. Four Thumbs Up!

If only the other three could sing this too. :( But on the bright side, without the other three, we could finally listen to another side of Changmin's powerful voice! I just can't get enough of it, and I wished that he would sing his own version of the song. ;) Imagine: Why (Keep Your Head Down) Changmin Version. LOL!!

Do you agree that Changmin looked a bit different in this MV? Is it because of the make up? But Yunho looked the same to me. Maybe he worked out too much. haha. But he still looked good of course. I like it most on Changmin's scene where he bends his back to meet his alter ego (Yunho) at around 2:40. And also his smirk towards the end of the MV. I thought that was HOT. :]

p/s: Changmin's hair looked... *sigh* <3

Keep Your Head Down Audio

2011-01-03T19:55:00.001+10:00

Here it comes, the full audio version of the song. hehe. All thanks to awesome dbsknights for the fast updates. ;)

Keep your head down U-Know time (Max)
You know what time it is?
This is return of the king

(Everything has ended) I didn’t even start yet
(We broke up) I haven’t even heard the reason yet
Everyone around me keeps asking me why I’m like this
Why are you like that, why are you like that? I’m already the bad guy

(If it’s a sin) If loving you was a sin
(If that was a shin) If being genuine is a sin
(I’ll keep it low, I’ll keep it low) I’ll hold it in and stand my ground

(Keep your head down)
You look pretty, but inside you’re so different, that’s what I’m afraid of
(Keep your head down)
I said I loved you but I’ll let you go

(Why?) Did you leave me so easily
(Why?) Did I look easy to you?
(Why?) My heart is ripping to shreds
(Why?) If every moment was a dream
(Why?) If only I had the time to set it right
(Why?) I prayed for your happiness

I was always satisfied with having you
I was happy to dream the same dream as you no matter what they said
I had to let you go, but I’m just walking my path anyway
Now I’m just chillin’, Feel like I’m healing

It’s too late, you said you can’t come back
You’ve always believed that I’d crumble without you
That’s a misunderstanding, why would I do that? why, why, I told you I wouldn’t

(Hey) I was really, really sad, because you were so immature
and I was afraid you’d meet someone bad (Why? baby)

(Keep your head down)
You’re really pretty, but that’s all there is to you, there’s nothing important inside of you
(Keep your head down)
A nail is driven into the heart that is holding in the pain of love

Ha~ Don’t play with people like that
In front of me, all you do is speak of lies
You’re such a two-faced person
(Why why why) Since when did our crystal-like feelings become so opaque?
Our love has ended, I’ve let you go, and now my heart is empty
But my future is gesturing towards me to get up and smile
I’m letting you go, live happily (why why why)
One day far from now, far from now, I want to just smile comfortable

(Why?) Why
(Why?) You let go of our love so easily
(Why?) Did you ever think that someone would get worried?
(Why?) I don’t think you know yet
(Why?) Exactly just what you let go of
(Why?) Just remain there and watch me grow

(Keep your head down)
Erased, disappeared, you’ve burned to death in my heart
(Keep your head down)
Erased, disappeared, you’ve died in my heart and you no longer exist

Source + Photos: Star News via Daum
Credits: Allkpop
Shared by: DBSKnights

Very catchy isn't it? Well, to be honest I didn't expect it to sound like this at all. Sure, the teasers were awesome and it left so many possibilities for me. But this isn't one of them. SM is really... something. However, I didn't fall for the whole track at my first listen, because I think it's too different. It's good though. I love the raps and the angst-ness that it holds. Who could imagine that Changmin could rap like that? lol! He's angrily rapping and it's definitely HOT! And I absolutely LOVE Changmin's bass vocal. It took my breath away and I wish I could replay just that one part all day long. LOL! But I find that the composition of the song is a bit all over the place. And I don't think the chorus matches with the rest of the song. But the difference is what is going to make it special. ;)

If you listen to the track carefully, you can definitely listen the similarities it has with TVXQ's previous song: Hey! Don't Bring Me Down. It's just that this one has more rap parts and it sounds angrier. haha. And also Changmin's high notes are even higher! XD This is the main reason why I kept on replaying the song: Changmin's awesome voice. hehe

A New Year Has Come

2011-01-01T01:48:00.000+10:00

I think tonight is just overwhelming. There's just so many news around and I just can't stop jumping from tab to tab! First, there's TVXQ's new 50 seconds teaser than had just been released!

I didn't plan to make an entry at all today, but these overwhelming stuff that are flooding in had forced me to record it here in my very blog. Just look at the new teaser! Tell me who didn't drool? I preferred the arrangement of the previous teasers, but the new teasers totally spoiled it all! I can totally see their concept now. And I'm totally looking forward to it. hehe

Then, as I'm writing this very entry, the KBS Drama Award 2010 is commencing. And JYJ is performing! I'd like to embed it here, but I think there's too much videos here already. Here's the youtube link instead, LOL! [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5SygKw8zc5o] Jaejoong dyed his hair back to black. Gosh, he should know that I like black on him the most. He does look good in any colour, but black is the best. ;)

To me, the performance had some tiny flaws. But I guess that was due to the fact that they haven't sang live in a while, and to make things perfect, they needed the practice. Junsu maintained his performance, but Yoochun didn't. Maybe he was too overwhelmed that he managed to get the Best Actor Award (congrats!). I couldn't be more happy for them, for the fact that Yoochun won as well as for the fact that they're finally able to appear on a Korean stage after so long. ^^

After that, I stumbled upon some yummy pictures! I'll give you one tiny little teaser:

Yup! Paradise Ranch is airing soon! I can't wait! Luckily it will air at the start of the year. At least I won't have to worry about juggling my finals with the desire to face Changmin all day long in that drama. *drools*

After I finished going through every single picture in that album I found on facebook, I was again reminded on why I had loved (and is still loving) Changmin so much. Who could resist that cute, masculine face? I know I can't. And to top it off, he is simply the perfect companion you could ask for as a lonely soul. My dear Changmin, you have desires of building your own family now, right? I'm right here! I can totally help you with that. (LOL!!)

And now, I shall get back to updating my fanfic. I can't let my readers wait too long. ;]

Teasers!

2010-12-30T19:58:00.002+10:00

Watch these! I bet your heart will start beating so fast that you will lose the ability to sense your surroundings. I myself, had left both my eyes in front of my laptop screen while my fingers kept on pressing play on the tube. I guess I was too excited that I didn't know what else to do. I just feel that these weren't enough, and I'm very greedy when it comes to Changmin. hehe

TEASER A

TEASER B

Any further comments from the readers? Now I really really can't wait for the full thing. Screw the company, screw the industry and screw the stupid dispute. Their talents are just so overwhelming, it kept me thinking that these are too good to be true. It's just so insane to think that there are really no one else who can pull it off the way TVXQ did. It is just awesome.

By the way, I've noticed that my entries lately consist of only TVXQ and TVXQ. Well, I tried to think of something to share, but TVXQ's comeback clouded my mind so much. haha. We'll see what I can come up with next time. :)

Here I Come :)

2010-12-29T01:28:00.004+10:00

So! Let's open up this entry with TVXQ's new song: ATHENA.

ROMANISATION
(this is done by me. It's my first time romanising a full song, please forgive any errors)

museobke nareul kamssaneun shirin yi hoesaeg gonggiyen
ajigdo nameun baramdeullo nan seunoseumman shineunda
amureohke heutteuryeonoheun kireul irheun jinan chueogdeul soge
majchwojiji yanhneun peojeulcheoreom nan ddo hemaeyo

chagabke hanajwo sesange majseoya hae
jeogikaji kamyeon kkeuddi boilkka kipyi bein sangcheoneun amulji anha
shinishiyeo ureol guonhasoseo majimag jeonjaenge

ojig geudaemanyi piryohae ojig dangshinman hal su isseo
geomke geullin jeo doshien nunmureui shiga piryohae
biso soge seogin ddamyoogua gumeul irheo nunyi meon geuneurege
dashi nalgereul pyeol su issge dangshinwi himeul keonnejuwo

chagabke hanajwo sesange majseoya hae
jeogikaji kamyeon kkeuddi boilkka kipyi bein sangcheoneun amulji anha
shinishiyeo ureol guonhasoseo majimag jeonjaenge

ddaeyangwi bichyi burgeojil ddae
geudaega geuddorog sumanghan kidoreul haeyoo
jinshilwi bichyi garyeojindaedo
meomchuji marayo pamyeolduin sesangeul ggaewuojuo

ddeukeobke ib majchwuo keojigua ssawuoya hae
eodiggaji gamyeon ggeuddyi boilkka kipyi bein sangcheoneun amulji anha
shinishiyeo ureol guonhasoseo majimag jeonjaenge

TRANSLATION
(done by dbsknights' staff)

In this cold grey air that engulfs me scarily,
I put on a bitter smile about the wishes that still remain
Inside the indifferent disheveled past memories that got lost
Like a puzzle which cannot be put together, I wander around again.

Hug me coldly. I must face the world.
If I go till that place, will I see the end? My wound which cuts deeply does not heal
Dear God, Please rescue us in this last war.

I only need you. Only you are able to do it.
In that city that is covered in black soot, poems of tears are needed.
The greed that is mixed with my snort and those people who became blind after losing their dreams
To let them be able to spread their wings again, please pass them your strength

Hug me coldly. I must face the world.
If I go till that place, will I see the end? My wound which cuts deeply does not heal
Dear God, Please rescue us in this last war.

When the sun’s glow turns red
You pray the prayer that you desire so much
Even if the light of truth is concealed
Do not stop. Wake the world which has gone into ruins.

Kiss me passionately. I must fight against the lies.
If I go till that place, will I see the end? My wound which cuts deeply does not heal
Dear God, Please rescue us in this last war.

Isn't the song just wonderful? Ahh just listening to Changmin's wonderful voice makes me happy again. However, I have to say that I can't recognise Yunho's voice unless he's singing his solo parts. LOL. Seems like he's defeated by Changmin's powerful vocal. tehee.. The full album is due to be out next year, and it's called 'Keep Your Head Down'. And since I can't resist TVXQ's songs, I'm gonna have it. It just doesn't feel the same if its not ripped from the original CD. ;)

So how do you feel seeing the 5th TVXQ album with only 2/5 of TVXQ on the cover? Seriously, I'm mad. The more I think about it, the more I think I might kill someone. How can a company be so stubborn and so stupid as to let things go on like this? I know SM is trying to create a replacement for TVXQ, trying to create an option of letting TVXQ go, which doesn't seem to work at all. And look at HoMin now. SM are making them look more gay than ever~ I just don't understand...

To be honest, I'm simply trying to understand how things work over there in Korea. And truly, I can see that they differ in culture by A LOT. It's too much that it's ridiculous! They want to be tall, they want a small face, they like double eye-lids, they want the fairest skin, they fuss over fashion, they must have lots of money, the more they look like a kid the better and etc etc. I found out about all this while watching Chitchat of the Beautiful Ladies on KBSWorld. And who knows how other things work over there in Korea that is making this dispute so hard to resolve.

And what breaks my heart even more is when I read the interviews given to JYJ and HoMin regarding the separation issue. The media just can't put their noses to themselves, can they? And to put it all up so publicly like that, I'd rather not know at all... While JYJ said that they never regretted the decision of pulling away and continued blabbing on how grateful they are for the chances and accomplishments they've received so far, HoMin completely pushed the issue away (perhaps due to the new album's launch) and bragged about how they felt even more like a family now and how Ho's voice blended very well with Min's and so on and so forth. The more I watch these dramas unfold, the more I feel loath of the lame techniques of their showbiz.

But for whatever happens, I can't deny that I still love to watch and listen to TVXQ's song. I don't know why. I don't feel the same attachment while listening to JYJ's The Beginning, but even as a duo, the new album 'Keep Your Head Down' is still addictive! Well, Athena is great and the TORN preview was awesome!

And you know what, I totally forgot that 26th December is TVXQ's Anniversary. LOL! See, it will never be the same without the five of them together. SM should see that. Just look at the photo below. It's just pathetic... :(

Yunho and Changmin are as handsome as always. :) But the picture just seemed empty. Even the lovely cake didn't look as delicious. Truthfully, I am keeping the faith. But I just can't see a pretty end to all these...

This isn't exactly an emotional entry, because the emotion that I was talking about yesterday died. This is just something that has been accumulating inside my mind for the past week. It's all jumbled up. But I hope you enjoyed the pictures. C=

Shortie

2010-12-28T03:26:00.001+10:00

I was planning on writing an emotional entry, but my eyes are feeling heavy and I don't think it will last until the last word I'd like to say. We'll see about tomorrow, if the emotion still stands, then I'll decide again whether to write something or not. Other than that, there's too much update in my life that it's not worth telling anymore. lol!

See you on my next entry then. :) I can feel its gonna be a very long one. hehe

Torn Preview

2010-12-16T01:10:00.000+10:00

I've thought so that this track would be one of the new songs which is to be released in their new album. Did you remember one of the songs HoMin sang during SMTown Live 2010? Well, this piece was actually introduced by Yunho. That was why it's even better! I've thought the preview during SMTown was pretty good, but to be able to listen to the full version is even better! Indeed, both of them haven't disappoint me yet. If only all five of them were to sing this, it'll triple the joy, I bet. But something is always better than nothing. I'll be looking forward to the fuller version of this, and also the rest of the album. I'm afraid I'll get back to my habit of buying TVXQ stuff soon. I just need to have this too!!

And oh Changmin is just soooooooo... *insert your own word of crazy-fan-girl-praise here*

Jaejoong!! Where are you!!!??

You And I

2010-12-13T17:48:00.001+10:00

It's been a while, hasn't it. Well, life has been pretty busy even though I'm actually on a long break from uni. This is what you get when you procrastinate, I'm telling you. There were so many things I pushed back before I went overseas earlier this year. So now I have to finish all those stuff before I have to return overseas again next year. *sigh*

This time I'd like to introduce you to another good singer that I grew fond of lately: Park Bom. She's a part of 2NE1, which is another awesome girl group (and might be the only girl group that I'll ever approve of). This is her solo piece called 'You And I'.

Isn't this song just lovely? It has both the elements of giddiness and sadness, which I like. It feels fresh, and I just love her voice. There aren't many people with that voice who can pull it of in a song like this. I wish she could make more solo pieces and produce her own solo album, just like TaeYang.

Speaking of albums, I just received the news that TVXQ's new album will be released on the 5th of January. Well, I just can't feel the excitement at all. It's not that I don't believe in them as much anymore, but it will never be the same without all five of them. I know Yunho and Changmin will be able to pull this off their own way, and they'll be able to make us proud. But Yunho and Changmin aren't TVXQ, JYJ isn't TVXQ. TVXQ only exists when the five of them are together. Otherwise, who would be able to sing Bolero or Love In The Ice as beautifully anymore? I bet even Shinee can't sing it as good as TVXQ did, even being the same five membered group that they are...

Just look at the photo teaser, SM is just being ridiculous!!

I understand that these people enjoy being the entrepreneur of culture and style. And in a few month's time, this new make-up style will be a hit and smoking hot-stuff! But if you think about it right now, it's just ridiculous. I thought JYJ's heavy eye-line for The Beginning was already too heavy. But this? This is like flipping our minds into believing that right is wrong and wrong is right! I'm being honest, and I don't really like this new style... But I will still love Changmin and Yunho for who they are, and I will still admire them for their hardwork, so I will keep on supporting them.

And would you like me to tell you about something else? Have you heard of SM The Ballad? Ok, first I have to be honest that I like the song 'Miss You'. And maybe a couple more songs from them. But I still have to say this. SM should stop trying to find a replacement for TVXQ, because there won't be any. Sure the four boys can take those high notes, but singing isn't just about getting to the notes. And what's with using Kyuhyun and Jonghyun? What are they expecting from fans and netizens? To forget about TVXQ and move on? Hell no! Until the day they'll be able to find another five boys that are as good as Yunho, Changmin, Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu put together, they will never be able to replace TVXQ in any of our hearts. Period.

And as a side note, 'Miss You' has a pretty good composition. But there wasn't any spark that could get me to listen to it for thousands and thousands of times when SM The Ballad sang it. I don't think I'll even remember it after 30 days. Unlike Love in The Ice and Doushite, just to name a few. I'm not bashing, dears. I'm just stating an opinion. A factual one at that. haha~

Thoughtful

2010-12-08T02:09:00.002+10:00

Once again, I'm torn between my two favourite guys from TVXQ.

After months and months, I revisited the place that I've been avoiding: DBSKnights. It's the hottest place for a Cassie to search for the latest news about TVXQ. Never before has DBSKnights let its fans down, new entries floods in too quickly that sometimes they left you breathless just trying to catch up. And I think I've fallen addicted once again.

Here is where I found out about the few new songs composed by the members of TVXQ that was performed during the last Worldwide Concert in Seoul. And again, Jaejoong has another new self-composed song called 'Nine'. The title itself doesn't feel like a song. But it meant a lot more to Jaejoong and the rest of the TVXQ members. It resembles the nine years of the five of them knowing each other. Jaejoong explained his inspiration of the song, and all I could think of was how thoughtful of him despite what is happening around them. He used the most basic chords to come up with the melody, and he said that it reminds him a lot of when Yoochun first started to teach him piano. He even wrote the lyrics, contemplating on which expression to use to reach the fans better. And since I've been waiting for more of his self-composed songs, this is just like a dream come true. I can't wait for the formal version to come out. It would be even better to listen to the HQ version where I could even listen to the sound of each of his breath. :)

They were saying that JYJ looked like they were about to cry. I think Yoochun looked that way the most, he is the most sentimental in the group anyways. Though, I can't feel that much. Perhaps it was because I can't understand much of what they were singing. From their expressions, I could see that they're reminiscing. Who wouldn't be touched by the song after witnessing what TVXQ has been through?

I'd salute Kim Jaejoong for all of his hard work. Although personally I think Still In Love was way better, but Nine was the best out of all the latest songs from them. It's one of those songs that grows on you the more you listen to it. :) And I don't mind doing so at all.

While going through the pages of DBSKnights, I came across lots of articles, and some of them being news of my twin, Shim Changmin. I can't help but feel accustomed to this self-made fact. Shim Changmin does feel like my twin. It's insane, right? But you know what's more insane? >> me having the idea that Jaejoong is much more to me than who I thought he was. I'm shy to say it out loud, and I know it's just fangirl talking... But what the hell~ heh

Itsudatte Kimi Ni

2010-12-05T19:29:00.004+10:00

I can't help from letting my eyes search for Jaejoong's in this video. *mianhae Changmin!* Eyes are one of my weaknesses when it comes to a male. sigh. And Jaejoong's eyes expressed too much in there. (I still can't get enough of them). They aren't the most beautiful ones since they're barely tiny slits, and they're too far from each other, but I love them. Can I borrow your eyes, Jae? Forever?

Random Thoughts

2010-12-04T01:47:00.002+10:00

I'm listening to Still In Love again while blog-walking. I just stumbled upon a video about hitler getting angry over the immoral behaviour by the Malaysian youth nowadays. Damn, that video is funny. I'd like to share with you guys here, but I accidentally closed the tab, so better luck next time. heh. After that video, I purposely visited the creator's site. It's kind of similar to Obif!end's blog in the sense of the owners writing entries about the community. Obi's blog is more offensive in my opinion compared to his though.

I just don't understand. Why are they making it a trend of making these kinds of blog entries? I know they can be useful to open the eyes of those stubborn trouble-makers. But I doubt the message would really deliver to the majority. The entries does open our minds to new perspectives, which I appreciate since everyone has different opinions, and the more bold they become the more people will listen, but human has their own limits of acceptance. Sure, some says they enjoy the entries, laughed at the comments and all, but did the contents really absorb into their heads? Could they really see what's underneath behind the intentional insults? Could they change to become a better person in this society after reading that entry?

A friend introduced me to Obi's blog, because she thinks I would love reading the entries. Yeah, right... I can see that Obi's approach is interesting and intriguing. But at the end of the first entry I read from there, all I could think of is that the writer is too much. I was just about to absorb everything in gladly during the middle of the entry, but I end up with a frown and dissatisfaction. I thought the entry was more offensive than helpful. Sure, some Malaysians need those bold sentences to make them See the global situation at hand, but those entry could do more damage to others than it could benefit those thick heads. He's building a new world, and destroying another at the same time. I could just see the latter developing much faster.

The comments from his blog made me think, is the Malaysians today really like this? At a point, I became scared of our community. Not because of the violence, but because of the corruption and failure in building a respectful society. And at a point, I am ashamed and sad. Do I really have no power to make things better?

But no matter where I stand, this is still my home. I still love it the way it is. Though I would be more proud if things were a little bit better...

Let's end this entry with another one of my favourite Tohoshinki performances. hehehe. (Just to forget about this stupid thing for a while)

I could embed this video all over the place. I just realised that at one point in this video, the proof of Jaejoong being a tone-deaf when he was younger showed. But still, I couldn't be more proud of him. He has achieved so many with his own hard work. I wish to become like him, or even better. I will slowly connquer my way to the top. Just wait... :)

Results Are Out!

2010-12-01T13:36:00.000+10:00

Today, as promised, my 2nd semester's results were out. It can be considered really good! I mean, minus the fact that I barely made it for accounting, my other three subjects were really good! I'm satisfied enough that I made it pass my sponsor's minimum requirement. fuhh.. Now all I have to do is do better on my next semesters! I must make myself get lots n lots of 7s! :D

I'm starting on my driving classes next week Monday. My brother's graduation is this Saturday. And I got plenty more to do at home. LOL! I can't believe I still can't come up with an update for my fanfic. *sigh* But I know, once I've started, it's going to be difficult to stop. hehe.

-putting a huge smile on my face-

Home Again! C=

2010-11-26T12:44:00.000+10:00

Finally, after around nine months of being away, I'm HOME! It's been a few days actually, but I just got the time to right about this now. hehe. It was tiring when I arrived home. I don't know why but I can't seem to get any decent sleep while on the flight. The weather was good, the moon was full and beautiful... But maybe it's the fact that I can't find a good sleeping position on that comfy chair. I end up waking and sleeping and waking a few times until it was time for breakfast to be served. It has only been 6 hours of flight time when they switched the lights back on, so we end up having breakfast at 4am Malaysian time. LOL.

I was with a senior most of the time, except that our seats on the plane were on different rows and columns. But after we arrived at KLIA, she had to proceed to the transfer counter for her transit to Penang. So I went to the Immigration by myself. It was a little scary to be walking around there alone, since it's my first time without any company. I noticed nothing else except for the signs showing the direction towards the Baggage Claim area. I was very nervous especially at the thought of picking a wrong bag or going to a wrong counter which might make me end up not going out of the Arrivals Gates, which will be super embarrassing! LOL!

But all went well, and I was out of there before I know it! :D And the first thing I searched for is my parents (duhh). If they weren't there, I might've thought I went through the wrong gates. -_-'

We went straight home, and only stopped at a Mamak Restaurant for breakfast which is located very near to the house. Gosh, I hadn't had Roti Bom and Teh Ais in a very long time! Thus, that was my second breakfast for the day, which is nearly four hours after my first breakfast. o.O When we arrived home, I started unpacking and showed my parents what I bought for everyone. My grandmother and aunt came along a few hours later and brought another set of breakfast (my third!) and I gave them what I bought for them. =) It was fun, and despite my lack of sleep, I managed to stay awake until the evening! Though, when my mom called for dinner, I heard nothing and noticed nothing. My mom ended up on my bedside and smacking my body with a pillow to wake me up. haha!

I got more rest for the passed days, and I shall start my driving lessons around next week. OMG, I'm very nervous every time I thought of 1st of December, which is when my results will be out. Please, God...

One More Day

2010-11-21T07:20:00.000+10:00

Tomorrow is finally the day when I'll be flying back home. I'm not sure how I'm feeling right now, because I kind of feel sad since both of my house mates had already left, but happy at the same time because I'll be reunited with my family soon. Add to add to these feelings, I'm currently listening to F4's Yan Huo De Jie after so long... wahahh! And it's raining out side, and it feels like beginning of winter all over again.

Anyways, I called and went on skype with my family the whole night yesterday. It's a bit weird since I'm only going back in a few days. But I ended up talking to mom and dad for almost 4 hours straight. It's a record so far, hehe. We talked about stuff that I should and will bring back home, and I showed my mom what I bought for my brother for his birthday, which is today. (HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABANG!!! Hehe should I call him now and disturb his beauty sleep? It's like 5am over there) I bought a few stuff for friends as well, and lot and LOTS of Australian Cadbury Chocolate, and a packet of Lamington... I think I spent over a hundred for these. -__- Or maybe I shouldn't have told you that. LOL! But to be truthful, there are more stuff I want to get for people back home, but I was always conscious of the amount of AUD in my account. Always. There were many cute plushies on sale that I wanted to buy for my sister, but despite the sale, the price is still high for that mere cute plushie.. And things like that. Even hand-bags here are lovely, but once I look at the price tag, I became pressured to choose ONLY the MOST GORGEOUS looking hand-bag that will fit my mom's preferences PERFECTLY. In the end, I bought none, because I value my money too much. *sigh*

I had a fairly difficult time at Harbour Town yesterday. Even my friend was complaining that I'm too picky on these stuff. Well, I really hope that what I buy will bring great value and happiness to my family back home, although I think some of the items I already bought won't be as valuable as others...

The Unspoken

2010-11-20T19:26:00.000+10:00

My blog's first name was The Advent Hope. Then I changed it to Awaking Whispers since I found out that the previous one is a name of a church somewhere, I can't feel the originality anymore. Now I figured that this blog is mostly used to put up my thoughts on things I can't verbally say (at least in a more comprehensive manner), I'm changing the blog's name to The Unspoken. And I mean it, literally.

I have a vision of filling up this blog with an even more critical perspective rather than only useless spazzing. I wish to fix my incoherence in delivering a point that is important but seems less important due to my poor delivery. I hope that the readers can understand me better this way, and see eye-to-eye on matters that are important to me.

There shall be more words and less pictures accompanying this blog from now on. This is also the reason why I wanted to omit the cheerfulness of the cupcakes. But rest assured, the cupcakes are still in safe-keeping, and I shall unleash them once again when the time is right. ;]

New Layout!

2010-11-19T23:20:00.000+10:00

Finally!! I was thinking of changing the layout on New Year or something, but this is close enough right? How do you find the new layout? Dark? XD

God, I'm so tired... Went ice-skating again yesterday, ate waffles at Max Brenner's and spent two hours on the City-cat just to venture to Apollo Road. Today we went to watch HP7 Part 1 and shop all around city. By the time we get home, I can't lift up my knees.

We had a great time, and we're planning on going to Harbour Town tomorrow. We'll see, and hope that my feet can last. haha!

Flat

2010-11-11T16:30:00.001+10:00

Just finished two of my final papers.

I wonder... Is it because I didn't study enough, or did I study too much?

I walked to the examination venue with calm feelings,
assured that I've had most things stored in my mind.

I flipped over the pages of the exam booklet,
feeling confident that I've studied all that is about to be questioned.

I took my pen, scribbled the first few letters, the first few words, the first few paragraphs...

However, during the middle of my trance, there was a point where I started to hesitate.

Maybe its a desperation of wanting a high score, and maybe its a mere exhaustion

Because up until that point, I wasn't as confident as I was 30 minutes ago.

And so I start to push myself even harder, but to no avail

At the end of the exam period, I can't even remember what I did

And so I pray to God that I didn't do too much wrongs... *sigh*

0.5 Can Make A Difference

2010-11-04T20:41:00.000+10:00

Another sheeeeaat coming your way, be warned! LOL!

I just submitted my last finance quiz. This time I did the whole quiz while concentrating ONLY on the quiz and nothing else, not even listening to any music. And guess what? I SCREWED BIG TIME! puahahaa~ I was aiming for a nine since one of the question is totally out of this world (I think I missed that part somewhere in the lecture, or was it the lecturer who forgot to mention it in class?) Well... Technically, I SHOULD get a nine, but ended up with a seven. If only I didn't make those stupid mistakes. -__-' Guess I learned my lesson yet again... bahh~ Maybe I should always do multiple jobs at once since I seem to do better while at them. hmmmm. Now I'm worried for my exam. Like.. anxiously worried. Even as careful as I prepared myself to be, who knows what will happen on the day itself?

*prays to God that everything will be OK*

Hey you! Pray for me too!!

:D Thanks! GOD BLESS Y'ALL~

p/s: The 0.5 stated above is the difference in my carry-mark if I have had a nine for the last quiz. LOL! Well, it COULD make the difference! A grade 7 is damn hard to get you know! for me, that is.. *sigh*

Oh Sh!t

2010-11-01T22:19:00.000+10:00

I really should beware of the words I use here. People could just google things and get easily stumbled upon this blog. *sigh*. I had purposely omit any use of real names so that no one can find this blog, except for those who I purposely forwarded the link to but its not working very well. This blog is meant for my online friends, and also for my family whenever I need to update them with anything I feel like. This blog is NOT meant for non-online friends! (but if you have somehow found this blog, don't just keep quiet and stalk me. It's annoying. Communicate!)

This is because I found out that someone had stumbled upon this blog using the search keyword 'finm2401quizd'. DAMN! Obviously it should be someone from UQ. *double sigh*

Neways, there's not much update on my life. Finals are coming, and my revisions are progressing quite slowly. *smacks head* But I'm constantly working on finishing as much as I could. And on the bright side, I finally obtained FULL MARKS for my economics quiz! OMG I can't believe I just did that. It felt like my head was gonna blow up with all those statistics and its complications. I had officially hated Survey Sampling for a while. -__-' But then again, it wasn't a complete nightmare after all. LOL!

Oh, I nearly forgot. I had just wasted the whole morning and afternoon of today. Pain pain pain! It was one of the worst. My face went pale and it felt like I was gonna pass out. I spent 6 hours sleeping the pain away. *triple sigh*

But I woke up watching the new JYJ MV - AYYY GIRL. :D = AWESOMENESS!!

New Discoveries

2010-10-25T22:00:00.000+10:00

Guess what I found... I was surfing the net with one of my housemates while having dinner, and we came across this blog. We found out that we could actually be 20th++ cousins of each other! (well, we usually use the term second cousins etc, and this is a little bit of exaggeration). At first we found a family tree of the five legendary Daengs, which develops further in Daeng Chelak's lineage. Then I got curious and googled some more. Then I came across this blog which is written by one of Daeng Chelak's descendants. I don't think it's a made up blog, because the evidences are pretty obvious and everything was explained in detail.

Anyways, as I read, it reminds me of a story that was once 'told' to me. :)

Melayu Beraja >> http://www.melayuberaja.org/

If you're also curious of what I'm talking about, feel free to visit that site. lol!

Oh! and I have some trivia for you girls! It's in Malay btw. 'How To Understand A Girl By The Way She Walks'. tehee. If you're interested, maybe I can translate it for you (for you non-Malay speaking people). But only after I get over my finals.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Berginjat
Jika dari belakang kelihatan seperti berginjat, wanita yang berjalan seperti ini dipercayai tidak jujur. Ketika berbicara, perkataan yang sering keluar dari mulutnya cenderung menyinggung perasaan orang lain.
Wanita yang berjalan seperti ini juga terkenal dengan sikap ego. Namun jangan risau, kerana wanita seperti ini biasanya menjadi pujaan ramai lelaki kerana memiliki wajah yang menarik.

Menoleh ke kiri dan ke kanan
Wanita yang berjalan sambil menoleh ke kiri dan ke kanan biasanya pandai menyimpan rahsia. Walaupun wanita seperti ini dianggap tidak jujur dan sombong tetapi banyak lelaki yang berusaha untuk menakluk hati mereka. Wanita seperti ini kononnya senang diatur dan diuruskan.

Menunduk
Wanita yang suka berjalan tunduk atau memandang ke bawah disifatkan memiliki sifat yang tertutup. Mereka hanya akan bergaul dengan orang yang rapat dan mereka yang dipercayai sahaja.
Wanita seperti ini biasanya sukar ditakluk hatinya. Di samping sikapnya yang dingin, wanita seperti ini tidak peduli dengan kehidupan cinta. Namun, jika ada lelaki yang berhasil menawan hati mereka, dijamin akan mendapat kebahagiaan. Sebab, wanita jenis ini sangat setia dan tidak akan mengkhianati lelaki yang dicintainya.

Kepala menegak
Jika berjalan menatap lurus ke depan. Wanita seperti ini biasanya memiliki pendirian yang teguh dan bukan mudah hendak menggoncangkan imannya. Jangan sekali-kali menentang apa yang pernah dikatanya, jika anda tidak mahu pergaduhan kecil tercetus. Jangan heran jika wanita seperti ini hanya mahu bergaul dengan orang yang berpengalaman luas saja.

Badan bergoyang
Jika wanita berjalan dengan pergerakan badannya ke kiri dan ke kanan, tandanya wanita itu tidak ambil peduli dengan masalah yang berlaku. Apa pun masalah yang ada dihadapannya, ia akan dianggap kecil. Padahal masalah itu sebenarnya memerlukan kebijaksanaan untuk diselesaikan. Sifatnya yang cuek menyebabkan banyak persoalan tidak dapat diselesaikan dan akibatnya merugikan diri sendiri.

Badan menegak
Jika berjalan badan tampak tegak. Wanita ini tegas menentukan sikapnya sendiri. Dia tidak mahu urusan peribadinya dicampuri oleh orang lain. Gaya bicaranya serius seperti ingin menunjukkan dia memiliki pendirian teguh. Yang menariknya, wanita ini bertanggungjawab terhadap apa yang dilakukannya. Dia menyenangi lelaki yang berdikari tanpa memiliki sifat-sifat yang manja.

Seperti jerapa
Jika berjalan seperti jerapa, maksudnya, ketika melangkahkan kaki, badannya kelihatan bergerak ke depan dan ke belakang. Wanita jenis ini memiliki perasaan sensitif. Dia seorang yang mudah terasa dan mudah tersinggung. Jadi, jika anda berbual dengan wanita seperti ini haruslah menjaga perasaannya agar tidak tersinggung, kerana wanita ini mudah mengalirkan air mata. (kosmo)

OK, That's all. Now gotta return to my finance CD~ -___-'''''

YATTA~!!

2010-10-25T12:54:00.000+10:00

:D Full marks for my finance quiz yet again! I did it while listening to Tohoshinki's 2nd LIVE TOUR 2007 'Five In The Black' and Tohoshinki's 'Video Clip Collection -THE ONE-' DVDs on TV. hehe~ While watching Micky Yoochun shed tears during the double encore, I submitted the quiz and voila! Ahhhh... I'm good at multi-tasking, aren't I? LOL!

But seriously... I miss watching TVXQ's LIVE performance as five, seeing them fooling around on stage and showing off their talents and handsome figures. And my favourite concert DVD is not with me. Oh, baby I miss you~~

Reasons To Fly

2010-10-22T18:51:00.002+10:00

Firstly I'd like to apologise for my previous post. It's not that there's anything wrong with it. It's just me being numb in the head and don't know what else to do. I don't even think I made much sense back there, so let's just ignore it. To those who could read between my clumsy lines, congratulations. But to those who can't, I can't blame you... LOL!

Anyways, here's another topic that has been playing inside my mind a LOT lately. Especially after seeing my juniors happily enjoying themselves overseas. Not many people are lucky enough to be offered to be subsidised to study in a foreign country (unless your parents are super rich!), but many are keen to fight for that spot, which to be honest, have never been part of my things-to-accomplish-in-life list. Honestly!

1. FAME
-People want to go overseas because they'll be marked as a very intelligent person. Friends, relatives and neighbours will be curious to know what has happened in your life after secondary education level and it'd be awesome if you could tell them that you'll be studying overseas under a scholarship. Cousins and aunties will envy you and you would have a reason to make other snobby people to look up at you.

2. ADVENTURE
-How many times in one's life that you'll get to travel freely in another country. A tourists visa could only last at most 3 months. When will you have a full three months to waste for an adventure in Europe?You'd have to apply for maternity leave or something if you're working. The best solution is to get yourself an overseas scholarship! While studying and racking your brains off to get good results (so that your sponsor won't scold you and bring you back home), you can plan heaps of journeys across Europe and its neighbouring countries! You can even come back as you feel like it. Why not, you have at least three years to use up!

3. STUDY?
-I think this will be the bottom most reason of a person who's flying overseas. Studying could never be a top priority for a student in this new millenium, trust me. It may be a top 3 or top 5, but never will it be no. 1. Why? Didn't those people send us overseas to learn? Didn't those big bosses of big big organisations went through all the trouble to pick the cream of the cream among students to groom to be the best for the future of its company and the future of its people? Wasn't the reason of them sending students overseas is to find the secrets of success of other nations to be brought back to our own country? So what happened?

Studying overseas isn't as easy as it looks or sound. Or maybe it's because I'm not bright enough, or maybe it's because my mind-set has never been directed towards this. I've never wished to go this far, yet I've been given the once-in-a-lifetime chance. Have I been treating my luck badly? Am I taking things for granted for the first time in my life?

Trendy?

2010-10-21T21:32:00.002+10:00

I still can't understand why people would sacrifice their own true personality just to be able to look as good as others. Or maybe not for the reason to look good, but simply not to fall back on what's hot in the world nowadays. What's going to hurt if you just stay by your own beliefs and not let yourself follow too much of the people around you? It is good to be part of the majority. It makes you feel safe. But it crushes your identity. And without identity, there's nothing more that you can be proud of.

I understand that it is inevitable to be trendy in a fashion sense, especially for us the female species. I'm not going to argue on that, since its a given. What I don't agree here is about our culture's trend. Yeah, I know. 'There she goes again with the talk about culture'... Well, forgive me, but culture is a very big issue. It may be just another word with its meaning scribbled in the dictionary for some of you. But once you get to experience another completely different culture first-hand, then that's going to change your mind.

Anyways, I'm talking nonsense again. I just... can't stand some people. Those people who are too self-conscious. Those people who thinks they're cute by doing something that could be done adorably by some others. Those people whose personality is to impersonate others. IT. ANNOYS. ME. VERY. MUCH.

I don't know how else to elaborate on this to make the exact point come across because I do not intend to hurt some people's feelings. But really, just keep being the way you are. Just because you find something new that is likable and some other people are also doing it, it doesn't mean that you also have to do the same. The most precious thing in life is to keep being who you are. That's the only way to help the whole nation to move on...

:(

However, some people won't even notice that they've changed themselves into something like this. That's simply a pity...

I Had Too Many Second Chances...

2010-10-18T07:54:00.001+10:00

Between all the TVXQ members, whose composed song would you enjoy the most? I mean, almost all of them has composed a song before, at least once. I think Yunho is the only one who haven't wrote a song before while Yoochun had wrote too many. Yoochun is a pretty established song writer. I think if he wasn't part of TVXQ, he would've been a professional at that. His songs are very enjoyable. Some of them do sound weird at the first listen, but I guess when the tune comes straight from your heart, it will always be able to make its way into other people's heart as well...

My favourite song writer is the one who sang this song below... <3

I'm not lying, but my heart is captured the moment I listened to its first beat! I have to admit, Jaejoong's songs has this ability on me. If I'm not mistaken, this is the third song from Jaejoong that has been added into a full length album. 9096 and Wasurenaide has its own charm that I can't explain as well. I have no idea what's playing inside that man's brain when he write songs. But his pieces are just amazing.

Every time I listened to this song 'Still In Love', I just felt like he's groping onto my heart. Nerve butterflies starts to fly around, and it almost felt like he was embracing me with the melody. How incredible is that? Absolutely, I've never felt like this when listening to a song, even his previous ones. And I'm not a fan of R&B to begin with! The only downside of this song is his pronunciation. But we all can't blame him, can we? He was the worst English speaker among the TVXQ members, I think. To think of it, he had never spoken English words unless for those one or two words in TVXQ's songs. Hmm, amazing. This man has never failed to surprise me.

This is a bit off topic, but I can't help comparing between him and Changmin. Everyone knows that I like Shim Changmin, for reasons still unknown even to myself. I just find him having the most similarities with me that it really felt like he could have been my twin. (yeah, I secretly wished I had a male twin hehe) But I also like Jaejoong for a whole different reasons. People would say that Jaejoong is desirable because of his hot looks, melodious voice and great humour whereas Changmin would have people say he's ultimately handsome and amazingly witty. There, Changmin already lost a point from Jaejoong, since Jaejoong has 3 desirable characteristics and Changmin only has two (consider this as a metaphore, will you?). In the showbiz, people would immediately like Jaejoong if not at first glance due to those characters. But I'm not one of them, because I see people in a whole different angle...

While Changmin could be a man who we know will do his best in everything, Jaejoong is the kind of man who secretly works his way up to impress other people. That's what I think... Jaejoong's charms is not within his hot looks, melodious voice, or even his great humour. His real charms lays within himself, the desire to be the best to make himself desirable. Other people has similar desires as well I'm sure, but Jaejoong's effort simply shows off this special glow within himself. Or am I the only one who can see it?

Anyways, please enjoy Jaejoong's latest composed song. I know I could only comprehend 85% of the song even though it's in English. Yeap, it was due to his weird pronunciation in some of the words. But the phrase that caught my attention at my first listen was 'I Had Too Many Second Chances...' It just felt like a whole fanfic all over again.

God, I haven't had these butterflies in a very long time...

When You Think Too Much

2010-10-15T21:25:00.002+10:00

Right now I'm listening to Dima Bilan's Believe again. It's been so long since I've listened to a foreign song that is not Korean or Japanese. The reason why I've suddenly mention about this is because I came across my old blog in wordpress, and this song was posted there along with its lyrics. After I revisited that blog, I felt like I need to change the layout of this blog (i know, totally random). I've been thinking about it for some time anyway. I want to do something different other than studying, and yet I'm afraid that the time will be lost. So changing the layout of this blog has been put into my pending list. Though, not doing this lead me into doing other useless things such as watching kdrama on viikii and downloading stuff from megaupload. I don't understand. Should I just let myself do whatever? Coz even when I prevent myself from doing something none beneficial, if my mind was set that I want to do that 'something', my studying will still get delayed no matter how I push that 'something' away until a later date.

I guess I should go easy on myself and let loose some ties. If I keep this up, I won't be able to accomplish the most of anything since I will keep on pondering on 'when should I do this', 'if I do this now, then I can do that later. but won't that take too much time? Maybe I should do it tomorrow' and even 'there's that movie going on today. I can watch it right? but what about my test? ah, that could wait until tomorrow. But!' which end up with me not doing either of them and just went to sleep for a whole 10 hours. People are saying that I sleep like babies. lol!

Anyways, I don't even know if I'm making sense so far, or if you would get what I mean. As what the title of this post says, I'm clearly thinking too much. I had so many things that I wish I could accomplish and yet I don't know which one I should start with, or if I should pursue two important dreams all at once. If that is even possible for a person like me...

I've also been thinking regarding youths in my home-country. It's been really critical on me, since I'm a type of person who enjoys discovering about culture and sociology (though I despise learning it formally). Every other second, the thoughts would randomly come up to me and I will start comparing Australia's youths with them, why this and why that... After being away from Malaysia for so many months and being accustomed with the culture here, I can't help but feel ashamed of our own youths. I can't help but conclude: 'no wonder the nation is full of corruption, has no unique identity and kept on left behind in plenty of things'. Just look at the youths that is supposed to shape the country's future! Ughhh... No wonder so many Malaysians have migrated here...

How thin headed could they be? In terms of admiring foreign cultures, why can't they see what's underneath them, what really shapes a culture into something honorable? Why does our youth kept on receiving EVERYTHING and never to produce and contribute? Why can't everyone in the nation stop thinking that what other people do is how things should be? Why can't they built their own dignity and personality, why must we live others'?

There are so many whys, and I wish I could just direct them specifically at the people around me. But I can't. Who would listen to a 21 year old like me and take my input seriously... Besides, I can't even express myself very well. People might get the wrong meaning of my words.

Yet Another Lost Opportunity...

2010-10-08T08:59:00.005+10:00

So far, I'm missing two of the concerts that I've been dreaming most to go to... As I've said in my previous post, one of them is JYJ's World Tour Showcase. Seriously, I'm dreading the online community just because of this at the moment. You have no idea how jealous I'm becoming each time I saw a comment from my fellow Malaysian if ever they mention about going to the showcase. I'm from Malaysia! I'm supposed to be able to go! If only I'm not studying abroad... :( And what saddens me more is the fact that Australia is not included in the world tour list when there's so many stops in the US. It's not fair!

I swear, if the survey to make them come to Australia succeeds, I'm going to ask to postpone my flight back to Malaysia!! It's not every year that they'll come to meet fans like this...

The other event that I'm missing is Maher Zain's live concert in Shah Alam!!!! ARGHHHH!! I know I've met him before in Sounds of Light here in Brisbane. But God, this one is HIS OWN concert! Just imagine how much song he will sing!

But well... What can I do... -___- Open youtube and watch available fancams je lahhh~

Like these ones:

Credits as tagged.

LOL~ At the first video, he requested for lights towards the audience. He wants to be able to see his audience when he sings. I think he has learned plenty from our reactions in the Sounds of Lights. He wasn't as communicative with the audience that much at first. He was like into his own world. But towards the end of his performance in Sounds of Light, he starts to acknowledge the audiences more, particularly at us Malaysians since we were doing hand waves all throughout his songs LOL! But from what I saw in the fancams, he already made contact with the audience the moment he steps onto the stage! That's a really really good sign! I can tell he's excited to meet other Malaysian fans after he met us. hehe

Oh how I wish I can be part of that crowd again...

p/s: I just noticed! Maher Zain's Malaysia's photo album on facebook has the most pictures out of all his other albums. And he even put a smiley beside it!!! :D

Lost Opportunity...

2010-10-06T15:55:00.001+10:00

I WANT TO GO...

SO BADLY!

T^T

I'm 21 but Acting Like 22?

2010-10-01T17:00:00.001+10:00

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[x] You own a credit card (debit card's the same, right?)
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car (can't even drive yet)
[x] You've done your own laundry
[x] You can vote in an election
[x] You can cook for yourself (I have to even if I don't want to T_T)
[x] You think politics are interesting (It is! Until corruption and showbizz gossips covered the whole point)

TOTAL SO FAR:7

[ ] You show up for school late a lot
[ ] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket
[x] You've never gotten a detention
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday (I'm not that forgetful...)
[x] You like to take walks by yourself
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up
[ ] You drink caffeine at least once a week (If I drink coffee I'll faint)

TOTAL SO FAR:10

[x] You know how to do the dishes
[x] You can count to 10 in another language
[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it (If only the people around me would realise that)
[x] You can mow the lawn
[x] You study even when you don't have to
[ ] You have hand washed a car before

TOTAL SO FAR: 15

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type pretty quick

TOTAL SO FAR: 18

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job. (That's called discrimination)
[x] You have more bills than you can pay (Believe it or not... =__=)
[x] You have been to the beach
[x] You use the internet every day
[ ] You have travelled overseas for more than 5 times
[x] You make your bed in the morning
[ ] You realised people of the opposite sex might just make better friends. (Never.)

TOTAL SO FAR : 22

GRAND TOTAL: 22

~~~
Took this from Funnie's facebook. lol! It's pretty pointless really, but I just feel like doing it. =) Now you know that I think more maturely than I'm supposed to. But I love to show my childish side often. Not like some other people out there, who wishes to act mature when they have a child's mind. No offence! CHOW!

Finally, pictures!

2010-09-29T16:35:00.002+10:00

My ECON's results is out! And it's pretty good considering the alien-ish questions there were. I think I might be those who scored above average. There were quite a few who scored waaaaay better than I did, but there were also some who did pretty bad. I think some even failed the paper. Even though I didn't ace this particular paper, I'm content mainly because I'm still in the 7 grade range at the moment. Now all I need to do is work hard for my finals and secure the grade!

Here are some stalker pic of me during the MASCA raya celebration. The cameraman took pictures of EVERYONE, so there weren't so many of mine. But that's okay. I had fun and that's all that matters.

This was taken before the event started. We were still preparing and arranging stuff. And some of us were still discussing on how to present the desserts.

That's me at the bottom left corner. I was arranging cups of tepung pelita into a container. I didn't even realise there was a camera!

Me at work. The girl beside me is Aisyah, and the guy holding the tissue is the MC for the event. He's cutting the line to get food. LOL!

That's Nadia. I can't remember what we were talking about. I think it's something about 'Should we reserve some food for ourselves? The line looks like it's not getting any shorter.' haha!

All The Reasons to S.M.I.L.E

2010-09-27T16:36:00.001+10:00

Lately, I seem to have all the reasons to make myself smile. =) Yeap, please smile for me too! It's still the month of Syawal anyways~ hihii

But first of all, I'd like to apologise for not updating this blog since a few weeks ago. Midsem was on so I had to limit myself from writing too much nonsense. LOL! And I guess it paid off! Well, not for my ACCT paper though. I think I screwed on that paper because I can't set my focus on the right track during the test. I can't find anyone who can anyway. It was the 2nd of Syawal that day and it's our first time celebrating it thousands of miles away from our families. It just felt different, that's all. But I didn't really mess up on my other midsem papers. Mostly I scored a 6 according to UQ marking system, which could still be considered as an A. Though I had aimed for A* a.k.a 7. That's okay, I'll work on that. ;D Only one more paper's outcome is still pending, and it's already sending me chills every night. It's the ECON's paper and omg the questions really were THE pain in the neck! It felt the same as when I was answering my Finance paper, though that one was fully MCQ. I can't decide which one was the hardest, but definitely both were a challenge. I made through Finance quite fine, and I hope I will too in Stats.

Anyways, seeing the good midsem results so far, that was the first few things that has been lifting my spirits up! Then came the MIDSEM BREAK~ weeeee~!!! Actually I wasn't that excited, but considering how tiring it was for the last few weeks, I was utterly grateful that the break is just around the corner. =) And just yesterday and the day before that, I was invited to open houses in conjuction with the raya celebration. Well, most of the students were having midsem exams during early Syawal, so all the main events of Syawal was postponed until last weekend. Both events that I went to was really fun! I took many pictures of when I was at the senior's house on Saturday, and I've posted all the pics on facebook. ;D Though I didn't get the chance to take any pictures during the MASCA raya celebration, because I was one of the volunteers, and I was too busy to even hold a camera/handphone in my hands. I hope the official cameraman took some pictures of me. hehe~ oh! and btw, we have plenty of food at our unit at the moment, due to the excess food after the event was over. There's rendang, nasi impit, fried spaghetti, kuah kacang, pulut kuning, and also tepung pelita! :D Yeah, I was a bit too greedy to ask to bring home all of those, but my stomach did ask for it! I just had to listen! wahaha!

That's some more of the reasons that made me smile. Fun and Food does get along well together right? ^_^ Well, the next thing is... my parcel arrived! yippee! After one and a half month... I wasn't completely devastated that my baju raya arrived just the day after the MASCA raya celebration was held. It's alright. Good thing I saved my favourite kurung pahang to be worn on that day. So it can still be considered as new for these Queenslanders~ LOL! So now I think I'm going to save this new baju raya for Hari Raya Haji! =) It's very pretty btw. Mom and Dad chose it for me, I just told them the colour. Hmm, maybe my sister helped too, I'm not sure. Cheongmal Kamsahamnida! <3 I love it! ^__^

And that's not all! I also aced my two latest quizzes!!! One of them was a perfect score. And the other one slacked by 1point. >_< That's alright. There's still CML4 and CML5. :D

The Proud Red Ocean

2010-09-06T20:36:00.000+10:00

Brisbane QBE Riverfire 2010

2010-09-05T09:04:00.001+10:00

I only knew about this festival TWO days before its actual event date! OMG. Riverfire is like the annual 'play with the fireworks' kind of night, I think. It was the coolest thing ever! And I've missed it!

We had our usual Iftar With The Girls yesterday night, and the event started at around 7pm, which was when we were performing Isya' and tarawih prayers. And this time it was held at one of our coursemate's house in Taringa. It's a bit far from St Lucia, but its a lovely place, very hilly~ XD (I saw a Bentley parked outside of their neighbour's house! This is insane!!) Since the Riverfire was held at Brisbane River, definitely we won't have the closest view, but we can still see it from afar! Gosh, it was BEAUTIFUL! Very colourful, and definitely TOO MUCH fireworks! And very noisy even from Taringa lol!

The Riverfire is held all the way along the Brisbane River, so there aren't any specific place you can sit at and be able to watch everything. Unless you're watching it from the sky. =)

I found some good videos on it. Watch it!!

credit: div8digital@youtube

credit: sulphate76@youtube

The climax of the event starts at 9:20 on the second video. Gosh, when I saw it, it was seriously scary. As if a ball of fire just came out of nowhere into the sky. It was loud and VERY bright! And it roamed the sky for a while. One of my friends commented that it sort of felt like The End of Days~ And just now I thought the ball of fire looked like a relative of Superman is coming to visit. XD Haha!

They say that September is the festival month in Brisbane. It's only been the 5th of September, I wonder what else they have in store for this lovely community~ :D

So instead of enjoying the colourful fireworks up close, we get to eat Pavlova my housemate made for us! It was yummy even though it doesn't look exactly like one. lolx!

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